“C-Cho Kyuhyun?” I mouthed

“Yes Minnie, it’s me” he said with a sad smile

“Y-you’re my stalker?” I asked shockingly

“Ne” he said shyly

“Why are you doing these?” I asked with a high-pitched voice

“Minnie, I’m sorry. I really am sorry” he said. I can see tears forming in his eyes

“Kyu, you don’t need to do this. You don’t have to be sorry” I said trying to control my emotions

“ I need to” he said still with his head bowed

“Kyu, it’s not your fault that you can’t reciprocate my love. Don’t blame yourself for all my pain because it

was my choice.” I said with tears falling in my cheeks. I’m causing him tears again.

“No Min, I-I should’ve not shoo you. It’s not what I meant, I only asked you to keep distance from me and not

to leave, but you left” he said childishly.

“ I may not be as smart as you, but I know when enough is enough.” I said in between sobs

“Not that I’m blaming you, but when you left I suffered so much! I suffered from hatred. I hated myself for

being such a coward, for being such an idiot, a freak!” he cried

“Why?” I asked ignorantly

“Because Min, I love you! I loved you since the first time I saw you bringing a pink teddy while all your family

members were bringing a lot of boxes. I loved you since I saw you so helpless in Kang-in hands, I loved you

sin----“

“Kyu, stop!” I said as I felt I am not gonna take anymore of his words.  I sat down like I was about to faint.

“Minnie, you okay!” He said as he ran towards me.

“Kyu, why are you saying all these?” I asked while crying

“Because I need to, I need to tell you all these. I need to be free from my long lost self” he whispered

“I’m sorry, but I just can’t believe you” I said softly

“I’m not forcing to believe me now, but please give me a chance to prove it to you” he said. I can feel his

tears in my hands.

“I never felt it, even just a hint Kyu” I said accusingly

“I was confused. I thought I just wanted to be your friend because we’re still young at that time, I never knew

it was love” he started and I never dare react

“I never really loved my ex-girlfriends, all of them. I was in confusion, so I tried to turn my attentions to them,

but I always fail. I may always look sad with the break-ups, but I really was not. I tried to fake it because I like

it every time you cooked for me and give me hugs. The kiss, I initiated it and it made me more confused.

God knows that I believe you when you said it wasn’t you who sent the pictures to her, but—“

“It wasn’t really me” I said

“I know. I just need to blame you so I have the reason to be distant from you because I really am confused.

The hurtful words I said is like a knife that is stubbed in my heart. I needed to close my eyes in order for me

not to see you walk out the door. I tried to think all over it and just when I realized I’m ready to admit that I’m

in love with you, you left.” He said and stopped. He held my hands and kissed it.

“I blame myself for all the pain I gone through after you left. It took me years to regain the courage to look for

you and correct all my mistakes”

“Kyu, why’d you chose to send me letters instead of just telling me directly?” I said from no where

“hmm… because I get scared everytime I see you. I’m scared of rejections Min. I would never know what to

do if you decline me” he said shyly

“And you used Wookie?” I accused

“I just need a little help. I made a plan, but I don’t know how to pursue it because I was scared and I thought

Wookie’s plan is better.” He said while scratching his head.

“What do you want Kyu?” I asked

“ I want you to forgive me and to accept me” he said while looking through my eyes.

“I’ve already forgiven you before you even asked for it, but to accept you as my boyfriend, that I can’t give you

--” I said

“Why? Do you have someone else?” he asked and tears started to fall from his eyes again

“No Kyu, I just can’t give it to you now. You know that I’ve been lonely for almost 4 years now and it felt like I

don’t know how it feels like being happy” I said and chuckled

“Then I’ll show you how” he said enthusiastically, but still sobbing

“But, you said you’ll gonna make me believe first” I said

“Okay?” he said in a puzzled expression

“ I thought you’re smart, you have to woo mw first idiot!” I said

“Yes, I’ll do that my sweetheart!” he said then started to put kisses in my hands again

“So… Friends?” I said and offered a hand shake

“Friends?!” he said

“Friends!” I repeated

“Okay, Friends for now!” he said then hugged me.