(The ‘Lead Female’ POV)

Me : 24 years old woman(girl) who work as elementary teacher, I love kids.. that’s my reason to work there, but sometimes I hate kids because they’re like crying and bla…bla…bla…., some kids can pull out my nerves..Sometimes they can made me smile and happy at the same time. The rest of my co-worker are women… some of them around my age and some of them mature and married women and in that work society lack of men co-worker.. And you know all my colleges friends are women too and I have certainly 7 great girl friends. I don’t get along with boy friends. Do you know why?

*flashback*

I was born being a girl; my parents raised me being girly. They bought me girly clothes, girly toys and other girly stuff. Of course I like all of them, especially “The Barbie doll”. I like Barbie.. even my aunt, wherever she saw Barbie, she will remember me, and she will buy it for me. But I also like the boys thingy, I like to played marbles, kites, toys car, bicycle, and play with boys. When I was a little, I have a few girl friends but I have a lot of boy friends. I played with them a lot. Honestly I like being around them because I feel save and boys never cry. And my world changed because of one certain boy. He is my classmates in elementary school, and I was 3rd grade at that time. He is the arrogant type. And at that time I must sit with him for the entire years at 3rd grade…. Oh thank you for Mrs. Lee for the sitting arrangement. He didn’t even talk to me and vice versa. Let say I talk to other boy in class and sometimes got quarrel with them too but to him I chickened out. He is the stoic-cold-hearted-boy-who-didn’t-talk-to-his-sitting-partner (that was me) and only me…. Why only me the only person in the class who cannot talk to him normally like other girl talked to him. Is it because I’m ugly or what?

Hmm… yes maybe I’m ugly. The ugly tomboyish who have the long legs (I am the tallest in the class and I’m taller than him (even some of my friends told me that my legs look like longer than my body). I didn’t talk or interact with him until 6th grade. Luckily, me and the stoic-cold-hearted-boy didn’t enter the same junior high. But because of that I started to ignore all the boys who want to approaching me. And now that was me who ignoring all the boys. Maybe that was kind of revenge. Three years in junior high I made a lot of friends but only few were boys. And after junior high, I want to enter the xx senior high, that was a good grade high, so to enter that, I had to attend so many tests. Lucky me… I pass the entire test. Unlucky me…I don’t have sitting partner. And I felt my classmates ignoring me…. Maybe that was My Karma for ignoring boys back then in junior high. I’m OK with that and I handled that for one year.  In the 2nd years of senior, he is back to my life (he is the one and only stoic-cold-hearted-boy) but I ignored him like he ignore me back then in the elementary. And at that time I didn’t feel he exists, maybe same as him, I didn’t exist to him. I’m happy with my girls and that year was the first time one brave boy approaching me and wants to know me better, such a teenage crush maybe…. He said that I’m cute and the one who always smiling…hmm… he likes my smile… what so special about my smile, I didn’t have the brightest teeth and I have 2 weird rabbit teeth in the front and also I have misplaced