I watched as Kevin was staring at the road, definitely bothered by what I had said earlier

He doesn’t like me anymore right?

We had already reached the dorm

I watched as Kevin stumbled and tripped as he walked up the stairs

“Kevin!” I rushed up to him

Instead he wriggled his arm out of my grasp and entered the dorm without looking at me once

“Hyung! You okay?” Dongho asked him

Kevin ignored him as well and locked himself in his room

“Whats wrong with Kevin hyung?” Dongho then asked me

“I don’t know” I lied

That night, Kevin locked himself in his room the whole night without eating

“You gotta try kris! We’ve all tried to get him out to eat” Soohyun commanded

I knocked on the door gently “Kevin…Kevin get your out here!”

There was still no response

What have I done?

The door suddenly swung open, revealing a tired looking Kevin

“Kevin! You gotta eat! Come on!” I acted, as if nothing had ever happened

Kevin’s eyes…I looked into them and saw helplessness and confusion

“Hey you guys go set the table and make food. I’ll bring Kevin out in just a bit” I told the group who had crowded the door

After a couple more seconds the crowd of boys had dispersed evenly throughout the dorm

“Kevin I’m sorry”

“No don’t, you said what you honestly felt”

 No I wasn’t honest…

I accidentally let out a scoff then immediately bit my lip

But Kevin didn’t notice

“Come on lets go eat” I said tapping his arm

“Don’t touch me please” he said removing my hand

He stood up and didn’t even blink or look at me once

Before I knew it I was standing inside the room alone

This guilt is eating me alive!

I know I have at least a bit maybe just a tiny bit of feelings for Kevin

I want to tell him but I shouldn’t…

I guess people are right when they say “There are things that we don’t want to happen but we HAVE to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, and people we CANT live without but have to let go”

Kevin suddenly appeared in his room once again

He grabbed his sweater then headed for the door but I stopped him

I blurted it…I was so stupid then to do so

“Kevin! I- I have a bit of feelings for you. That’s all I had to tell you”

I exhaled “I’ll go out now”

Kevin grabbed my arm and spun me back around

“STOP IT!!” Kevin shouted frustrated “You’re just playing around with me! You tell me you dislike me and now you suddenly like me?”

I looked at him with the utmost guilt I have ever felt, even though I was partially surprised at his sudden outburst

“Its not a game” He said coldly

His eyes told me exactly what he had just said outloud, there were flames from his glare that couldn’t be put out

I fell to the ground, I never meant for any of this to happen

‘Its not a game…Kevin I never treated it as a game’ I thought to myself

I heard the sudden BOOM that sounded, coming from Kevin’s door slamming frenzy

Making me jump in shock

I was left to sit there, helpless

I know Kevin probably hates me now’

This time, I locked myself in Eli’s room

That night I cried myself to sleep

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A/N: oooh dramaaa

hahha the girl is soo messed 

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