"Within you I lose myself. Without you I find myself wanting to become lost again."

^^YONGHWA'S POV^^

****A WEEK LATER****

A whole week have passed and i feel i am still stuck at the night, when I realized that I love Shinhye so much!! Things are no longer the way they used to be. I feel that time has stopped somehow. It has got stuck somewhere and it keeps haunting me. The emptiness...the lonliness...the pain...the guilt...they are all eating me up day by day. I feel like dieing sometimes.

IT WAS MY FAULT, THAT OUR MARRIAGE BROKE DOWN.

AND I CAN'T STOP REGRETTING FOR THAT.

I am sitting in my office room in front of my laptop. Staring outside the window. Staring at no where.

This has become my new habit. I can't focus on work anymore. Files are getting piled up on my table. I sighed loudly. I didn't realize that my cheeks are already wet with tears.

I heard a knock on my door. I quickly wiped off the tears and turn my chair towards the door. Jungshin came in.

"How many nights haven't u slept?" He asked taking a glimpse at me.

"Why do u ask?" I asked.

"The big LORD OF RINGS around your eyes?!" He joked.

I tried to smile. But it just won't form on my lips. Jungshin is right anyhow. Its beens days, I haven't slept. I couldn't stop thinking what could have happened if I realize my feelings for Shinhye a little earlier! What could have happened if I didn't let her go?!

"Why don't u answer my question?" Jungshin brought me back to present.

"I have been thinking about....things." I replied slowly.

"U did it to yourself hyung. U HAD ONE CHANCE TO BE HAPPY AND YOU LOST IT." He stated.

I pressed my lips in pain. "Thanks for reminding me that." I replied.

"I always tried to remind u. I always tried to remind u that U should take care of Shinhye...... U s