D.O. <[email protected]> 2014/11/24 00:08
To: <[email protected]>

Subject: Talk to me please

Hey Hunnie..

Please tell me what went on with you and Kai.. You texted me by mistake.. I know something's gone on.. Please let me be there for you.. You're obviously hurting.. We're friends aren't we? I can't bear the thought of you going through something like this alone.. What did he do to you? Hunnie.. Please get in touch when you get this message.. Even if it's just to let me know that you're alright.. Please.. For me?

I hope you're oki.. I'm always here.. Anytime..

- D.O.

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24 Nov 2014 07:55
From: D.O.
Did you read my email last night?

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25 Nov 2014 16:03
From: D.O.
Please let me know that you're oki..

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26 Nov 2014 20:16
From: D.O.
Hunnie?

26 Nov 2014 20:16
From: D.O.

Please pick up..

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28 Nov 2014 22:31
From: Hunnie
I can't do this anymore, hyung.

28 Nov 2014 22:32
From: D.O.
Hunnie!

28 Nov 2014 22:32
From: D.O.
Where have you been?

28 Nov 2014 22:32
From: D.O.
What's going on?

28 Nov 2014 22:32
From: D.O.
Please tell me what's been happening..

28 Nov 2014 22:33
From: Hunnie
It hurts, hyung

28 Nov 2014 22:33
From: Hunnie
It hurts too much to breathe.

28 Nov 2014 22:33
From: Hunnie
I feel like I'm dying.

28 Nov 2014 22:33
From: D.O.
Talk to me Hunnie.. Tell me everything..

28 Nov 2014 22:34
From: Hunnie
I can't do this

28 Nov 2014 22:34
From: Hunnie
Hyung

28 Nov 2014 22:34
From: D.O.
I hate seeing you like this

28 Nov 2014 22:34
From: D.O.
I want to help you.. But I need to know what's happening..

28 Nov 2014 22:35
From: Hunnie
Hyung

28 Nov 2014 22:35
From: D.O.
I'm here..

28 Nov 2014 22:35
From: D.O.
I'm here for you Hunnie

28 Nov 2014 22:35
From: Hunnie
Why does it hurt so much?

28 Nov 2014 22:36
From: D.O.
What's hurting?

28 Nov 2014 22:37
From: Hunnie
Everything.

28 Nov 2014 22:37
From: Hunnie
Everything hurts.

28 Nov 2014 22:37
From: Hunnie
I can't sleep.

28 Nov 2014 22:37
From: Hunnie
I can't eat.

28 Nov 2014 22:37
From: Hunnie
I can't breathe.

28 Nov 2014 22:37
From: Hunnie
I can't do this.

28 Nov 2014 22:37
From: Hunnie
I can't.

28 Nov 2014 22:38
From: D.O.
Hunnie..

28 Nov 2014 22:38
From: Hunnie
You know what happened, right?

28 Nov 2014 22:38
From: Hunnie
You know what Kai did to me?

28 Nov 2014 22:38
From: D.O.
I've got a feeling..

28 Nov 2014 22:39
From: Hunnie
Why, hyung?

28 Nov 2014 22:39
From: Hunnie
Why did he do it?

28 Nov 2014 22:39
From: D.O.
I really don't know Hunnie..

28 Nov 2014 22:40
From: Hunnie
Am I not good enough?

28 Nov 2014 22:40
From: D.O.
Please don't think like that..

28 Nov 2014 22:41
From: Hunnie
Then why did he?

28 Nov 2014 22:41
From: D.O.
It's his loss..

28 Nov 2014 22:41
From: D.O.
You deserve so much better..

28 Nov 2014 22:41
From: D.O.
You deserve someone who will cherish you..

28 Nov 2014 22:43
From: Hunnie
He said that he loved me

28 Nov 2014 22:43
From: Hunnie
If he loved me, he wouldn't have broken me.

28 Nov 2014 22:43
From: D.O.
