I can't sleep because I feel bad throwing that CHAPTER 9. My friends black-mailing me because of that chapter. ROTFL =).
I'll do the real updates now!

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Park Su-Min PoV

2 years ago I go back to Korea with all the happiness inside my heart.

I declare myself that I will confess my feeling to Kai-oppa.

It isn’t a fairy tale; I got shocked when Kai introduce the girl besides him is his girlfriend.

Congratulation Kai, you kill me!

Oh well, that was another sorrow I had back in years.

At least at that time I know it was all prank, Kai make a stupid joke about his relationship with Kara.

Kai’s Cousin Kim Jae-Kook oppa tells me when he got back from Korea that summer.

I never reply Kai messages or anything Kai sent to me isn’t because I hate him.

I just don’t want to destruct his life with my existence; he’s busy with his EXO’s debut.'

And last year before Christmas I met Mr.Soman in US.

It was Korean days in Embassy; he’s one of guest of honor that night.

I performance that night and that was the reason why I can be here today.

Su-Min performance in Korean Embassy: http://youtu.be/0QH5x86L7HI


And Kai was my only reason for me to joining SM Entertainment.

All I can think of is fixing our ‘broken’ relationship. He’s the reason I say YES to be Mr. Soman new project.

Kai is the reason I’m back in to Korea.

I make my plan.

I'll be back in Korea and make sure I deserve Kai today.

I will work harder and fight for my own carrier.

I wanna be the girl who fits Kai....

Start it all over with my first love, Kai...

And 3 months ago I heard news from Kwon-Oppa.

All the people in SM know about this, we’re not allowed to talk to the outsider.

We have rules here; “What’s in SM stays in SM.”

It’s not about the rules now, it’s about the story I heard.

Kwon-Oppa told us one of the EXO-K members is in a relationship now

Well, actually the real news is “Kai officially dating Kara"

I almost fainted 2 years ago, I fainted this time...

Yeah... I don't know... It has to be the same news as 2 years ago.

I should've got used to it, but stupid me, my body can't accept the same news for second time.


Stupid me again, I’m fainted and that’s how my EXO-L know about the story, Vic-unnie tells them all.

Kwon-oppa feels so bad because he is the one who throw that stupid news. He takes me to the hospital immediately.

I felt lost!

I'm feeling so left out!

I almost stepped back and resign, but my onniedeul push me to fight.

Not to mention fight for Kai, but to fight with them, to battling our future in EXO-L.

They help me to erase the feeling I have for Kai.

It’s not that I can delete him from my memory; it’s just somehow I need to given up for others.
I can’t push someone to love me back...

The unconditional love makes me realize that I cannot control every situation in life.

And admitting that I can’t control situation in life is healthy...

I have a better life, and I’ve prove myself that I can endure all the pain.

Twice broken-heart is enough. I won't felt it again for the third time, with the same person!

Enough... enough....

Don’t make a stupid ending, again... dear my beloved heart!

Please my beloved head fight the heart when its get soften!

The wrong starting point needs to be fixed on the process, for a better ending.
 

He’s officially isn’t belong to me!

So... PARK SU-MIN!!!!! Grab your lunch and STOP starring at the man in front of you!!!

KAI IS NOT BELONGING TO YOU!!!!!