Warm Secrets

Value of Love

Hongbin stood up from where he's sitted and stormed out to his own room. He put on his own jacket and bring a pair of mitten. He encircled a scarf on his neck and put another scarf on his left shoulder. Just then he realized why it's still so cold outside even though it's summer. He shook his head to shrugged not so important questions because he still have a task on hand. He went out and took the step towards Hakyeon's room.

The few steps to the door felt like he was walking on a thick coat of snow dipping his bare feet, giving ice cold shot right from his soles through his heart.

Still, he continued and pry opened the door and directed himself to the closet and grab one of the thickest jacket Hakyeon ever had.

He went back to the living room and reassured the others that he can bring their leader back, not frozen, but warmed.

Hongbin stepped out from the elevator once it produces a 'ding' sound indicating he reached the ground floor already. He went past the receptionist table without giving her info on where he will go. But he go back again to ask the recept if Hakyeon went out the building. The recept told him "yes" and he rushed outside the building forgetting to even thank the recept.

Once he finally stood outside the building, swoosh of cold breeze run through him giving him shivers. He felt cold, but how is it more for Hakyeon who wears nothing but his sleepwear. Without wasting time, he directed himself to one place he knows Hakyeon will retreat to whenever the latter needs a peace of mind.

He run a block away from the entrance of the building and turned left to walked pass over a cafe and crossed the street and turned right and run again through stairs up to climb a lifted hill. He wonders why there is this part where the landscape is way more lifted compared to the roads and common building in the edge of the city. He pushed back his thoughts once he walked passed a playground on top of this hill and took his steps as quiet as cats in his shoes as if he was walking on a thin layer of freshly coated snow on the ground tracing the first sets of footprints blemished on the perfect surface following to where it will lead him. ‘My imaginations have no limits!’ He thought. But then as he imagined following the footsteps on the snow in his mind, it lead him to the queen.

Hongbin stood one span away from him. He watched the leader hold himself while looking down to the vast sea of lights dancing to their own beats of life. He let his own thought wander why Hakyeon is like this. The leader would never run outside in that kind of clothes. Has he lost his sanity? Is he sane? Hongbin smacked mentally his head. The leader must be tired, exhausted, drained out, emptied that's why he needed alone time. But what actually made Hongbin shivers despite the warm clothes of his is that, he half-realized what had him and the members acted towards Hakyeon.

The members gave enough shares to contribute in hurting their leader. But he thought it was solely him who must have completed and added a whole lot in hurting the precious man.

He himself always wanted to go outside Hakyeon's view to avoid his...wait? ‘What is it really that I hate about Hakyeon?’ He asked himself. ‘Well it's...ugh! Are those only for teasings?...how messed up real-talk am I?’ He doubted about himself. He became mean to Hakyeon only just to . And now, he physically smacked his head.

By smacking his head, his thought was shoved away and now he ped the jacket and diminished the remaining distance from him to the tan man and draped over to the slicked shoulders the jacket and firmly placed it properly on him. He stood beside him and turned the tan man to face him looking bewildered but Hongbin ignored the leader's expression and encircled the tan long neck with the scarf. Hongbin lays his hand on the leader's upperarm squeezing it lightly and study the face of his leader.

Hakyeon's cheeks were like overriped tomatoes, where his lips are blueberries and his ears were cherries. The leader was frozen cold. He didn't think of it much and hugged the tan man. If Hongbin could voluntarily release warm from his body he longed done it already just to make sure Hakyeon will not fully freeze to death. As if his body cooperated with his mind, Hongbin felt the small figure inside his arm's shelter gave in with the warmth emanated by his wrapping arms and firm chest. He roamed his hands up and down Hakyeon's back to ease him and finally ruffle his hair and gave him a weak nudge of the back of his head and whisper to him “Pabo.”

Only then Hakyeon realized what situation he had fallen into. He loosen his balled fist on the younger's jacket and tries to push him lightly to escape himself from the warm shelter even though the center spot of his whole body do not want to let go from Hongbin's hug. ‘Why does my heart still care for them?’ Hakyeon asked his thought while fully exiting the arms surrounding him.

Hakyeon stood half-step away from Hongbin. He positioned himself again to his previous spot while slipping his arms to the jacket fully and continued looking down the black sea of the city under a starry night.

Hakyeon could feel that Hongbin is looking at him, not even paying attention to the stunning night scenery in front of them, but Hakyeon ignored him.

“Why did you follow me here?”

