Just and Only

Value of Love

Sun rays invaded and soon enough lighten up their rooms. Each was equally tired and mind exhausted from continually thinking about the leader's health condition. Tired or not, they manage to woke up by theirselves maybe because they didn't sleep half the night from constant worrying still they stood up and emerged their respective rooms one by one.

Taekwoon remained inside his room to call Hakyeon but the latter must be still sleeping because his calls were not answered. Again, last retreat he send Hakyeon a message that they will visit him.

Taekwoon, as usual, prepared the breakfast for the kids. They take turn to shower and finally they rode their car for their schedule. Taekwoon lead the kids for briefings they go for a short one just to overlook for the whole script of their schedule today thankfully that it's only an interview for a chinese TV news report. Earlier than the schedule's endshift, they grab the opportunity of spare time to buy some foods, flowers and gifts for Hakyeon and without wasting any more time because they were just super duperly exzoited to visit their hyung they headed right away to the hospital after the quick shopping and they didn't bother to change the sched outfits too.

While on the ride, Taekwoon called Hakyeon for so, so many times that he himself can't count anymore but the leader hasn't even one picked his calls. They arrived at the hospital still Hakyeon didn't answer his calls.

They run-walk in the hallway to get as fast as they could to the leader's room without looking they rushed their way. As they get nearer to the room they can heard noises coming from Hakyeon's room were mostly laughters.

They stopped at trance and looked at each other wondering who is laughing inside and who had made Hakyeon laugh like he's the happiest person ever.

Indeed, that was Hakyeon, who laughs his belly to torn apart.

Upon opening the door they entered inside and the laughters were gone like a balloon that was suddenly popped.

Hakyeon stopped with his mouth open due to halt laughter, five pairs of eyes on him; he tried to break the silence.

“Uhm...this is my friend, Wongeun.” Hakyeon introduced his friend. “Wongeun, this is my members.” He gestured towards the VIXX members.

Sanghyuk studied carefully the face of Hakyeon's friend. He definitely saw that face somewhere.

Due to Sanghyuk rude staring, Wongeun felt uncomfortable with him.

Wongeun lean to Hakyeon who is sitting with his back leaned to the bed hedboard and whispers something to the leader's ear that bring laughters to his lips and Hakyeon throws a weak punch to his chest.

If the members didn't know Hakyeon well they should at least guessed now that the two were lovers by the way they act towards each other especially they aren't awkward even though they only had a sheet of paper distance between them and the way skinships were all over them like it’s the most normal thing between the two, they sure are lovers but if they really were, at least, Hakyeon must have informed them.

But Hakyeon introduced him as his friend.

Maybe they are over-thinking the whole thing.

In time Sanghyuk had realized this Wongeun was the friend who spent the vacation with Hakyeon...the one in Hakyeon's IG posts.

This made things more suspicious.

Hakyeon looked at Sanghyuk signalling him to stop staring at Wongeun because its rude. Sanghyuk knows well what Hakyeon mean so he does.

“Why aren't you asnwering my calls?”

Taekwoon suddenly talked that brought awkwardness back.

Hakyeon remained silent for a while before he realized the question was meant for him.

“Sorry.” Hakyeon said.

“Sorry?...that's all Hakyeon?” Taekwoon asked scaringly.

Hakyeon flicnhed he didn't expect Taekwoon would throw his cold attitude at him in this kind of situation but the leader manage to make an excuse.

“My phone's inside the drawer and is silent.”

Taekwoon pulled opened the bedside drawer and picked out the leader's phone.

He wished he hadn't let his outburst turned this way.

He opens the phone easily and displays ‘VIXX Leo, 27 missed calls.’

It wasn't the number that must have brought anger to Taekwoon. And now it's not about the missed calls anymore. It wasn't the missed calls at all.

‘VIXX Leo’

That was him to Hakyeon.

Just...just a member of VIXX.

VIXX that only connects the leader to him.

The only relationship they had.

Taekwoon thought he was that ‘lifelong friend’ of Hakyeon but he must have thought wrong then.

He pulled out his own phone from his pocket and tried to call the leader's phone number for once but the same name popped up from the screen.

‘VIXX Leo, calling.’

“Try calling this phone.” He commanded the four members. But they deemed not to understand what Taekwoon meant. “NOW!” He yelled. “Starting from you Sanghyuk.” He explained.

