Doojoon POV | Day 101

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Wonnie...you really don't have a clue....

W-what do you mean...?

I have to tell you a few things....you must've noticed, that I didn't tell you a lot about my past live, right? 

He is nodding

I have a particular reason why I moved to Seoul....I didn't want to tell you about this...but now that things have changed it's about time for you to know the truth. Everything began a year ago....

I was at my parents home. Suddenly my stomach ached. My parents immediately brought me to the nearest hospital. The doctors couldn't find anything specific, but one doctor said that I could probably have stomach cancer...Sadly the testing was positive....

Dongwoon is looking at me with his eyes wide open.

W-what? You have c-cancer....?

Yes...the doctors recommended me to move to Seoul, to get treatment in one of the best hospitals from Korea. This was my last hope....You may wonder why I haven't been operated, yet...sadly the cancer is on a raw point and it would be very risky to operate....the doctors said I would only have a few years from now till my condition will get worse....I couldn't tell anyone about this....even my parents don't know anything....I wanted to hide it from anybody to prevent them from worrying too much and I don't wanted to be treated like a sick person....well now you know why I moved to Seoul....

....I don't know what to say....I'm really sorry....I didn't saw that coming...

By the way, Suzy is my personal doctor. She examines me regulary....and my marriage wasn't a real marriage...

Wait....What?

Even if everything looked like a real marriage...it's not official...I had two reasons to do this....My parents always wanted me to get married soon to raise a family...since I knew I wouldn't have enough time, I decided to do it for my parents to be happy. When I asked Suzy about this she immediatley said yes. She knows my condition very well and she did it because we are really close friends. And of course, everyone from her family knows that it's not a real marriage....but the main reason why I decided to marry Suzy was you...

It's because of m-me? Why?

I soon realized that you must have stronger feelings for me. I saw it everytime I through your hair or everytime when I came closer to you....you always looked nervous and your face turned red. I found it kind of funny and I enjoyed your reaction. One day I realized, that I must have true feelings for you, too. I liked the thought that we can have a great time together and it made me forget my illness. I thought we can always continue to live like this...but a few weeks ago when Suzy checked my condition, she saw that the cancer has gotten bigger than  before....she struggled while saying that I may only have a year to live....That was the tur