Jay : “ You’ll do it Sica. You have to . Its the right thing to do !

“ its not Jay ! Revenge doesn’t solve anything ! I just cant...”

Jay : “ You love him now right ?Your Falling for him right ?”

“I’m not ... Oppa ...”            

Jay leaned in and kissed me . I was shocked , but it was pleasing .

3 years ago –

“Oppa ! Saranghae “

“You too Sica !”

“dinner tonight ?”

“I’m sorry Sica , I can’t . I have a meeting.”

Later on that night ~~

YoonA : “ Sica!! Happy Birthday ! Iloveyou !”

Taeyeon : “ Happy Birthday  ! So I’m guessing you have an arrangement with Jay ?”

“no ... He has a meeting.”

Hyoyeon: “ We are going clubbing ! Lets go no discussing this !”

-          At the Club –

Tiffany : “Isn’t that Jay .. with that girl .”

 Jessica : “ Happy Birthday to me ... Thanks for celebrating it with me Jay .”

Jay: “ Jessica ... I’m sorry ... let me explain.”

Jessica: “ Why can’t you ever tell me you love me... ? Explain that “

Jessica : “ Its cause you don’t ...”

-end of flashback-

Jay broke my heart . He was a man , and he had cheated on me every day of our 2 years together. Later on I found out , it wasn’t me he loved . It was . He was sleeping with me and all those for 2 years. Ever since then love was not a possibility for me. All guys wanted the same thing with me , not surprising really , what else was there to me ? I was also just another one of those ...

I pullback from Jay . I couldn’t repeat the same mistakes I did before ... He pulled me back onto him . I pushed him off , but he was to strong . I smelt a strong scent of alcohol .

“Oppa don’t do this ! I don’t want too . I don’t love you anymore ! “

“So you love him now ?!”

“I don’t !”

“Save it Sica , I wanted to give us another chance but not anymore!”

He pushed me onto the floor and left . I started to weep. I don’t love Jay that way anymore , but I do in fact love him as my best friend ! I needed him , why does he choose now to leave ?! Why does he choose now to want me back ?!

I felt a pair of strong arms on me helping me up.

“ Don’t cry anymore. Come with me.”

As he took me back to my room  he placed me onto my bed and wiped my eyes with a tissue.

“Why Donghae? Why are you helping me ? “

“I don’t know ,I really don’t  . If I was being honest right now , you’re not a . You’re not a , or a flirt for that matter. Your better then that , you’re a girl with pride and dignity. And I’m sorry .”

I had been waiting for that since forever ... Its what I’ve been scheming for but now that hes actually sorry why don’t I feel very good . I want something more ... Am I really falling for you Lee Donghae ?

“ look Sica I don’t expect you to forgive me anytime soon ... but—“

“Your Forgiven Lee Donghae ... I’m the ice princess I don’t have a heart . Regardless if it were to love or to hate.”

Jay ... Look what you’ve done to me ... You’ve broken me forever ...  But even if it were slim would Donghae be able to mend my broken heart ? Would I then be able to love him ... Would he ever love me ?