Lee Jaehwan

Value of Love

Loud noise is banging the three wall-one mirror wall room. A noise that is just repeatedly wanting to escape the room. A noise that sounded almost like a song if it was played from start to end without pausing it from time to time interrupting the whole melody of the song.

A video-recording device was on, making sure that every bit of their moves were perfectly in sync to the rythm. Despite of the cold humidity of the room that was steadied already an hour before their practice, sweats are still dripping from their forehead rolling to their cheeks and finally letting go from their chin being pulled down by the gravity ending its journey to the floor.

A continuous repititive stomp of the feet, wave of the bodies, flapping of the arms, shaking of the hips and turning of the heads to every beat of the song were exhausting, sipping out their energy and patience.

Everyone was tired already because of the same dance moves they're doing and all of them were fed up to the max of their limit.

“Jaehwan-ah, for how many times do we need to do the same routine over and over?” Hakyeon sounded as if he was scolding the younger but still remained calm. “We've been doing this for about an hou-”

“STOP!” Jaehwan exclaimed cutting Hakyeon's sentence. “I.AM.NOT.YOU.” Jaehwan continues emphasizing each and every word. “Stop making me feel like I'm doomed with these d*mn dances. I am not like you and will never be.” Jaehwan turned his back. “The Great Cha Hakyeon.”

Without waiting for Hakyeon to reply or anyone to stop him, Jaehwan walked out and slammed the door as forcefully as he can for the door to inevitably produce a loud shutting sound.

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Bapvixx6 #1
Chapter 27: I literally cried because I thought I was the only that notice how they treat hakyeon it use to make me so mad that they wouldn’t want to be his partner or let him touch then or look like he bothered them and while over starlights would say oh they’re just teasing I couldn’t help but not like the teasing I didn’t wanna feel that way towards the members but I could help but feel angry and sad there was one show where they literally high five when they didn’t have hakyeon as their partner then they did Rock Paper Scissors to see who had to be hakyeons part and who ever didn’t would smile and laugh like ughh but that was a while back fyi I love each and everyone of vixx equally I’m not one of them solo Stans that hate every member but my bias [ I bias hakyeon hongbin and hyuk] and I’ve notices it’s gotten better it just use to make me sad how they use to act towards hakyeon to the point I wouldn’t finish the show they where on
sunshine_starlight #2
Chapter 27: As a hardcore Starlight, I've felt really bad for Yeonie and although he pretends like he doesn't take all the insults to heart, it still reflects in his face. Many times, or too many times, I was angry because he was discriminated for so many things, and especially his skin complexion. Though the boys claim to be simply teasing him, the hurt is still real and it hurts me to see him being mistreated too. I remember him asking to the camera in One Fine Day, "Am I too easy? Is that why they tease me too much?” that really broke me. They refused to be grouped with him. Refused to listen to him. Refused to do anything he ever suggested, whereas he's the leader. And no one could replace him.

I truly hope that it is really as what they're claiming, that it's all simple teasing and no personal hatred. I wish for VIXX's happiness, as all 6 of them together and I hope they understand the real value of Cha Hakyeon's love. And thank you for such emotional storyline, author-nim. From the way you narrated, I believe that you perhaps you found the mistreating towards Yeonie to be unfair and hurting and this was your way of defending him. I cried a lot but I loved your work from the bottom of my heart.

Once again thank you and FIGHTING for your future undertakings as well!
sapphiresapphirine #3
Chapter 26: In all honesty, there have been a few times that I cried because of how Hakyeon has been treated by s. Everything seemed to be so good in the beginning, but then, as if overnight, everyone started to outcast him and only ever complained or say negative things about him. Not to mention the hate or mistreatment he sometimes got from those outside of the VIXX members.
So many people say that the members love Hakyeon and are only teasing him, but I swear I saw real hurt on his face on more than one occasion, and if it was that bad on-camera, I couldn't imagine what happened off-camera.

That said, I was monitoring them closely the past year, and it seems that the relationships have gotten better than it was before. Of course, they haven't been on many shows as a group, so I can't really say, but a lot of the interactions I've seen have given me hope that VIXX are at a better place than they were before (I'm still iffy on Hongbin, but I'm still watching). I just hope that it will continue like this or get better as this year unfolds.

