January 20 2004, 13:56, Tuesday

SIX MORE DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY. I CAN'T WAIT.

What? Sue me for being excited about a birthday. 

Above anything, all I'm wishing for is a present from Yunho. That's it. In all honesty, I could careless about what I get. Just as long as it's from him.

Also, I highly doubt I will ever get accustomed to Changmin and Yunho's friendship. At least not soon anyway. I can't help but keep feeling jealous, even though I know it's wrong. What's worse, he's my best friend and there is no way I can tell him anything about my problem. Then again, why can't I tell him?

Oh yes. Because he is not only my best friend, he's also a very close friend of the person I am in love with. 

No matter how many times I keep repeating this over and over again, in the end I'm just lost. If I tell him I'm jealous of him just because he hangs out with Yunho, of course he's going to think I'm crazy. Best friend or not. Plus, I do not want to see his reaction when I tell him. Now that I think about it, I can't help but wonder.

Does Changmin have any feelings for Yunho?

The thought kills me. No, he doesn't have any feelings for Yunho. He's not in love like I am. If he was, he'd tell me. 

Did you tell him?

Okay so maybe he can just tell me he is in love instead of,  you know, telling exactly who he is in love with an-

You're no better.

......I've decided that trying to win an argument against you is simply impossible.

Glad to know you atleast have that much sense.

Will you please shut up.

Just as I got rid of the thought, another horrible one comes into mind. Maybe Minnie doesn't like Yunho, but...

What if Yunho likes Changmin?