“Why are you so quiet? That’s so unlike you”

“I’m not quiet!” I denied

“Hold out your hand for a quick second”

“why?” Though I questioned Taemin I still did as I was asked

Taemin clasped his right hand over mine then smirked happily

“Oppa! Your driving! Pay attention to the road”

I struggled to pull my hand away but Taemin still kept his grip

Looking down and avoiding his gaze is the only way to keep me at ease

“Don’t forget your teddy bear!”

The teddy bear was tossed into my hands

“uhm Thanks for the bear Oppa. I’ll see you next time”

“See you next time Kris!”

I tossed the teddy onto my bed, soon I threw myself on the bed beside it and sighed

“SHES BACK!”

Giggling and wild knocking was resonating in the hallway

My feet were forcefully taking steps towards the door

“why are you guys so loud?”

Minwoo first entered my room and the rest flooded in behind him

“what are you guys doing?!”

“TA DAA!!” Minwoo yelled out

“you startled me” I sighed, frustrated “Hey! Why did you guys turn off the lights?!”

I squinted and smiled as I saw the warm orange glow coming from a candle

“Congratulations on your debut!!”

“Thank you guys…theres even a cake!”

“first piece goes to Kris!”

“wahhhh! Why’d you put cream on my face!?”

“So you would have the first piece then we can eat!”

“YAH!  JO KWANGMIN YOU ARE DEADMEAT!”

I swiped white cream onto my fingers then smirked evilly “muhahahhaa”

“Run kwangmin run!! She’s not gonna let you get away!”

“ahem” I brushed myself off “anyway thank you guys! You guys are the best!”

“GROUP HUGG!!” Donghyun yelled out

“Kyaaaa! Small girl stuck in the middle” I yelled out helplessly

But still… I laughed happily, these guys helped me through the roughest years in my life and I’ve finally made it now

It’s my time to show the world what I got and I’m definitely not holding back!

When I think back to how it used to be a few years ago, it surprises me how much I’ve changed

And how this all started because of Kevin…

My cell phone screamed at me to pick it up, saving me from my own thoughts

“Hello?”

“yah! What are you now! You’re so popular you couldn’t talk to your oppa!?”

“Dongho oppa?”

“yes it’s me! you jerkface!”

“HEY!! Why call me a jerkface! You’re being mean! I’m going to tell Kibum oppa!”

“Yah!”

“Hmph! Why did you just call to yell at me?!”

“oh right…I’m near starship entertainment so come out and meet me alright?”

“Right now?”

“yes right now!”

“It’s two in the morning!”

“unless you want a scandal because we were in broad daylight. Hmmm but that would help you since I’m a handsome sunbae and you’re a rookie”

“yahh! Shut up! Why hmm? Want to date me?” I teased

“pshhh in your dreams shortie! Now get your down here before I decide to leave!”

“Yes Jerkface sir!”

“Yah!” he scowled

“I’m hanging up!”

Hehehe

I pulled my hood over my face “psttt Dongho oppa? Where are you?”

My heart almost jumped out of my chest when someone grabbed me from behind then covered my mouth

“shhh!! It’s me! Dongho!”

“mmm mmm mm mmmmm!”

“huh? Oh! Sorry!” He removed his hand

“I said Let go of me!! Why did you do that?! Do you like giving people heart attacks!?”

Nonetheless I turned around and threw my arms around his neck

“Dongho oppa even though you’re a jerkface I still really really missed you!”

“You are so bipolar sometimes!”

“yah!!”

“alright alright shortie! I missed you too!”

“The suns already starting to come up. Did we really talk for 3 hours already!? Let’s go before other people come to this park”

I stood up and pushed away my swing “Dongho oppa let me just ask one more thing”

“what is it?”

“about Kevin oppa…Is that girl really his girlfriend?”

“what girl? Ohhh you mean Hana?! She’s like his number 1 fan and she even saved him once! I’m not surprised if she is”

“save him?”

“he always denies that she’s his girlfriend but we always find them together anyway”

“you guys allowed to have girlfriends now?”

Dongho nodded

“I see…”

“anyway!! Let’s get you back home”

“You really didn’t have to walk me home. Get some sleep oppa. Don’t work too hard and don’t forget to take care of yourself”

“I’ll get some sleep on the plane later. You better get some sleep or you’ll be exhausted.”

Though we had said our good byes, we both didn’t move an inch and stared at each other intently with glassy eyes

“Go sleep”

“Oppa! I haven’t seen you in so long…and you already have to leave..”

Dongho comforted me with a hug then my head

“Silly..Don’t cry. I’ll see you again later on…”

Forcing words between sobs, I said “I haven’t seen you guys for 2 years and get to talk to you for like 2 minutes! And these past two years were so lonely!”

“aigoo my little baby! I know it’s been hard! Oppa promises you that he’ll buy you something from Japan. Okay?”

I chuckled and wiped away my tears “what am I? a baby!?”

“To me you are!”

“We all love you very very much. Even if we’re in Canada and you call us! We’ll find whatever it takes to get to you. Understand?”

“Thank you oppa…”

“Enough with the mushy stuff and get your into the building so I can leave!”

“tchh and you call me the bipolar one. I love you oppaa!!”

“not so loud! It’s embarrassing!” Dongho hissed

“I LOVE YOU OPPAA!!”

“you’re doomed the next time I see you” he mouth

“bye oppa!” kekeke

I stopped smiling…I hate faking to be cheery but what else can I do?

I can’t just burst into tears and kill myself just because Kevin likes someone else

I just have to deal with it

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A/N: OHMYGOODNESSS!! I'm already posting the 39th chapter

haha boring anyone?
I totally feel like todays a good day!

My birthday's today! WOOOTT So pumped!!

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