Hongbin still looking at Hakyeon as if he was memorizing every detail of the tan man's facial feature and body figure he didn't let his eyes wander around anything even how beautiful the surrounding was because the most important superb creature that ever live on earth was in front of his very eyes.

“Well it's only me who can follow you here.” Smile slowly dipping in Hongbin's lips from what he said. He felt proud that he shared a secret base of comfort with the leader.

“You can leave now.”

“I don't want to though...”

Hakyeon scratched his palms together and blow warm puff of air to it but still his hands were freezing cold.

Hongbin put out the pair of mittens from his jacket's pouch and wear the right hand of the mitten. He then grabbed Hakyeon's left hand to slip in the left pair of the mittens. After carefully doing so, Hongbin held Hakyeon's right hand with his left hand and gently intertwined their fingers locking sealed enough to feel warmth from each other's hands. But Hongbin's eyes never looked away the view of Hakyeon's vulnerability.

Hakyeon, shocked but not frozen cold anymore, tries to get his right hand away from the younger's hold but Hongbin did not let him do it and just held his hand even tighter.

“Sorry I brought only a pair of mittens...I forgot because I came in a hurry.”

“As I have told you, you don't have to.”

“But I want to.” Hongbin replied quickly. “I haven't seen this kind of you these past weeks...stubborn Hakyeon.”

“You know why?...”

Hakyeon asked Hongbin but the latter answered him rather quick.

“I know why.”

Silence stretched between them only howls of dogs from afar were heard delivering them scary goosebumps under their warm clothing. But they stay stilled standing, side by side, holding each other's hands as if their life's warm depends on it.

“You really need to go back.” Hakyeon managed to spoke up despite of solid ice lips.

“Same as you.”

“You'll freeze here.” Hakyeon said and turned his head to face Hongbin.

Hongbin looked straight to caramel brown deep eyes as if Hakyeon's eyes were swallowing him, drowning him, leading him to the owner's heart. The doors to the sincerity of Hakyeon were open and Hongbin is so much willing to enter that and finally make up to the mistakes and pain he'd caused the leader.

“But you are worth freezing for.”

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Bapvixx6
#1
Chapter 27: I literally cried because I thought I was the only that notice how they treat hakyeon it use to make me so mad that they wouldn’t want to be his partner or let him touch then or look like he bothered them and while over starlights would say oh they’re just teasing I couldn’t help but not like the teasing I didn’t wanna feel that way towards the members but I could help but feel angry and sad there was one show where they literally high five when they didn’t have hakyeon as their partner then they did Rock Paper Scissors to see who had to be hakyeons part and who ever didn’t would smile and laugh like ughh but that was a while back fyi I love each and everyone of vixx equally I’m not one of them solo Stans that hate every member but my bias [ I bias hakyeon hongbin and hyuk] and I’ve notices it’s gotten better it just use to make me sad how they use to act towards hakyeon to the point I wouldn’t finish the show they where on
sunshine_starlight
#2
Chapter 27: As a hardcore Starlight, I've felt really bad for Yeonie and although he pretends like he doesn't take all the insults to heart, it still reflects in his face. Many times, or too many times, I was angry because he was discriminated for so many things, and especially his skin complexion. Though the boys claim to be simply teasing him, the hurt is still real and it hurts me to see him being mistreated too. I remember him asking to the camera in One Fine Day, "Am I too easy? Is that why they tease me too much?” that really broke me. They refused to be grouped with him. Refused to listen to him. Refused to do anything he ever suggested, whereas he's the leader. And no one could replace him.

I truly hope that it is really as what they're claiming, that it's all simple teasing and no personal hatred. I wish for VIXX's happiness, as all 6 of them together and I hope they understand the real value of Cha Hakyeon's love. And thank you for such emotional storyline, author-nim. From the way you narrated, I believe that you perhaps you found the mistreating towards Yeonie to be unfair and hurting and this was your way of defending him. I cried a lot but I loved your work from the bottom of my heart.

Once again thank you and FIGHTING for your future undertakings as well!
sapphiresapphirine
#3
Chapter 26: In all honesty, there have been a few times that I cried because of how Hakyeon has been treated by s. Everything seemed to be so good in the beginning, but then, as if overnight, everyone started to outcast him and only ever complained or say negative things about him. Not to mention the hate or mistreatment he sometimes got from those outside of the VIXX members.
So many people say that the members love Hakyeon and are only teasing him, but I swear I saw real hurt on his face on more than one occasion, and if it was that bad on-camera, I couldn't imagine what happened off-camera.