Hunnie..

28 Nov 2014 22:46
From: Hunnie
I'm broken, hyung.

28 Nov 2014 22:46
From: Hunnie
I'm so broken

28 Nov 2014 22:46
From: Hunnie
And I don't know what to do.

28 Nov 2014 22:46
From: Hunnie
How do I stop hurting?

28 Nov 2014 22:46
From: Hunnie
I need to be fixed.

28 Nov 2014 22:46
From: Hunnie
Please fix me, hyung.

28 Nov 2014 22:47
From: D.O.
I don't know what to say to make you feel better..

28 Nov 2014 22:47
From: D.O.
I'm sorry Hunnie..

28 Nov 2014 22:47
From: D.O.
I don't know how to make it stop..

28 Nov 2014 22:47
From: D.O.
But it's hurting me to see you like this..

28 Nov 2014 22:47
From: D.O.
He's really not worth your tears though..

28 Nov 2014 22:48
From: Hunnie
I love him so much, hyung

28 Nov 2014 22:48
From: Hunnie
Why do I love him when he doesn't love me?

28 Nov 2014 22:48
From: D.O.
You can't shut off your feelings like a switch..

28 Nov 2014 22:48
From: D.O.
It might take some time.. But it's gonna get better though..

28 Nov 2014 22:49
From: Hunnie
It feels like I'm going to die.

28 Nov 2014 22:49
From: D.O.
I'm here for you..

28 Nov 2014 22:49
From: D.O.
Just let me know how I can help..

28 Nov 2014 23:05
From: Hunnie
Hyung?

28 Nov 2014 23:05
From: D.O.
Yes Hunnie?

28 Nov 2014 23:06
From: Hunnie
Can you die from a broken heart?

28 Nov 2014 23:06
From: D.O.
Hunnie..

28 Nov 2014 23:06
From: D.O.
Please..

28 Nov 2014 23:09
From: Hunnie
I think I'm going to die

28 Nov 2014 23:09
From: D.O.
Can you please stop saying things like that?

28 Nov 2014 23:09
From: D.O.
Please..

28 Nov 2014 23:09
From: D.O.
For me?

28 Nov 2014 23:10
From: Hunnie
How am I going to get through this, hyung?

28 Nov 2014 23:10
From: Hunnie
How am I going to continue living without him?

28 Nov 2014 23:11
From: Hunnie
What am I supposed to do now?

28 Nov 2014 23:14
From: Hunnie
Thinking about the two of them together makes me feel like my heart is being ripped out of my body.

28 Nov 2014 23:14
From: Hunnie
How can do this to me?

28 Nov 2014 23:14
From: Hunnie
And with him?

28 Nov 2014 23:14
From: Hunnie
Oh god

28 Nov 2014 23:14
From: Hunnie
It just keeps getting worse

28 Nov 2014 23:14
From: Hunnie
Why won't it stop?

28 Nov 2014 23:15
From: Hunnie
I can't do this

28 Nov 2014 23:15
From: Hunnie
I can't

28 Nov 2014 23:15
From: Hunnie
Hyung

28 Nov 2014 23:15
From: Hunnie
Please make it stop

28 Nov 2014 23:15
From: D.O.
I'm going to call you.. No objections.. We're going to get through this together..

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Hunnie <[email protected]> 2014/12/03 20:26
To: <[email protected]>

Subject: I'm okay

D.O. hyung,

I just want to thank you for calling me to check up on me these past few days. I know it's really poor timing now that you have a boyfriend. I don't want to take all your time, so I want you to be at ease as I'm really doing better now.

I still see the two of the together and it still hurts when I do. But, I know that I will get through this, so please stop worrying about me. Whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger and all that crap, right?

I'm just going to take each day as it comes, second by second. I'll be fine. I will.

