Jonghyun POV:
He is my brother..my twin, Hong Jonghoon. What’s makes me different from him is..he has weak body from he was baby, that’s because he had disease. The public only knowing that I’m the only son of my family, they know nothing about him. My father do that on purpose because of his image. He don’t want public knowing about his weakness, he still treat him because of my mother told dad that she didn’t want to abonded her own child because of disease. He never goes outside the house except for therapies in Mirae hospital. He always in his room..looking at outside through the window. Until one day when I asked him to play blue marble with me..he found out about one of blue marble cards..space travel, he said he want to have this card,
“You can have it later.” I didn’t granted his wish until we celebrated our 18 birthday..I gave him those cards as a gift, he really look happy,
“I’ll use it when the first snow fall,” he said. Because he want to wear my high school uniform, he come out that day with my school uniform, I let him know the places I usually go, “first, I’ll come to your school..and then to your favourite library.” He said excitedly, I let him to come to the school with one condition,
“Just..keep silent, if someone talk to you just smile..if you answer them, they’ll find it strange..” he just noded while taking the bag, “a bodyguard will follow you…he won’t report about it to dad.” He smile to me.
“It’s my first time go to school.” He is my family secret, dad never let him come out from house without covering his body, from head to toe, he never go to school is not just because his disease, it’s also because my dad. Dad hired a teacher for him to let him study in his room, his world only his room until that day. He cameback from school as me with a wide smile,
“Are you that happy?,” I asked.
“Hmm..thank you. I get a friend, she lent me this,” he said while show me the scraf that he wear around his neck. I’m really happy looking at him like that, but in other side I’m little bit worried, what if dad know about it…I’m sure he’ll be angry to him and me,
“So, it’ll be the first and the last.., right?,” I asked.
“Can I do it again?, it’s really fun outside there..I never feel like this before,” I feel sorry for him, I didn’t give him that kind of chance since a long time ago, “I must give this scarf back to the owner, if you say that this is my last time to go out, then I can’t give it back to her..” I look at him..he just got his first friend..as his brother who know how he have been through all this time, how could I didn’t grant his wish. I let him go out, as many as he want to meet his new friend, he never tell me about his new friend but every time I saw him, he always smile, so I guess his new friend really make him happy, she is a good friend for him. Then that day, the bodyguard inform me that he got hit on his head, I became panic, I want to tell dad that Jonghoon is in serious condition now, but I’m afraid..
“Mom,” I called her, mom and dad just come from overseas to take care some bussineses, “can you go to Mirae hospital now?, hyung is in pain now..and I hope dad won’t know about it..” I told mom all about it..and she is crying with me in front of emergency room, we both afraid that dad will know about it,
“Mom already said to the doctor who help Jonghoon to keep it secret to your dad..so, after Jonghoon condition got better, let’s go to USA..you’ll study there and your brother will get treat there..” it already planed before..dad told me, if I want he still take care of hyung, I must study hard to became a doctor..so one day I’ll be a head doctor in Mirae Hospital, although it’s not my real dream, I think became doctor not bad idea. So, he already planed it for me..if I want study abroad, he’ll make sure that hyung will get treat..in the same country as me…
And after 7 years he get treated..he get better, but his body get worse..I feel pain everytime I see him, even when he want to walk, his leg trembling,
“I get better, dongsaenga-ah, why you look at me like that?,” he asked me when I look at him with teary eyes, “the important thing is, I’m still live..I tried to survive so I will see how my brother became a good doctor. It’s okay if I can’t walk properly like before..” he said while hugging me.
“So, you get better now?.”
“Hmm..don’t worry.., now we have different face although we are twin..right?,” he sit on the bed, he look at the Polaroid photo, “after came here, I realized that I miss her so much..” he said than take the Polaroid photo.
“Who is she?,” I asked, pretend not knowing about the girl in that polaroid photo.
“I once told you about my new friend..,” he start his story, “she’s my first friend..after meeting up so many time..we decided to date..but then..” he told me about that incident, Ahyoung’s brother’s incident, “I haven’t meet her in 7 years..but after comeback to Korea, I don’t think I can’t meet her again,” he said that he miss her, but why suddenly he said that he can’t meet her, “I really want to know about how she lived in this 7 years, so many things I want to ask her, but I can’t meet her like this, she won’t recognize me. ” I want to tell him about she misunderstood me as him, but why my mouth couldn’t open at that time..”that’s why I need your help.” I look at him, confused by his words, “can you looking for her for me?, her name is Ahyoung..Kim Ahyoung,” he give me the photo, “sorry if I distrub you..” I just smile to him,
“Don’t worry..I’ll do it for you.”
