The Loser

  TOP POV   The moment we enter the SBS building I immediately look for my Fany. She is one of the host for Inkigayo where we will perform. I hastily go to her waiting room to see her. It's been 4 days since we've seen each other, she's  busy recording their new song in Japan while I'm busy promoting for our group new singles.   We don't really have the time to go out on dates right now. But we never forget to message and call each other even if we are on different countries. My day won't be completed if I can't hear her beautiful voice. But there is one thing that bothers me, 2 days ago I tried calling her but her phone is always busy and worst she rejects my call.   I knock at their door and opened it slowly. I see my Fany smile disappeared the moment she saw me.   I step inside the room and swallowed thickly, "Hi everyone.", I said with my eyes not leaving at my angel's figure.   I feel really embarrassed right now with all of them looking at me like I'm a criminal. My Fany who's sitting beside Yonghwa suddenly asked me, "TOP sunbaenim aren't you entering the wrong room? From what I know your room should be 3 rooms before us."   TOP? Sunbaenim? Ouch that hurts. I know that we should still hide the fact that we are in a relationship. But we are doing a reality show so what's up with the formalities? We can act as friends, really close friends right?   But something is off with the way she talks and smile. It looks like she is really angry with me. Did I do something wrong? Then the thought hit me.  Jealous Fany is out again.   "Tiffany can I talk to you?", I nervously asked.   She looks at everyone before standing up from her seat and walk out of the room. I followed her to the fire exit.   "I don't care!", she spat the word.   "My Fany please hear me out.", my voice is really shaking in fear.   "Why? Did you listen to me?",her eyes are piercing to my body.   I walk closer to her but stop when I saw the tears in her eyes.    "I hate this!", she said as she slump her body in the floor. I can't move my body in fear that this would make us in a more terrible situation.   "I really hate this.", she frustratedly said.   I also slump on the floor with my arms prop on my knees.   "What do you hate Fany?", I hate seeing my Fany in this state and worst is it's because of me.   She look at me with her b in tears. "I hate myself for being jealous on petty things."   "I hate it that I'm being insecure with the girls surrounding you. I hate being jealous just because you kissed other girls in your MV.", she's really crying her heart out right now.   "And I hate myself for being so childish and bratty.", she continued while wiping the tears in her eyes.   I slowly move to her closer and use my hands to wipe her tears away.    "I'm sorry baby. I asked YG-hyung if I had a choices not to do that but he still insisted. You know that you're the only one that I love right?"   She look at me as if she wants to eat me alive which made me gulp.   "I also hate you! Stop explaining! You already did that last time.", she stand up from her seat and walk away.   "Where are you going we are