Author’s POV

We’ve seen what’s inside Sungmin’s heart; I think it’s time to know what’s inside Kyuhyun’s.

I hope it’s okay if we start seeing Kyuhyun’s side from where we started (not literally, just “the kiss”

moment).

“I love you”

Did I hear right or was it just the alcohol? I didn’t know how to react; I didn’t know what to say.

I looked into his eyes; I was searching for some signs of untruthfulness. I was rather hoping, but I

failed,

I can see his sincerity and before I knew it, his lips and mine met. I’m sure it was me who initiated it.

“Am I drunk?... Is it real, am I really enjoying a kiss I am sharing with my best friend?” And with that

thought, it felt like I’ve been slapped in the face that brought me back to my senses. I pushed him and

run away.

The kiss is like a déjà vu to me. I have had dreams of us (me and Minnie) kissing and it’s been

haunting for almost a year now and it have been confusing me until now.

I enjoyed the kiss, did I? And what confused me the most is that he said he loves me. I’ve known

Minnie for quite a long time now and he has been my best friend.  I guess I just have to forget this.

I don’t want to lose the friendship.

After that incident, I really tried to act as if nothing happened, but every time I see him, I just become

speechless.  Good thing my girlfriend gave me another chance, I thought this would erase all

confusions.

Though thoughts of “the kiss” was still bothering me, at least when I’m with her I tend to forget for a

while. But…

“Kyuhyun, how could you do this to me?” she asked as she approached me. She was crying and I

hate seeing girls cry.

“Why?” I asked her with worried expression on my face.

“This!” she said and slapped an envelope in my face then left.

I opened the envelope and was shocked to see a picture of the moment that’s been bothering for the

past couple of days. I read a note at the back of the picture and felt anger got in my nerves.

I couldn’t contain my anger, I approached him, the only person who I think would want us to break

up. I’ve said so many hurtful words to him. I’m not angry with him, I guess I will never be, I’m angry

at the fact that he have reach to that extent. This is not what I want. It isn’t true love, it’s selfishness.

He’s saying he didn’t do it. I wanted to believe him, but I can’t take back those hurtful words (Pride).

He pleaded to me, but I didn’t listen maybe because of this damn pride. Instead of believing him

I muttered words I know were very hurtful. Trust me, I really don’t know why it came out from my

mouth.

“Face it Lee Sungmin, I don’t love you and I will never love you! You ruined my life! I’ll be happier

without you!”

After saying those words, I felt the pain. Idiot me! I’ve hurt the person who loved me dearly for

a long time.

I thought I would still have the opportunity to ask for forgiveness to him because, of course I still want

to see him again. Okay, I will admit when I said I have been dreaming of us kissing, it’s because I felt

something for him and it’s much deeper than friendship. I just couldn’t admit it to myself.

But just when I’m ready to face these feelings of mine, I never had a chance

He left and it was my fault and it depressed me too much that it takes 3 years for me to pick up

the pieces of me. I just hope it’s not too late.

Now, it’s my turn to prove to him my love and I promised not to fail this time…

“Lee Sungmin wait for me… I’ll win you back”

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Sorry for the grammatical errors if any... I'm really sleepy... goodnight everyone!!