"You will never know true happiness until you have truely loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it."

^^YONGHWA'S POV^^

I AM AN IDIOT!!

I REALLY AM AN IDIOT!!

AND I MEAN IT!!

I loved Shinhye all this time. And it took me so long to realize it?! Why didn't I realise it a little earlier? That way I could have saved myself from this heartbreak. Even Suzy understood. But I couldn"t understand my own feelings.

~~FLASHBACK~~

"BECAUSE I ING LOVE HER!!!" I yelled once more.

Suzy chuckled dryly. "Well...I knew it." She said drying her tears with her hand. I am still trying to figure out what i just said. "I knew you loved her all along. I just didn't know why you never accepted it to yourself." She said again. "H-how did you know?" I asked. "Why? All your worries for her...all your concerns for her. U always talked about her. Shinhye this...Shinhye that!! And you are annoyingly happy when you talk about her." She explained. "Was I that obvious??" I asked. She chuckled and nodded slowly. "Then why didn't I realize it myself?" I said. "Maybe you were afraid to fall in love all this time." she replied.

~~END OF FLASHBACK~~

Why does it happen that the thing we are afraid of most, occurs anyhow?

I WASN'T AFRAID TO FALL IN LOVE.

I WAS AFRAID OF BEING HEARTBROKEN.

AND NOW I DID IT TO MYSELF.

I couldn't sleep all night. Whole night I kept thinking about the mistakes I did. How I hurt her. Now I understand what she meant when she said 'she was suffocating'. Off course she was. DAMN YOU YONGHWA!! 

YOU LOST YOUR WIFE!!
YOU LOST THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE!!
 

All I can do now is regre