And so I'm sitting at the cold wooden bench at the park,

where I first bump into Ji Yong-ssi,

where he first pick up the keys I drop for me,

where he send me back for the second time, nothing and no where nearer to my house.

This time round?

At the same place, I'm waiting for him to pick me up.

It's has been almost 6 months since I've been in Korea and two months ago since my dream-alike life started.

If this is a dream, no one shall wake me up. 

"I'll be back from Japan next Thursday, it's a night flight I'll probably reach Seoul by 9 p.m. Then I'll see you at 11 p.m.". Ji Yong-ssi said

That was how our conversation ends when I ask him how are we gonna meet up.

Such a causal question just pop out from my mouth without thinking. 

Damn! I hit my mouth with my hand.

When will I Iearn to think before I speak? When will I be able to control this damn mouth of mine not to speak whatever I like?

As time is approaching, I look at my watch is only 10:00 p.m. 

Yes I know I'm early but I can't help staying at home. I keep pacing around, unable to concerntrate at anything except thinking of him..

I tried to do my revision however I end up drawing his face at my notes. 

I tried to distract myself by listening to music, yet the shuffle mode just keep playing Bigbang's songs.

I have butterflies in my stomach. I’m not nervo