Hunnie

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D.O. <[email protected]> 2014/12/03 21:19
To: <[email protected]>

Subject: Glad to hear that

Hi Hunnie..

I really wish I could do more to make you feel better.. I know it hurts now.. But I promise it will get better.. And you'll never have to go through this alone.. I'm always here for you.. I'll never be too busy for you so don't think for a second that you can't call or text me whenever you want..

Please take care of yourself Hunnie..

- D.O.

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Hunnie <[email protected]> 2014/12/06 16:44
To: <[email protected]>

Subject: (no subject)

Why do I have to see the two of them together? It feels like my heart is being ripped out everytime I see them. And the way he looks at Pororo is the way he used to look at me. I know I said I was doing better, and I really thought that I was. But seeing them today, I couldn't handle it. Hyung, I don't know if I can do this. Maybe I've been fooling myself into thinking that everything's okay and putting on a pretence because I don't want him to know how it's been hurting me. I don't want him to ever know how much I cared about him, so I've been putting on a mask everyday. I don't know how long I'm going to be able to keep this facade up, it's all a lie, hyung. I'm living a lie and I'm just trying my best to keep breathing but it just hurts so much. I love him so much. It feels like I'm drowning in my own heartbreak.

And I never told you this, I never actually told you about the details of our breakup, did I? Well, basically he'll never know how much he meant to me. When he was telling me how he didn't think things were working out between us romantically, I agreed. I bloody agreed because I didn't want to let him win. I didn't want him to mean more to me than I did to him, so I just said I felt the same way. He said he wanted to be friends and that it made more sense to go back to being best friends rather than continuing on as boyfriends, and I didn't object.

Why didn't I fight for it? Why didn't I tell him that I didn't want that? I should've fought harder, asked him to give me the chance to prove to him that we're meant for each other. And now he's happy with someone else and all I've been doing is thinking about how much I regret our last conversation. I don't want to live my life with regret, but hyung, what if I can't get over him? What if he's the one that got away and I spend the rest of my life haunted by this relationship? Why was I too proud? Why couldn't I tell him how I felt? How could I just let him walk away like that? I might as well have handed him over to Pororo.

I don't know what to do. And I don't know how to make it stop hurting. How am I supposed to get over him when I still love him so much?

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D.O. <[email protected]> 2014/12/06 18:57
To: <[email protected]>

Subject: You deserve better

Hunnie..

I hate seeing you like this.. He doesn't deserve your love.. He lied to you.. He doesn't deserve someone like you.. You deserve so so so much better.. Someone who will treat you the way you deserve to be treated.. Oh eff this emailing business.. I'm going to call you and talk to you about this..

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08 Dec 2014 21:53
From: Hunnie
Thanks for checking up on me, hyung.

08 Dec 2014 21:53
From: D.O.
Are you feeling better now?

08 Dec 2014 21:53
From: Hunnie
Yeah, thanks.

08 Dec 2014 21:54
From: D.O.
You need to call me whenever you're feeling like that..

08 Dec 2014 21:54
From: Hunnie
What if you're busy?

08 Dec 2014 21:54
From: D.O.
I told you already Hunnie.. I'm never too busy for you..

08 Dec 2014 21:55
From: Hunnie
Thanks

08 Dec 2014 21:55
From: D.O.
No problem at all.. And I mean that..

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11 Dec 2014 22:18
From: Hunnie
Hey hyung?

11 Dec 2014 22:19
From: D.O.
Yes Hunnie?

11 Dec 2014 22:19
From: Hunnie
I was wondering something

11 Dec 2014 22:19
From: D.O.
What were you wondering?

11 Dec 2014 22:20
From: Hunnie
Where do you live?

11 Dec 2014 22:20
From: D.O.
Er..

11 Dec 2014 22:20
From: Hunnie
I don't need to know your actual address, I just want to know how far away we are from each other.

