I want to write this, after seeing Hyo Joo crying at Kim Joo Hyuks funeral, yesterday. I didn't know him furthermore, but I want to wish him all the best, for his journey after life and for his family, that he will protect, forever.

This is a sensitive topic. I don't know what she feels and felt, I don't know what Jonk Suk feels. But I know how it is to lose someone. And how it is to just be aware of the transiency of life. So this is the prequel to Halloween (Part II). A weak moment we all have sometimes. I hope she has them with the person she loves.

October, 31, 2017

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As Hyo Joo stepped into her apartment, she sank against the door, and exhaled. She didn’t know why this was actually so hard. Who was she to be so sad over this…

Maybe because it was so fast. So… suddenly. She was suddenly so painfully aware of what a life means. And how fast it could be over.

Another tear crawled down her cheek. She didn’t want to be alone now.

Was she selfish? It wasn’t her family, it wasn’t… and then she saw him. He stared at her and for a moment there was nothing but the look in his eyes. He had his hands in his jeans pockets and breathed, waiting for a reaction of her.

But she had none. She didn’t even know why this was so bad for her. She didn’t even know… why she was so sad. She didn’t know why she was scared. And why she wanted him so badly. If she was allowed to… to want comfort.

“He’s dead”, she whispered finally.

And there he stepped close, pressed her to his chest and she started to sob. His shirt was getting wet from her tears, but he didn’t mind. Her hands were digging into the backside of his shirt. And his lips were on her neck. Calmingly.

She knew it was ok. She would stop again soon. Spend this evening with him. Let his laughter and joy fill her.

But right now, she just wanted to feel the sadness in this world. She wanted to feel him, while she cried over all this pain.

And she wanted to be weak.