That said, I was monitoring them closely the past year, and it seems that the relationships have gotten better than it was before. Of course, they haven't been on many shows as a group, so I can't really say, but a lot of the interactions I've seen have given me hope that VIXX are at a better place than they were before (I'm still iffy on Hongbin, but I'm still watching). I just hope that it will continue like this or get better as this year unfolds.

My point of all this is, I really didn't want to read this story because I knew I would cry. I did, several times, because it's a very believable concept that may have actually occurred (which would explain why the members are much nicer and more patient with Hakyeon since 2017/late 2016), is possibly occurring now (after all, we don't really know what goes on off-camera between them), or may occur in the future. Some part of me hopes that Hakyeon did or will "turn his back" on the others in some way (and care from afar, because I doubt he'd really desert them), so that they got/get a reality check and/or he realized/s that yes, he should put himself before anyone else, or at least not invest his whole heart and soul into people that only push him away.

Maybe I sound a bit harsh. I don't mean to. It's just that I was the same way, and though it hurt, and still hurts, I find not investing my heart and soul into anyone, while still caring for them (if that makes sense), is safer and hurts less than to be betrayed and frequently hurt by the ones you thought were your friends, family, brothers, sisters, or eternal presence that you couldn't imagine out of your life.... (the examples just examples; they all don't apply to me. :P)

But I wouldn't have felt right not reading this, so here I am. You did a wonderful job, especially since you said this was your first story. It made me cry, yes, but it made me happy that at least in this fictional world, VIXX has a happy open-ended resolution. I especially liked the way you wrote Jaehwan. Maybe people seem to forget that he has a serious side to him and can act like a hyung as well, but I loved the "just to remind you" part. He does have his moments where something sweet or emotional suddenly becomes sarcastic and/or, for lack of better word, "bratty." So awesome job on that!
I'm also happy that it seems not everyone is blind to the fact that Hakyeon might actually be hurt at times, and may have been (or is still) under-appreciated by the members at least at some point.

Oh, and just in case I may have given the wrong impression, I don't hold grudges against the other members. In fact, I easily move on from things if I see changes. For example, in all honesty, I liked everyone at first, but once things started going crazy, I despised Hongbin and Sanghyuk the most because they treated Hakyeon the worst (this was at the time Taekwoon and Wonshik were my bias, not Hakyeon, so I wasn't playing favorites). However, I noticed Hakyeon and Sanghyuk's relationship improved after the dissing war in 2016, to the point that now Sanghyuk actually lets Hakyeon do as he pleases to him for a while, so Sanghyuk has returned to being that softspot in my heart (which I am happy about. I loved ChaSang interactions during 2012 and some of 2013. It always warmed my heart, even now. And I love their interactions now. Although not the same as before, which is kind of sad, it's still sweet).
Hongbin, on the other hand, is really confusing me. One minute he's nice and actually plays with Hakyeon, and the next, he's very mean toward him (such as not giving a message to Hakyeon for their 5th anniversary, and begging Sanghyuk to tell him what to say to Hakyeon during his birthday special).
Because of that, I am still cautious and don't expect too much from Hongbin, but I am still looking out for any general improvements like I did with Sanghyuk and the other members.

Great job! Lovely story. ^ ^
xandra_summer #4
Chapter 26: Thank you so much for this wonderful story.......
I just feel sometimes it really happen...
I cried but i also feel refresh because you really feel the worth of someone or something if its no longer with you. .....
lunaticJTW
#5
Chapter 27: I love this so much!!!1! I was so immune to character deaths that those didn't make me cry but you ??? How ??? Why was my heart more broken when they fought like yshzhz pls
lunaticJTW
#6
Chapter 26: I have one thing to remind y'all vixx

E l e c t r i c b i l l
6xthday
#7
Chapter 26: Thank you very much for this wonderful story authornim!!!!!!
MaknaeJuls
#8
Chapter 26: "Hakyeon will get there with Taekwoon, Jaehwan, Wonshik, Hongbin and Sanghyuk on both his sides. The process is as important as what awaits for them in the end of the tunnel."

I need to quote this authornim, it's soooo lovely and sweet. The most beautiful ending for a no ship fic like this. You did a great job in this fic authornim.

Thank you for this story. As you always say, lovelots with the heart <3
Chinkeefeb
#9
Chapter 26: Such a sweetest ending authornim thank you for this fic and great job authornim :>>>