My point of all this is, I really didn't want to read this story because I knew I would cry. I did, several times, because it's a very believable concept that may have actually occurred (which would explain why the members are much nicer and more patient with Hakyeon since 2017/late 2016), is possibly occurring now (after all, we don't really know what goes on off-camera between them), or may occur in the future. Some part of me hopes that Hakyeon did or will "turn his back" on the others in some way (and care from afar, because I doubt he'd really desert them), so that they got/get a reality check and/or he realized/s that yes, he should put himself before anyone else, or at least not invest his whole heart and soul into people that only push him away.

Maybe I sound a bit harsh. I don't mean to. It's just that I was the same way, and though it hurt, and still hurts, I find not investing my heart and soul into anyone, while still caring for them (if that makes sense), is safer and hurts less than to be betrayed and frequently hurt by the ones you thought were your friends, family, brothers, sisters, or eternal presence that you couldn't imagine out of your life.... (the examples just examples; they all don't apply to me. :P)

But I wouldn't have felt right not reading this, so here I am. You did a wonderful job, especially since you said this was your first story. It made me cry, yes, but it made me happy that at least in this fictional world, VIXX has a happy open-ended resolution. I especially liked the way you wrote Jaehwan. Maybe people seem to forget that he has a serious side to him and can act like a hyung as well, but I loved the "just to remind you" part. He does have his moments where something sweet or emotional suddenly becomes sarcastic and/or, for lack of better word, "bratty." So awesome job on that!
I'm also happy that it seems not everyone is blind to the fact that Hakyeon might actually be hurt at times, and may have been (or is still) under-appreciated by the members at least at some point.

Oh, and just in case I may have given the wrong impression, I don't hold grudges against the other members. In fact, I easily move on from things if I see changes. For example, in all honesty, I liked everyone at first, but once things started going crazy, I despised Hongbin and Sanghyuk the most because they treated Hakyeon the worst (this was at the time Taekwoon and Wonshik were my bias, not Hakyeon, so I wasn't playing favorites). However, I noticed Hakyeon and Sanghyuk's relationship improved after the dissing war in 2016, to the point that now Sanghyuk actually lets Hakyeon do as he pleases to him for a while, so Sanghyuk has returned to being that softspot in my heart (which I am happy about. I loved ChaSang interactions during 2012 and some of 2013. It always warmed my heart, even now. And I love their interactions now. Although not the same as before, which is kind of sad, it's still sweet).
Hongbin, on the other hand, is really confusing me. One minute he's nice and actually plays with Hakyeon, and the next, he's very mean toward him (such as not giving a message to Hakyeon for their 5th anniversary, and begging Sanghyuk to tell him what to say to Hakyeon during his birthday special).
Because of that, I am still cautious and don't expect too much from Hongbin, but I am still looking out for any general improvements like I did with Sanghyuk and the other members.

Great job! Lovely story. ^ ^
xandra_summer #4
Chapter 26: Thank you so much for this wonderful story.......
I just feel sometimes it really happen...
I cried but i also feel refresh because you really feel the worth of someone or something if its no longer with you. .....
lunaticJTW #5
Chapter 27: I love this so much!!!1! I was so immune to character deaths that those didn't make me cry but you ??? How ??? Why was my heart more broken when they fought like yshzhz pls
lunaticJTW #6
Chapter 26: I have one thing to remind y'all vixx

E l e c t r i c b i l l
6xthday #7
Chapter 26: Thank you very much for this wonderful story authornim!!!!!!
MaknaeJuls #8
Chapter 26: "Hakyeon will get there with Taekwoon, Jaehwan, Wonshik, Hongbin and Sanghyuk on both his sides. The process is as important as what awaits for them in the end of the tunnel."

I need to quote this authornim, it's soooo lovely and sweet. The most beautiful ending for a no ship fic like this. You did a great job in this fic authornim.

Thank you for this story. As you always say, lovelots with the heart <3
Chinkeefeb #9
Chapter 26: Such a sweetest ending authornim thank you for this fic and great job authornim :>>>
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