“If you meet her, don’t tell her about me..just take some photos of her..I just want to know how would she grow up?, is she became prettier?,” then he smile. She still same as the girl in this photo, she grow up beautifully and became a famous radio DJ..I want to say that to you, but I don’t know it’s really hard for me to do that.
*
Soojin come out from former Wooshik’s work place, she gathered information to his assistant about his patients and his guests when he was there,
“Minjoon is Wooshik’s friend..” she said to Ahyoung who waiting for her in cafe nearby, “and, he is brother from one of Wooshik’s patients..”
“Ah, the last guest?. He is oppa’s friend?. You didn’t know about him?,” Ahyoung asked to Soojin.
“Hmm, I didn’t know about him, I guess he isn’t Wooshik’s friend from school. Wooshik’s assistant said to me that he frequently come to hospital because he need update about his brother condition,” Ahyoung take a look at Wooshik’s patients file and look for Mingook, when she saw the photo she feel that she ever meet him,
“Is he the Mingook we are talking right now?, why I feel familiar with his face?,” she said to Soojin, “Mingook..Mingook, ah...our family’s florist customer. Mom said that he often go there to buy flower, I ever meet him once..and talked to him. I didn’t feel he has a psychology disease at that time.” she said. She is reading his record, she know about what kind of psycology disease he have.
“Do you think psychology disease can be seen?, he like a normal people..he’ll show the difference in the certain time..”
“And how about the car?, you didn’t found out anything about it?,” Ahyoung asked.
“Hmm...my friend already found out about owner of the car..this morning he give me this,” she gives Ahyoung a paper, “because of that I came to Wooshik’s work place to ask about Minjoon, the car owner,” Ahyoung look surprised when she heard that, “you’ll be busy after this, so..just concentrate at your work, I and my team will be in charge..I’ll call for help after white day..” Ahyoung just smile after heard that.
After meet Soojin, she goes to the florist, she want to ask to her mom about Mingook..
“He came here often... he always buy Daisy, he even come to our house at new year..two years in row. And for this white day..he prepare something for someone, he said that he want me to prepare white rose, he’ll give it to someone special that day, he told me to warp it beautifully...”
“Is there something strange with him?,” Ahyoung asked.
“Strange?..I didn’t find anything strange..why?, it’s seem you attracted by him..”
“What are you saying, mom..Ah, today..I won’t go home again, there are so many works in radio, so I’ll sleep there..”
“Why you don’t just go there now and finished your work, so you won’t be late later..”, her mom protesed.
“I’ll go now..” she kissed her mom cheek and leave the florist.., “he really look like normal person..there isn’t sign that he has that kind of disease..”
When she arrived at radio broadcasting, someone already waiting for her there,
“Hello..meet you again,” she said while waving her hand, “let’s train hard for today..” Hyeri come to the radio broadcast since a week ago to prepare for their duet,
“PD-nim, today will be live, right?,” Ahyoung asked to the PD-nim who busy prepare for event that will be held three days later.
“No, there is still recording from two days ago, we’ll play that for tonight broadcast..” she replied, “you’ll practice with Hyeri-ssi tonight..for perfect performance.” Ahyoung took a deep sigh, Hyeri show that,
“I know that you don’t really like to do duet with me, but..don’t make it obvisious..” she start play the music, the song start...All for you....
After practiced for about three hours, Hyeri sit next to Ahyoung,
“Ah..I want to invited someone to our white day and anniversary concert, can’t I?,” Hyeri suddenly ask.
“There is ticket for our concert, if you want to invite someone, he/she must have the ticket..” Ahyoung replied it.
“I already bought the ticket for him...I’ll tell him to come to watch me sing,” she than stand up and take her bag, “I’ll leave first..thank you, you have worked hard,” she wave her hand to all the staff who still busy in broadcasting room.
“Ahyoung-ah, escrot her to the lobby,” PD-nim suddenly said that, Ahyoung look doesn’t want to stand up, she just mumbling.
