"are you....?" He looked at me in the eye. 

 

My heart was beating so fast and i was going to cry.

 

I'm surely dead if He knows. 

 

"....a part time worker here?" He asked.

 

I sighed as a relieve.

 

" full time worker. " i answered.

 

" you look young. How old are you? And whats your name?" He stepped forward to me but i stepped back again.

 

" k-keon h-haera.. And i'm ni-nineteen." My voice was shaking.

 

" oh. Nice to meet you. i'm kim jong in"he bowed and i did the same thing. 

 

Um.." He cleared his throat." It was you at the party right?" 

 

I nodded.

 

It hurts. I wished i could just straightly tell him that i'm working here because of him but at the same time, i don't want to blame him entirely.It was also partly my fault.

 

We didn't exchange words after that. He kept on staring for a few minutes and i could not handle it. 

 

I ran out but he held me back. 

A single touch of his soft skin on my arm makes me sad.

 

I tried to get away but he didn't let me so I pushed him away. 

 

" excuse me!" I pulled my arm. 

 

" Wait.." He stopped me. " wait wait wait!" He stood infront of me with his hands blocking the way.

 

"What is it?" 

 

" About that night..." He started.

" we both were drunk. I was so stressed out with works and..." 

 

" yes yes. We had . You don't have to repeat" i was annoyed.

 

" please just let me pay you. And did you tell anyone? I hope you didn't." He was only worried about his career and never want to know about how i feel. 

 

Money is not everything. All i need is someone to be responsible but that is not posible in my case. Why would i mess someone's perfect life and force him to be a father.

 

" how much do you want?" He repeated.

 

My muscle was tense and my mouth was dry. I knew i was going to blow up.

 

I stared at his face for a moment. " do you ing think that money can solve everything!?" 

" what kind of lady do you think i am!?" The temperature of my body rises and my face was red with anger.

 

" i just don't want anyone to know" he stare at my eyes even more with his face near mine.

 

" WHAT A JERK!" My tears started to fall down on my cheeks but my eyes was still staring at kai. 

 

" watch your mouth!! Aren't you lucky enough to spend a night with me? " he replied arrogantly.

 

The madness makes me want him to know that i'm pregnant, to know that he is a total jerk and i'm not that kind of girl he could just give money and everything would be fine after that.

 

" Lucky? " i laughed sarcastically with tears in my eyes." seriously? Are you sure?" 

 

" i can give you any amount of money that you want. And help me get through this guilty feelings" he begged.

 

I was filled with hatred. I couldn't believe that he is actually this kind of person.

 

" and will you please stop crying" he wiped my tears. My feelings for him was like a roller coaster, it goes up and it goes down- hate, like, hate, like.

 

It went quite.

 

" my life has been hard..after that night."  I said while trying to breath carefully.

 

" why?" He asked gently and looked at me.

 

Tell him or not? 

 

" i'm.. " I couldnt stop crying. 

 

" relax.. Take a deep breath." He wiped my tears away with his thumb. " did my fans do something to you?" He asked with a soft voice making my hatred for him all gone, amazingly.

 

"N-no.." I shook my head and my eyes were looking at the floor.

 

He stood close to me that i had to look up to see his face. 

 

Suddenly, a thought crossed my mind. " you're the only one who.. Um.. slept with me..that night? No one else?" I asked and faced him, to make sure that he is the father.

 

" no one else and why do you ask?" He replied looking at me with his beautiful eyes. 

 

" um.. Protection?" I awkwardly asked again. Whenever i feel awkward, i'd always look away.

 

He shook his head. 

 

" wh..why? His voice was shaking. 

 

I hope he got the clue. 

 

Soo many thoughts have been going in my mind about the baby and kai. I don't know which is better- the baby's father or kai's career. 

 

Would he want to take care of it? 

Is he ready to be a father? 

What if someone asked me again about the father? 

Even worst, does he love me? And do i like him too?

 

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