“Hey, you look tense. What’s going on?” AeRi knocks me back from my daydream. She puts her arms around my waist to hug me from behind.

“Nothing.” I hold her hands with mine.

“You’re not a good liar.”

I turn to her and hold her face with both my hands. “AeRi-ya, did I ever hurt you?” I cannot forget what that jerk said to me today. ‘I don’t want her to get hurt’ why do I feel bothered by the stressing of the word ‘hurt’. He said that as if I’m the one that hurting AeRi while he’s gone.

“No, never. Why you asked? What happened?” she gets more confuse.

“Nothing, just a thought I have. I’m afraid I’m pushing you into this relationship and make you uncomfortable.” I answer honestly.

She laughs, “you’re funny TaecYeon-a, for years you tried to convince me to be with you, now that we’re together, you’re worried that you forced me into things I’m not willing to do.”

“I don’t wanna hurt you, that’s all.”

“You’re not, honey.” She hugs me tighter.

“I love you, AeRi-ya.”

She doesn’t answer back, but I’m not bothered by it. I think I’ve stated my love for her for a million times by now, if she’s not ready to love me back that’s fine by me.

Okay I lie, it’s not fine. I want her to love me back. I want to feel needed, I want her to want me to be with her. I don’t want to be her option, I want to be someone more important than the ex-husband she has. I want to burn down all of their memories and make t