11 Dec 2014 22:21
From: D.O.
Still..

11 Dec 2014 22:21
From: Hunnie
Just let me know what province?

11 Dec 2014 22:21
From: D.O.
Gyeonggi-do?

11 Dec 2014 22:21
From: Hunnie
No way!

11 Dec 2014 22:21
From: D.O.
What?

11 Dec 2014 22:22
From: Hunnie
That's where I live, too!

11 Dec 2014 22:22
From: D.O.
Shut up.. You're lying..

11 Dec 2014 22:22
From: Hunnie
I'm not!

11 Dec 2014 22:22
From: D.O.
This is pretty creepy..

11 Dec 2014 22:23
From: Hunnie
I know, you're telling me.

11 Dec 2014 22:23
From: D.O.
What city?

11 Dec 2014 22:23
From: Hunnie
Goyang

11 Dec 2014 22:23
From: D.O.
Shut the front door!!

11 Dec 2014 22:23
From: Hunnie
What?

11 Dec 2014 22:24
From: D.O.
That's the same city as me!

11 Dec 2014 22:24
From: Hunnie
Get out of here

11 Dec 2014 22:24
From: D.O.
No.. This is some weird crap.. You must be lying..

11 Dec 2014 22:25
From: Hunnie
I'm not!

11 Dec 2014 22:25
From: D.O.
What the hell.. This can't be just some freaky coincidence..

11 Dec 2014 22:25
From: Hunnie
It looks that way though

11 Dec 2014 22:26
From: D.O.
What are the chances? That you accidentally text me and it turns out we've been in the same city all along..

11 Dec 2014 22:26
From: Hunnie
It's pretty awesome though, right?

11 Dec 2014 22:27
From: D.O.
I'm really finding trouble believing it..

11 Dec 2014 22:27
From: Hunnie
We should meet up!

11 Dec 2014 22:29
From: D.O.
What?

11 Dec 2014 22:29
From: Hunnie
I mean, we live in the same city, why not meet each other in real life?

11 Dec 2014 22:32
From: D.O.
I don't know Hunnie..

11 Dec 2014 22:35
From: Hunnie
We've been talking for like over eight months, I think it's time to meet. The reason why I didn't suggest this before was because I didn't think it was possible, but now that we know that we're in the same city, we need to meet up, hyung.

11 Dec 2014 22:37
From: D.O.
But what if..

11 Dec 2014 22:37
From: Hunnie
What if I'm a weird creepy paedo stalker?

11 Dec 2014 22:38
From: D.O.
Yeah..

11 Dec 2014 22:38
From: Hunnie
Well, let's meet in the daytime in a crowded place then

11 Dec 2014 22:38
From: D.O.
Er.. Don't you think we should video chat or something before we do this.. It's a big step..

11 Dec 2014 22:39
From: Hunnie
No, I want to actually meet you, hyung.

11 Dec 2014 22:39
From: Hunnie
Not cyber meet you.

11 Dec 2014 22:39
From: Hunnie
Don't you want to meet me?

11 Dec 2014 22:40
From: D.O.
I do.. But..

11 Dec 2014 22:40
From: Hunnie
And then we can become real friends.

11 Dec 2014 22:40
From: D.O.
Let me think about it..

11 Dec 2014 22:41
From: Hunnie
What's there to think about?

11 Dec 2014 22:41
From: D.O.
You can't just ask to meet up and expect me to just agree..

11 Dec 2014 22:41
From: Hunnie
Why not?

11 Dec 2014 22:45
From: D.O.
I don't know.. You just can't Hunnie..

11 Dec 2014 22:45
From: Hunnie
Have you heard about the Black Pearl café?

11 Dec 2014 22:45
From: D.O.
That place that does like every single bubble tea flavour you could possibly think of right?

