Day 17

My face is getting warm. I open my eyes. The sun is shining through the window...I feel exhausted...My head hurts... Maybe I shouldn't have drink that much yesterday...I try to stand up. I feel that my back hurts. No wonder since I slept in this bad position. I'm looking at my watch. It's midday already. Seems that I have slept for 12hours...I haven't slept that much for a long time. I realize that I'm still wearing my closes from yesterday. Maybe I should go home and bring some new closes.

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I'm ringing the doorbell. They will understand me, right? My father opens the door. He smells like alcohol. It seems that he had begun to drink at daytime too...

What are you doing here? ,he said.

I wanted to come back home and... 

Ah, fine. Now you can take all your stuff.He's throwing some things and a bag on the ground. Now you are already 23...I'ts about time you become independent. 

B-but I haven't enough money...and I don't have a place for living. 

Didn't you have a job? However it's not like you can't find one. You should earn your own money, don't you think? And now get out of my sight. We either have the money nor room for you. 

BAAM!... Now I'm really abandoned by my own family... But does my mum want this to? I should sit on the stairs and try to wait till tomorrow. Maybe he just have drinked too much...

But honey, we cannot do this to him....he has never lived alone... Oh no, now she's arguing with dad...

Exactly! This is the reason why he have to live on his own now! You cannot mothering him his whole live.....

He has a point...I haven't  done anything big on my own. They where always there for me...But why now? Now that I need them the most...I have nobody else to help me through this...Well...maybe tomorrow....tomorrow I try it again.....

Day 18

 I'm ringing the doorbell again....this time it's umma who opens the door.

Babe what are you still doing here? ,she whispers. 

I thought...maybe...yesterday was just a joke....

Unfortunately no, after you've suddenly left he said when you get back you have to leave...I thought something happened to you. I'm glad that you are fine.  She my cheek."Its better for you to leave now, before your dad notices that you are here. At the moment it's impossible to speak with him. Please try it again in