"when I lived in California, I lived my life to the fullest. I learned how to live the Californian life. The nightmares that's been hunting me was forgotten. I made friends. I studied at one of the most prestigious school in there. My mom's sister, treated me as if I am her own daughter, I learned how to smile again" Stephanie said, her back straightening and all emotions are void "I learned how to live my life and one thing that I learned the most is I learned how to trust and love again." She smile with her eyes still closed "I've met Victoria and Nichkhun, the two of them lives in my neighborhood and we're attending the same university with the same major and degree"  She laughed bitterly, "I trusted them with everything that every secrets I have I told them, all my nightmares, they knew. The three of us was known as the golden three, we we're inseparable an soon enough Nichkhun and I started dating. I was happy being with him, he treated me as if I am a princess, he treated me with love and respect or that's what I thought" She sighed her face showing the line of a stressful life

"that time, I was so in love with him that I really though, we will stay until the end. But I was wrong, I caught them..." She hesitated "it was a sunny afternoon, and school just released us for our well-deserved summer break the three of us decided to celebrate it in the amusement park few blocks away from home. I was late to come and the two of them already arrived at the designated place we're going to meet each other. I was so excited to finally see them. Fastening my pace to greet them but before I could, they...they"  She recomposed herself "They kissed each other. I was so angry at them that I went to their direction and pulled Victoria away from him and then I slap her hard. Nichkhun was angry because of the scene I created and pulled me away from Victoria and then he slap me back" She remained emotionless.

"I was so shocked of what he did, and I just wanted to cry but I didn't. I didn't cry in front of them instead I held my ground and with a shaky voice I ask them for how long" She hiss and bit her tongue "And god I can't believe I actually dated and befriended people like them" She cringes "And then after that I went out with like most of the guys in the neighborhood, make out with them, date them, use them or whatever just to ing forget that ing " She said, Lu Han winced at her cursed, she laughed "but guess what? News flash, I didn't and I'm so messed up that my Aunt was so angry with me that she sent me back to Seoul to repent of what am I doing with my life" She continued

"I don't regret though, like hell I can live my life by myself. I don't need them because all of them are the same. Leaving me when I needed them the most. Hurting me when I am fragile. Using me when I already gave my trust to them. All of them, turned their backs to me. Nichkhun, Victoria, my aunt, my best friend, my stepfather, my mom..." Lu Han watches her as she clenched her fist tightly, as if she's telling herself not to cry "All of them are the same" She muttered as her fist tightens turning her knuckles white. Lu Han frowned "Do you hate your mom?" He asked she shook her head

"No. The word is not hate rather I am angry at her, why? Because she left... She left me at young age without anyone. She left me alone in this dark world wondering around without any back up" She said her voiced laced with bitterness "I'm so angry at her for going first and letting me face the real word and I can't even run away from my nightmares" She sighed finally giving up and let a single tear roll, she then laugh but the pain that she's going trough can be heard "I am angry at her for leaving me alone when she assured me that everything will be ok as long as she's beside me"

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A/N This chapter is too shirt, I know but this is just a continuation but in the brighter side this fanfic is done with just one more chapter coming! Hooray thank you guys. You are the best. And please don't forget to greet out beautiful deer, Lu Han. Have a great day everyone because its Lu Han's day today (if that even makes sense) #HappyLuHanDay