11 Dec 2014 22:46
From: Hunnie
Yup

11 Dec 2014 22:46
From: D.O.
What about it?

11 Dec 2014 22:46
From: Hunnie
I have a part time job there

11 Dec 2014 22:46
From: D.O.
You do?

11 Dec 2014 22:47
From: Hunnie
Yeah, and I'm working there this Saturday and I finish at 3pm.

11 Dec 2014 22:47
From: D.O.
Right..

11 Dec 2014 22:48
From: Hunnie
You have to come and meet me after my shift ends.

11 Dec 2014 22:48
From: D.O.
But Hunnie..

11 Dec 2014 22:48
From: Hunnie
No buts, hyung. You have to, I'll be waiting for you. If you don't turn up, I won't forgive you.

11 Dec 2014 22:49
From: D.O.
You have to send me a picture of you so I know who to look out for..

11 Dec 2014 22:49
From: Hunnie
Nope, it has to be a surprise, hyung.

11 Dec 2014 22:49
From: D.O.
Why?

11 Dec 2014 22:50
From: Hunnie
It's more interesting that way.

11 Dec 2014 22:50
From: D.O.
It is?

11 Dec 2014 22:50
From: Hunnie
Where's your sense of mystery?

11 Dec 2014 22:50
From: D.O.
So how will I know who you are? You don't know who I am.. Right?

11 Dec 2014 22:51
From: Hunnie
Don't be silly, course I don't know who you are. I'm really not a stalker.

11 Dec 2014 22:51
From: Hunnie
When you get there, just ask for Hunnie, one of my colleagues will point me out to you.

11 Dec 2014 22:55
From: D.O.
Are you really expecting me to go?

11 Dec 2014 22:55
From: Hunnie
Yes, and you can't refuse. And let's not chat until then.

11 Dec 2014 22:55
From: D.O.
But Hunnie..

11 Dec 2014 22:56
From: Hunnie
Nope. I'll SEE YOU on Saturday, D.O. hyung!

11 Dec 2014 22:56
From: D.O.
I never agreed to this..

11 Dec 2014 22:56
From: Hunnie
Yes, you did. I'm actually looking forward to working for like the first time ever.

11 Dec 2014 22:57
From: D.O.
I'm not promising anything..

11 Dec 2014 22:59
From: Hunnie
If you don't turn up, I'll take it as you don't really want to be friends with me, and I'll get the hint and you'll never hear from me again.

11 Dec 2014 23:00
From: D.O.
That's not fair..

11 Dec 2014 23:00
From: Hunnie
Life's not fair, deal with it.

11 Dec 2014 23:00
From: Hunnie
I'm going now, and I won't be replying to any more messages.

11 Dec 2014 23:01
From: D.O.
Hunnie..

11 Dec 2014 23:01
From: Hunnie
See you on Saturday, D.O. hyung!

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13 Dec 2014 02:27
From: D.O.
I'm super nervous about meeting up tomorrow..

13 Dec 2014 02:27
From: D.O.
I don't know if I can do this..

13 Dec 2014 02:31
From: D.O.
Will you hate me if I don't turn up..

13 Dec 2014 02:36
From: D.O.
Hunnie?

13 Dec 2014 02:42
From: D.O.
Oki.. I can do this..

13 Dec 2014 02:42
From: D.O.
I'll see you tomorrow Hunnie..

13 Dec 2014 02:42
From: D.O.
Gosh.. It's so weird saying that..

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13 Dec 2014 15:07
From: Hunnie
You're Do Kyungsoo?!

13 Dec 2014 15:07
From: D.O.
You're Oh Sehun!!!!!!

13 Dec 2014 15:08
From: Hunnie
Nini is Kim Jongin????

13 Dec 2014 15:08
From: D.O.
Kai is Kim Jongin?!?!?

13 Dec 2014 15:08
From: Hunnie
You're Pororo?!

13 Dec 2014 15:08
From: D.O.
You're Milk Boy?!!!!

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A/N: Gaaaaaaaah.. They finally know each other's identity!!!!!!!!

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P.S. An early update because I just couldn't wait?