TaecYeon walk me home tonight. After I cleared up our misunderstanding, he doesn’t seem so mad anymore. He’s keeps his silence along the way, seems like he’s too afraid to ask me questions that’ll trigger me to cry again.

“Do you want to get in?” I offer him to enter my house.

“Do you want me to come in?” He asks innocently.

“Only if you want to.” I nod.

He helps himself inside and sits on my love-seat couch near the bed and play with my dog plushy. I get two beers from the fridge and hand one to him, then sit next to him.

“Cheers.” I raise my can.

“Cheers.” He responds awkwardly.

We gulp our beer in silence. Oh dear god, this it too awkward, way too awkward.

“AeRi-ya, I was being an today. I shouldn’t attack you like that. I’m sorry.” He finally speaks up.

“Ng.. I understand why you’re mad. Sorry I’ve been keeping you in the dark about my secret.” I put my head down. It has been a habit of mine, whenever I remember my huge flaw of being infertile, I just face down because of the shame I feel in me.

“That won’t change how I feel about you, though.”

I turn my head to look straight in his eyes. He has the look KyuHyun used to give me. The encouraging look that tells me he will be there no matter what. But I’ve also seen how the story ended, shame on me if this fools me twice.

“I swear I will, AeRi-ya.” he brushes my cheek softly. Oh how I want to just crawl to him and find some comfort in his embrace. But I can’t. I must be strong, because I know where this story’s going.

“You reminded me of him, Yeon-a.” I speak the truth to him. “The day when the doctor said I cannot conceive a child, he holds me the whole week. He said he’ll never leave my side. He said that the two of us is good enough to be a family and we can always adopt if we want.”

TaecYeon doesn’t say a word, I think he will just let me reveal everything.

“I always feel guilty whenever his mother asked him about a grandkid. He’s an only child, so according t