“You don’t have to escrote me if you don’t want..” Hyeri said after saw Ahyoung mumbling.
“No, I’ll escrote you there..you are the special guest here..” Ahyoung then stand up and stand next to her, she just smile to her. In the lobby, they meet Jonghyun who had recording in one of news program, Hyeri greet him, makes Ahyoung shocked that she know Jonghyun,
“Haii..what are you doing here?,” she asked, Jonghyun looking at Ahyoung who awkwardly standing next to Hyeri, “why a doctor come here?.”
“I became guest in news program, what are you doing here?,” he still looking at Ahyoung who is avoiding his eyes.
“Ah, I’m a former DJ of starlight radio, I came for practice for our anniversary concert. We’ll be held a concert at white day, I want to invite you..” she said then take out something from her bag, Ahyoung looking at the ticket that she gave to him, “you must come to see my performance,” Hyeri looking at Jonghyun who can’t take his eyes from Ahyoung, “ah..I forgot to introduce her to you right..she is starlight radio DJ, Ahyoung,” Jonghyun bowing after heard Hyeri’s words, so Ahyoung bowed to him back, “and, Ahyoung-ssi, he is Jonghyun..my junior from high school, he is cool right?. Our parent want us to dating..but we still thinking about that,” Jonghyun look shocked when he heard that, Ahyoung is more shocked than him,
“What are you saying,”he looking at the ticket once again, “I’ll come then,” he said that and put the ticket in his pocket, “I’ll leave first,” he still looking at Ahyoung while waving hand, Hyeri follow him from behind,
“You can back to the broadcast room,” Hyeri said to Ahyoung, Ahyoung back to the broadcast room, Jonghyun look at her back, “why you look at her with that kind of look?, did you meet her before?. Don’t make me look like a fool who introduce you two when the two of you already know each other.”
“We meet at Mirae foundation anniversary, she was there as a MC,” he replied it.
“Ah...you really make me look like a fool in front of her. Why you didn’t say this when I’m about to introduce you to her?,” she asked again.
“Because I want she know that we attend the same school, and also..I didn’t know that our parent want us to dating. Why you said that?,” Jonghyun asked her back. Hyeri look confused, why he didn’t know anything about it,
“Your parent didn’t let you know about it?, they already talk about it when you start your study 7 years ago,” she explained.
“Really?, I never heard about it though,” Jonghyun told her lie..his parent already told him about it, but he just didn’t give his answer, “by the way, why you followed me..?,” he asked.
“Don’t lie to me, your parent said that they already told you. I know that both of us still didn’t decide whether we’ll accept their match making or not. You asked me, why I follow you?, we know each other before..give me ride..” Jonghyun look surprised with her action.
“You didn’t bring your car?, just ride your own car, I’ll give you ride if you didn’t bring your car,” he get in his car, “bye,” and leave her like that.
Hyeri look angry, but she already decided that she’ll accepted the match making, so she will try hard to make him fall for her,
“Okay, next time..just wait,” she said and then ride her car.
*
Ahyoung still awake, it’s past midnight..
“So, he decided to make a clear line between us because there will be someone else who will accros that line?, why he didn’t said about it, why he must said that he did that because I know so much about his family secret, what kind of secret that I know about his family, he never told me about that..” she look at her handphone, a call come from Soojin, “why unni?,” she asked.
“Ahyoung-ah, can you looking for your brother diary..his patient diary..?.”
“Why suddenly his patient diary?.”
“I just remember that he always write something about his patient,” Soojin look so enthusiastic, “I have suspicions about Nam Minjoon and Nam Mingook...I think he wrote something about Nam Mingook in his patient diary..”
“Ah, really?, okay I’ll look for it..” and end the call.
In the morning, once again someone delivered breakfast for her..and there is a memo on it,
You have worked hard..
Enjoy this..your favorite drink and food...
Ahyoung open the wrapper..there is a big hamburger in it with a warm chocolate. Ahyoung look hesitant to eat that, she think that it’s really from that stalker, because he know so much about her,
“He won’t put any poison in it, right?,” she asked to herself, when she is about to eat it, she put it again, “PD-nim, there is breakfast for you..I’ll leave first,” she decided to not eat it and just let the PD eat the breakfast.
