PS: This is a very very very very very short update

My heart was beating so fast that i could hear it. 

Haera: what do you mean ' something happened'? 

Baekhyun didn't respond afterwards.

My eyes were slowly getting watery because i was nervous.

After awhile waiting, I received a message from kai instead. 

I unlocked my phone quickly as lightning and read it.

Kai: Lets not meet or see each other anymore. 
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I kept reading it for a few times to digest what he was saying because I was confused and i had no clue.

I didnt know what to type. My finger were shaking.

I gulped and sighed. 
Haera: what do you mean? 

Kai: lets break up

And my heart broke into pieces. It was as if someone stabbed me. 

Without me knowing, my tears already fell down rapidly.

 Why is he saying this all of the sudden?

Haera: don't make some kind of jokes about that please..

Kai: i'm serious

I need explanations. I really need it.
I need to assure this is really him.

Haera: can we meet right now?

Kai: i'm busy and I dont want to see you anymore.

The sentence "I dont want to see you" makes me fell apart. 

Kai: don't text me anymore. I want to focus on my performances. About the baby, just do what you want about it. I'll send you money every month.

I was still clueless. 

I threw my phone to the other side of the bed and closed my eyes. 

Whenever i open my eyes, the tears fell down so i kept it close.

What makes he said such thing? 
Why is he doing this to me?

He've promised to be with me and haejun but he broke the promise himself

He's a guy after all, guys who break promises and guys who doesn't take responsibility well. 

He shouldnt have made such promises that made me expect too much if this is what he was going to do.

If breaking up with him is the best, then i shall consider it and move on. 

No matter how much it hurts me right now, i have to understand that he's an idol. 

"Haera.. Move on." I told my self.

" if thats the best thing for his career, be happy for it" i smiled fakely but my tears were falling down rapidly.

I sat down and took a deep breath, wiping all the tears away. 

Suddenly, i felt some kind of movement in my belly. 

"Haejun-ah~" i cried. "Lets support appa no matter what" i forced a smile.

 I couldn't help my self but to let out all of my tears.
It just doesn't feel right.

I took my phone and texted baekhyun.

Haera: baekhyun, seriously.. Whats wrong with kai?

But then, I received a notification that my message was not sent which means that he blocked my number.
I tried texting and calling kai but i reveived the same thing.

I closed my eyes, let out a loud sigh and rest my back on the wall. 

"What am i going to do?" I whispered to my self.
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Its been a month since kai broke up with me. 

I could still sense the loneliness of my life. Sometimes, i would cry my self out alone in the middle of the night thinking of kai and what have i done with my life.

Looking at him in the internet and television makes me miss him but at the same time, hurt.

Sometimes i would wonder what kai might be doing at that moment but i tried my best not to as it'll just make me depressed. 

I woke up feeling very drowsy, now that i'm half way through the pregnancy. My belly have been growing well lately. 

I could now feel and see it moves around very often and The doctor told me that haejun can hear me talking now. 

Its great that atleast haejun is here if i need someone to talk to. He's the reason why i became strong enough to handle the hard times or work and others. 

I stood up slowly from the bed and got my self ready for work. 

As I arrived, my co-worker told me to help her arrange the tables because there's an idol going to film in the reataurant again. 

Ofcource, exo did crossed my mind for awhile but why would they film here again. It must be another idol
Group.

"You must be exited" my co-worker chuckled.

"Why?" I wiped the table.

"Well your favourite idol group is filmin here AGAIN" she contrasted the word 'again'.

"My favourite idol group?" I asked my self and freezed. 

"duh! Exo " she said cheerfully. 

To be continued...