Scared, Sanghyuk called Hakyeon's phone number and so the rest also did.

‘VIXX Hyuk’ ‘VIXX Ken’ ‘VIXX Hongbin’ ‘VIXX Ravi’

That's all they mean for Hakyeon.

A member.

Not kids...anymore.

No wonder he introduced them as s and not friends.

“Can I borrow your phone for a while?” Taekwoon asked Wongeun.

“Oh!?...ye-yes.” Flustered from a sudden request still Wongeun gave his phone to Taekwoon.

Taekwoon tried calling Hakyeon's phone using Wongeun's.

He didn't know why he's doing this to himself. He truly knows whatever name popped up on the screen now it doesn't matter anymore because that wouldn't change the fact that he and other four were no longer friends and brothers to Hakyeon but a member only...just and only a member.

‘Wonwonnie, calling.’

Upon the screen light up on and displayed the nickname it seems like the whole world of Taekwoon was darken and shut off.

Confirmed.

Hakyeon and I were no longer lifelong friends...or even just friends.

Taekwoon hand out the phone back to Wongeun and utter his thanks.

“N...” Taekwoon started. “We'll be leaving these foods and gifts to you. We still have schedule tom as VIXX and we didn't want to bother your private time with your friend.” He said and turned his look at the youngsters. “Right?” He asked. “Let's go!” He didn't even bid goodbye to Hakyeon he walked out of the room and run fast outside the hospital building and run again to the darkness of the buildings left side.

He stopped. Stood panting heavily.

He punched the wall hardly.

Then punched again.

The pain on his knuckles could not cover the pain on his heart.

“Its' too late.”

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Bapvixx6
#1
Chapter 27: I literally cried because I thought I was the only that notice how they treat hakyeon it use to make me so mad that they wouldn’t want to be his partner or let him touch then or look like he bothered them and while over starlights would say oh they’re just teasing I couldn’t help but not like the teasing I didn’t wanna feel that way towards the members but I could help but feel angry and sad there was one show where they literally high five when they didn’t have hakyeon as their partner then they did Rock Paper Scissors to see who had to be hakyeons part and who ever didn’t would smile and laugh like ughh but that was a while back fyi I love each and everyone of vixx equally I’m not one of them solo Stans that hate every member but my bias [ I bias hakyeon hongbin and hyuk] and I’ve notices it’s gotten better it just use to make me sad how they use to act towards hakyeon to the point I wouldn’t finish the show they where on
sunshine_starlight
#2
Chapter 27: As a hardcore Starlight, I've felt really bad for Yeonie and although he pretends like he doesn't take all the insults to heart, it still reflects in his face. Many times, or too many times, I was angry because he was discriminated for so many things, and especially his skin complexion. Though the boys claim to be simply teasing him, the hurt is still real and it hurts me to see him being mistreated too. I remember him asking to the camera in One Fine Day, "Am I too easy? Is that why they tease me too much?” that really broke me. They refused to be grouped with him. Refused to listen to him. Refused to do anything he ever suggested, whereas he's the leader. And no one could replace him.

I truly hope that it is really as what they're claiming, that it's all simple teasing and no personal hatred. I wish for VIXX's happiness, as all 6 of them together and I hope they understand the real value of Cha Hakyeon's love. And thank you for such emotional storyline, author-nim. From the way you narrated, I believe that you perhaps you found the mistreating towards Yeonie to be unfair and hurting and this was your way of defending him. I cried a lot but I loved your work from the bottom of my heart.

Once again thank you and FIGHTING for your future undertakings as well!
sapphiresapphirine
#3
Chapter 26: In all honesty, there have been a few times that I cried because of how Hakyeon has been treated by s. Everything seemed to be so good in the beginning, but then, as if overnight, everyone started to outcast him and only ever complained or say negative things about him. Not to mention the hate or mistreatment he sometimes got from those outside of the VIXX members.
So many people say that the members love Hakyeon and are only teasing him, but I swear I saw real hurt on his face on more than one occasion, and if it was that bad on-camera, I couldn't imagine what happened off-camera.