In the home, she look for the diary that Soojin talked last time to her,
“Diary..diary....,” she found something that catch her eyes, “is this his patient diary?,” she asked to herself and open the note book, when she open the first page there is name on it..Nam Mingook..”this is the patient diary she talked about,” she open one by one and read it..”wah...is it really like this?, poor him,” and then take it, when about to come out from her brother’s bedroom, she noticed something, the gift from her when she confessed her feeling to her oppa, “he still have it..he said to me that he throwed it though,” she smiled and then leave his brother room.
“What are you doing there?,” her father asked.
“Nothing, just suddenly miss him..,” she answer randomly.
“If you miss him, just come to his resting place..talk a lot with him..” her mother advice her.
“I’ll come there, but not today..” after enter her room, she calls Soojin, “I found the diary, I’ll meet you in your office..”
About hours leter they meet at Soojin’s office, Ahyoung give her the diary that she want,
“This is the diary, I read all of the diary content and suddenly I feel sorry for him..he life that kind of live..” she said.
“What kind of live?.”
Mingook’s story from Wooshik’s diary:
He start come to our hospital about two week ago, I meet him two time in a week. He just feel lonely at home..that’s my first imperssion of him, because he always say to me that he miss his mother who dead two months ago, he said that there is no one at home who would accompany him,
“You are my hyung’s friend right?, because he said I often do weird thing at home, he thought I’m crazy, so he sent me here. He doesn’t want to understand his own brother and just sent me here.” His brother told me that he often collected girl things, and talk to himself. He avoid his brother and his father, when in crowded, he’ll stay quiet, but if he alone in his room, he often talk and smile by himself. I came to know what kind of psychology disease he had was when he said that there is someone who like sun to him, it’s not his father or his brother, he never told me the name of that girl, but I think the reason he consider her as his sun is because she helped him when no one help him, she was there when there wasn’t no one who want to stay close to him. He said that, he’ll became affraid if she suddenly avoid him. She always smile to him everytime they meet, he said that they are mean to be. He know her better then anyone else. He said that he never let the other boys touch her or distrub her.
When he feel lost all the love from his dearest persons, someone come to him..and smile to him..he like her from then, and he thought that she like him too..because there is no one who smile like that to him, there is no one who approach him..but she did. Because he’s affraid that she will leave him so he follow her everytime...every where. Because another sun has rise..he cameback to live...

“Poor him..,” Soojin said after read Wooshik’s dairy, “he also said that his brother are your brother friend...”
“Hmm..I know..I hope, he know something about that incident,” Ahyoung said, “Unni..Jonghyun-ie, he already has someone..who will always with him..”
“Woman?,” Ahyoung nodding in response, “why are you so sad?you already broke up with him..”
“That..the thing that I don’t understand..why I feel so sad because of that?.”
“Move on..there is always someone who will waiting for you...Jonghyun is not the only man in this world..,” she read the diary once again, “let’s earn information about this two...my feeling that they know something about your brother is really strong..”
The next day, Ahyoung concidently meet Mingook at her mom’s florist, he came to check the flowers that he request before,
“Mom really prepare it well for you, you can comeback at 14 March,” she look at him, “are you okay?,” she is suddenly asking that, without realized it. Because when she look at him, she remember her brother diary, because she know what he gone through at young age, she just wonder..is he okay now?.
“What do you mean?, did I look like sick?,” he asked back to her in confusion.
“It’s not like that..” she doesn’t know what to do because of that question, “is there anything you need?,” she asked again.
“I’ll comeback again at 14 March, then I’ll leave for now..” he leave Ahyoung who still feel embarrassed because of her sudden question. “I’m not okay. I know you are diging your brother incident now...and you must know me as one of your brother patients..but I’m not only his patient, if you know something else about me..you won’t asked me like that..,” he said while looking at Ahyoung who busily reading novel, “and..the person who write that novel..if you know something about him..you won’t admired him..” and then he leave the florist, “I just like it now, I can talk to you freely like that..you smile to me without knowing the real me. Let me enjoy it first, then I’ll bring the facts to you..”
*

It’s like a prey who can’t hide too long from his predator..
Someday, it will be eaten...
And it will make his friends cry..
And those secrets that hide for long...
Someday will be reveal...and those’ll make someone cry, For sure..
so, who’ll be her best support at that time...??