The fighting scared me. But I knew whatever we were doing we were doing it for all the wrong reasons. I didn't care if we broke up and just became friends I couldn't take this anymore. 

"Hyung what are we doing?" He asked me after Joon had broken up another attempt at trying to get each other's attention by fighting

I looked at him and I knew that whatever was about to come out of my mouth I had been holding back for to damn long. I didn't want to say it but I had to. This wasn't healthy anymore. Not like it was before. 

"We aren't doing anything. That's the point. The only reason we fight is so we can make up and it's not good for us. Kookie I don't think I can do this anymore."
I looked at the ground.

"Me too." He said and I heard a certainty in his voice that hit right at home. 

My heart wasn't breaking as it might have before. Actually, I felt relief. I looked at him and he looked at me and we smiled. 

"Remember the beach house?" He  asked.

I  smiled and nodded. "I remember everything."

Nothing had ever felt the same way that first time had. Nothing ever would. We would always have that memory when we felt down and needed reassurance that it wasn't all a lie. That was comforting to me.

"You still get nightmares without me?"

"I don't know honestly." 

I smiled. "I guess we'll find out. I want to go to bed. I'll see you in the morning Jungkook."

"Goodnight Hyung."
I went to my room and stayed there restless for a while and then I couldn't help it. I grabbed my phone and texted him 

One more night please

I felt a dread come over me

Whatever you need until your better

I smiled and waited for him. I watched him come in and my heart felt better.

"Just one night I promise."

He came and lied next to me 

"Will this change anything?" I asked

He shook his head. "No, our friendship is better than it has ever been." 

I  smiled "Just promise you won't let me go."

"I'm never letting you go Hyung."

"I still love you Kookie."

"I still love you too Tae."