Youngjae felt sick. It’s tragically funny how both love and sadness can drive people to do things they wouldn’t usually. Like to hide their true self from a loved one, or drink alcohol to stop themselves from crying, or sleep with someone else besides their loved one.

Youngjae didn’t sleep with Jackson. He almost did. But he didn’t. Thank god that Jaebum texted or else who knows what would have happened between Youngjae and Jackson!

“I have to go Jackson. I’m leaving. Forget about the money and forget this ever happened.” Youngjae called while slipping his pants back on. Any money Youngjae would receive from this would feel dirty, it would be like looking regret right in its face.

“Youngjae…” Jackson started but Youngjae couldn’t bear to hear it. Not after what Jackson said about Jaebum using him.

“You are a toy Youngjae. He will never love you…”

Youngjae shook his head. Jaebum was the love of his life, he wouldn’t lose him. Not to Jackson’s stupid rant.

Not to anyone.

Even on his walk home, even through the blasting music that poured out of Youngjae’s earbuds and into his ears, Youngjae could hear Jackson's voice.

“Jaebum loves Jinyoung. Just watch Youngjae, Jinyoung will make his way back into Jaebum's life somehow and when he does he will remind Jaebum who he really loves. Not you. Jinyoung.”

Youngjae had never heard anything about Jinyoung before and Jaebum had never mentioned him before. Was that a good or bad sign?

Jaebum and Youngjae never really talked about their past relationships, there was really nothing to talk about. Youngjae only ever had flings, he never got serious, well only with Jackson… But that was more a mistake than a real relationship. But wouldn’t Jaebum mention something about Jinyoung if they were really that much in love? Jaebum knew about Jackson and Youngjae but he didn’t mention his relationship with Jinyoung?

“Why would he?” Youngjae asked himself once he reached the door to his apartment. Youngjae checked his phone, no texts, but it was also only 5:30 he had plenty of time to think before Jaebum would pick him up to go to dinner. Youngjae needed to do something to get Jackson's words out of his mind, he needed a hypnotist to do that. Jackson’s words burned tattoo's into Youngjae’s skin, forcing Youngjae to relive the feeling of worthlessness that had become Youn