That said, I was monitoring them closely the past year, and it seems that the relationships have gotten better than it was before. Of course, they haven't been on many shows as a group, so I can't really say, but a lot of the interactions I've seen have given me hope that VIXX are at a better place than they were before (I'm still iffy on Hongbin, but I'm still watching). I just hope that it will continue like this or get better as this year unfolds.

My point of all this is, I really didn't want to read this story because I knew I would cry. I did, several times, because it's a very believable concept that may have actually occurred (which would explain why the members are much nicer and more patient with Hakyeon since 2017/late 2016), is possibly occurring now (after all, we don't really know what goes on off-camera between them), or may occur in the future. Some part of me hopes that Hakyeon did or will "turn his back" on the others in some way (and care from afar, because I doubt he'd really desert them), so that they got/get a reality check and/or he realized/s that yes, he should put himself before anyone else, or at least not invest his whole heart and soul into people that only push him away.

Maybe I sound a bit harsh. I don't mean to. It's just that I was the same way, and though it hurt, and still hurts, I find not investing my heart and soul into anyone, while still caring for them (if that makes sense), is safer and hurts less than to be betrayed and frequently hurt by the ones you thought were your friends, family, brothers, sisters, or eternal presence that you couldn't imagine out of your life.... (the examples just examples; they all don't apply to me. :P)

But I wouldn't have felt right not reading this, so here I am. You did a wonderful job, especially since you said this was your first story. It made me cry, yes, but it made me happy that at least in this fictional world, VIXX has a happy open-ended resolution. I especially liked the way you wrote Jaehwan. Maybe people seem to forget that he has a serious side to him and can act like a hyung as well, but I loved the "just to remind you" part. He does have his moments where something sweet or emotional suddenly becomes sarcastic and/or, for lack of better word, "bratty." So awesome job on that!
I'm also happy that it seems not everyone is blind to the fact that Hakyeon might actually be hurt at times, and may have been (or is still) under-appreciated by the members at least at some point.

Oh, and just in case I may have given the wrong impression, I don't hold grudges against the other members. In fact, I easily move on from things if I see changes. For example, in all honesty, I liked everyone at first, but once things started going crazy, I despised Hongbin and Sanghyuk the most because they treated Hakyeon the worst (this was at the time Taekwoon and Wonshik were my bias, not Hakyeon, so I wasn't playing favorites). However, I noticed Hakyeon and Sanghyuk's relationship improved after the dissing war in 2016, to the point that now Sanghyuk actually lets Hakyeon do as he pleases to him for a while, so Sanghyuk has returned to being that softspot in my heart (which I am happy about. I loved ChaSang interactions during 2012 and some of 2013. It always warmed my heart, even now. And I love their interactions now. Although not the same as before, which is kind of sad, it's still sweet).
Hongbin, on the other hand, is really confusing me. One minute he's nice and actually plays with Hakyeon, and the next, he's very mean toward him (such as not giving a message to Hakyeon for their 5th anniversary, and begging Sanghyuk to tell him what to say to Hakyeon during his birthday special).
Because of that, I am still cautious and don't expect too much from Hongbin, but I am still looking out for any general improvements like I did with Sanghyuk and the other members.

Great job! Lovely story. ^ ^
xandra_summer #4
Chapter 26: Thank you so much for this wonderful story.......
I just feel sometimes it really happen...
I cried but i also feel refresh because you really feel the worth of someone or something if its no longer with you. .....
lunaticJTW
#5
Chapter 27: I love this so much!!!1! I was so immune to character deaths that those didn't make me cry but you ??? How ??? Why was my heart more broken when they fought like yshzhz pls
lunaticJTW
#6
Chapter 26: I have one thing to remind y'all vixx

E l e c t r i c b i l l
6xthday
#7
Chapter 26: Thank you very much for this wonderful story authornim!!!!!!
MaknaeJuls
#8
Chapter 26: "Hakyeon will get there with Taekwoon, Jaehwan, Wonshik, Hongbin and Sanghyuk on both his sides. The process is as important as what awaits for them in the end of the tunnel."

I need to quote this authornim, it's soooo lovely and sweet. The most beautiful ending for a no ship fic like this. You did a great job in this fic authornim.

Thank you for this story. As you always say, lovelots with the heart <3
Chinkeefeb
#9
Chapter 26: Such a sweetest ending authornim thank you for this fic and great job authornim :>>>