JESSICA’S POV

BREAKING NEWS: A picture from Dispatch is now online capturing Jessica Jung a former member of SNSD is with her former group leaving the Music Bank last night after the show where she and SNSD Tiffany both debut as a solo artist. The informer said that they see the 9 of them leaving the music bank and got together in a van of nation girl group.

“!” I hissed when I saw the news, I am in the office because I needed to be at the meeting with investors and then I saw this, for sure Krys and my parents already know it. The talk last night gives everything I needed to know and the answer to my questions.

FLASHBACK

We are at the living room of their dorm, it’s quite comfy if I may say and some part of me feeling that I been here before.

“Do you remember something about this dorm Sica?” Sooyoung

“None, I came here before?”

“Yes unnie, this is our home as a group, you spent years in this dorm with us.” Yoona said

“Oh, I can’t remember anything.” I said

“Do you want to see your room before?” Yuri

“Nah, it’s okay, I am here to talk to you guys so can we get down to business.” I told them straight, the longer I stay here the longer Yeon will be worried

“Okay, what do you want to ask us?” Taeyeon said

“I just want to know why? Why did you all agreed to kick me out?” I ask like it was nothing but deep inside my nervousness is increasing by seconds

“W-we g-got scared.” Taeyeon answers

“You got scared of what?”

“The company does what they want and we got scared to fight back. We don’t want to risk the group. We also think that you’re a liability of the group because you’re priority that time is your brand and not the group.”

“You can’t fight back so all of you agreed to kick me out more than to be disbanded?” I ask and the pain in my voice is visible, even I don’t remember just knowing it makes me feel the pain

“Sica ah, you have your fashion brand but I just have this group. I wasn’t the popular one in the group; I was the least to like because singing *sob* wasn’t really my thing but dancing. I wasn’t beautiful like *sob* all of you if the group got *sob* disbanded what will happen to *sob* me. I got scared because this is the only thing *sob* that keeps me in the *sob* entertainment world. I didn’t go to college; *sob* I don’t know what to do except *sob* being it this group so I am sorry I hurt you by being a *sob* coward. I know it’s hard *sob* but I hope you’ll *sob* forgive me someday.” Hyoyeon said while crying, Sooyoung comforted her

“Is everyone having the same reason as her? All of you got scared?”

“This group is my family unnie, we all know I came from a family that wasn’t complete. This group became my family since I arrive in SM. SM think that you are a liability on the group so they told us that they’re kicking you out, I got shock that time that I only think of myself when I didn’t fight back that day. And I regret everything when I realize what I did, I lost my favorite unnie and I lost my love. I’m sorry unnie I hurt you that time.” Yoona

“I’m the leader of this group, I know I should protect you but how can I when the career of the other seven was in danger also. I’m sorry if I choose to save them or our career over you. I’m so sorry Sica ah. I should have fight for my member but our mind that time only thinks of what the best on the group and we forget that you are part of it.” Taeyeon

“I’m so sorry Sica ah, for being a scared cat to the company.” Yuri

“Me too, I’m sorry my dream is being here. I already failed once and I can’t let that happen again.” Sooyoung

“Unnie, I sorry also I know I don’t have a proper reason but I just go with the flow that time. I should have do what Sunny unnie did, talk and fight back that time but I didn’t and just stay silent. I’m sorry unnie.” Seohyun

“Oh…”

So I got kick out because they are scared for their career, how ironic it was? I don’t know what to say to them so I just stand up and bow to them and leave without letting them to stop me.

END OF FLASHBACK

I called my manager that night to get me. They call me after that but I needed to process everything before I can face them again. My reminiscing stop when my phone rings, and got more nervous when I saw my Mom is calling.

“M-mom.” I answer

“ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND? WHAT ARE YOU THINKING GOING WITH THEM?” She is so angry and I know disappointed in me

“M-mom, I just w-want to ask them their r-reason.”

“They kick you out and didn’t care for you Sooyeon ah, I thought it’s clear to you. I know I told you that we will support your decision but I didn’t know this is your decision.”

“It was clear to me Mom but something inside me telling me to know what is their reason.”

“Sooyeon ah, we just don’t want you be hurt again.”

“I know Mom but if I want to move on with my life I needed to talk to them and close that chapter of my life. Mom mianhe if I didn’t tell you about it but please trust me on this.”

“Okay Sooyeon ah but please make sure you’ll be okay.”

“I will Mom. I already have what I needed to know. So all I want for now is time to think everything that happens since I wake up in the hospital.”

“Okay.”

“Bye Mom.”

“Bye.”

I hung up already and sigh, two down, because I know Mom will explain it to Dad already. All I needed now is to talk to Krys. I dial her number but she didn’t answer me, I’m so dead for sure she’s so angry now. I call Amber to ask where Soojung is and she told me that she in SM with them for a meeting. She’s avoiding my call so it means she’ll avoid me again like she avoids me when she knew about my communication with Tiff.

I decided to go on SM and told Amber if she can help me get in, she said okay. So I pack my things and drive to SM Company, Amber told me a route so I can go in the back so no one can see me. When I arrive where Amber is waiting for me I wear a mask and a cap.

“Unnie Soojung is so upset since this morning when she saw the news, she actually barge in SNSD recording room and shout at them.”

“I’m so screwed.” I said uneasily

She usher me to their room just to saw her talking with SNSD. Soojung is just glaring at them, and h