It was a busy day for Ken and when he finally comes back home late that evening, he's greeted by a warm hug by his precious leader, who seems to be waiting for him.

"Welcome home. "N says with a smile once he let go of the hug. "How was your day? "He asks. 

"I'm home.My day was fine. "Ken murmurs, inspecting the way N is dressed. "Are you going out? "He asks. 

N scratches his neck sheepishly. "Ah, well... I was thinking--"

"Hakyeon-hyung wants to go out to drink. "Hyuk who suddenly emerges out of his room along with Ravi, interrupts.

"Drink? "Ken echoes. "Drink as in cafe kind of drink or... "

"No. Drink as in getting drunk kind of drink. "This time, it's Hongbin who butts in. "Hakyeon-hyung was waiting for you to go with him. "He says.

Ken turn towards N once more. "Hyung? "He wonders and N flashes him an awkward grin. 

"I know you hate drinking but I kinda need you to drive me back home? "N explains with a slightly guilty look and Ken understands it somehow. He has high alcohol tolerance unlike the rest of their members so it makes sense that N wants Ken to accompany him. "But if you don't want--"

"Let me change first. "Ken quickly says before disappearing into his room. 

"I'm coming with you. "Hyuk tells N, who's just standing by the door, patiently waiting for Ken to return. 

"Me too. "Both Hongbin and Ravi says simultaneously but before they can actually make a move to get dressed, N stops them. 

"Please don't. "N pleads with a heavy sigh. "Wonshik, Hongbin, you have schedules tomorrow and Hyuk, you have class. If you get hungover then it would be bad for you. "He explains. 

"I have a free day tomorrow so I'm going. "Leo who just wanders out of the kitchen interrupts. 

"No, Taekwoon. You can't either. "N denies him. "I need you to--"

"I don't remember asking for your permission, Hakyeon. I just said that I'm going and that's it. "Leo says a bit too harshly and N snap his mouth shut before looking away from him. 

"Lets go! "Ken leaps out of his room cheerfully, dangling a car key in his hands. "Who else is going? "he asks but before anyone could answer, N has dragged him out of the dorm. And Leo is quick to follow. 

Ken drove them to the one private bar that artists always go to and once they're settled down in one of the isolated booths, N wasted no time in downing his shot of alcohol, in which he coughs violently just after, his throat burning. 

"Take it slow, hyung. "Ken advises, patting the leader's back and N just chuckle, filling his glass once more. 

"I need this. "N whispers. 

"Did something happened? "Ken wonders, looking up at Leo who's sitting quietly on N's other side with a glass of coke in his hands, obviously not planning on getting drunk. 

"My fansite. "Leo mumbles before taking a gulp of his drink and Ken needs no more explanation. They've always known that Leo's fans are always a bit too harsh on the other members so it doesn't really surprise him anymore when they bash the leader. 

It takes N only a few more shot and soon enough, he's already a giggling mess, slurring things that are hard to decipher. "They want me to*giggles* leave VIXX. "He mumbles, looking up at Ken. "Do you *giggles* want that too? "He asks. 

"No. Of course not, hyung. "Ken assures with a sad smile. "If you leave then VIXX will be no more. "He says but N doesn't seem to be listening as he's downing another shot of the alcohol. 

"They... *giggles* said that I'm hogging all the attention. Am I? "

"You're not, hyung. You're working hard for us. "

"They call me... *giggles* attention . "

"You're not." Ken says sternly, his face turning stoic and N bursts into a hysterical laugh.

"Hakyeon... "Leo wanted to tell N to take it easy a bit but when N turn towards him, eyes b with unshed tears, all his words seems to be caught up in his chest and he's unable to even utter one word out. 

"You're the same *giggles* with your fans... aren't you *giggles* Taekwoon? "

"What--"

"You... *giggles* Taekwoonie wants me gone too." And the unshed tears finally makes their way down the leader's cheek along with a heartbreaking giggle.

"I--"Leo is completely taken by surprise. Never has he thought that N would think so badly about him. 

"Taekwoonie... my life long friend Taekwoonie... "N sing song as he drowns in his tears. "Do you hate me too? "

P.s. I'm not trying to bash anyone's fans so don't be offended ok?