Preparation

Dear Diary, I am Fat.

“Why the hell is she Hoya oppa's partner?” one of them whispered ‘softly’.

“She is such an extra.” Someone else said.

“Precisely.” The other girl agreed.

“Come on, girls. We can’t blame her. She needs a really good partner anyway.” Another girl said with a smirk.

Her statement made everyone else laugh. Satisfied, the group of girls walked away, leaving behind Cho Hee who was looking down, pretending not to hear them all this while.

“Get into your pairs already!” Jiyeon entered the studio and shouted loud enough for everyone to hear.

“Ne!” Everyone chorused before getting up and into their pairs.

“Kim Myung Soo reporting.” L said to Jiyeon as he walked up to her.

Jiyeon flashed him a plastered smile and rolled her eyes.  

“You look cuter rolling your eyes.” He commented.

“I see that you’re really a player.” She said before walking to see if the others were ready.

“Where is he?” Cho Hee thought as she scanned the studio to see many pairs in ready position already.

After some time, she spotted someone getting up lazily from a corner. She hurriedly made her way over, careful not to bump into anyone on the way. Standing awkwardly beside Hoya, she inhaled deeply in an attempt to calm her disobedient heart down. Suddenly, she felt someone hold her hand.

“Wh-What are you doing?!” Cho Hee stammered nervously as she looked down at Hoya who was still holding onto her hand.

“Dance ready position.” He said simply and let out an exasperated sigh.

Cho Hee looked around and saw everyone already holding hands and in their dance ready position. Some people were looking at them with weird stares because of Cho Hee’s exaggerated reaction from before.

“Sorry.” She muttered as she hurriedly moved into position.

The starting position was basically the couple holding hands, spreading their arms and facing one another. Once the music starts, they were supposed to seemingly push each other and move back in force. Cho Hee was waiting and waiting for the music to play but it seemed to be taking forever to. She couldn’t even look up from the ground knowing she was that close to Hoya. She felt slightly warm and soon, sweat began forming on her neck and forehead already.

“Yah! Park Cho Hee! What the hell are you doing looking on the floor?! You are supposed to look at your partner with longing and loving eyes!” A familiar voice struck Cho Hee.

“So-Sorry.” She mumbled as she snapped out of her thoughts.

Looking up nervously, Cho Hee met Hoya’s mesmerizing eyes. He was emotionless, staring back at hers. Through his eyes, she saw her reflection and unconsciously recalled the scene that night. She wanted so much to pull away the gaze and stop remembering that scene which haunted her since then. However, she continued to look at those eyes which brought her pain.

“Because I won’t like someone like you.” His statement rung in her ears and she knew she was about to cry.

Cho Hee tilted her head slightly, hoping those tears would subside and he did not notice her tearing up. Then, the music started playing and the two jerked away from one another forcefully. Seizing the opportunity, Cho Hee hurriedly blinked away those tears and took a deep breath.

“Park Cho Hee. Concentrate. Concentrate.” She told herself as she carried on dancing to those moves.

Sweat was drenching her shirt already when the first few dance moves were actually not that vigorous. Cho Hee began to feel self-conscious as she found herself being the only girl in the group sweating this much. Whenever she was close to Hoya, she couldn’t help but wonder how she smelt like and what he was thinking about her.

“Alright. Great job guys…so far.” Jiyeon completed her sentence as her gaze landed on Cho Hee.

“Now, it’s self practice time. Go master the next few steps before we come back to dance as a group.” She instructed.

“Okay.” The members replied.

With that, everyone dispersed into their pairs and occupied a space of their own. They were all deeply engrossed in perfecting the dance with their partners. In ‘Sparklex’, everyone was extremely good and everyone wanted to be the limelight. Learning the dance was never the issue, perfecting it was the key. Every member wanted to be recognized as the best out of the best.

“Like seriously. I should have just partnered with the other girls that time.” Hoya cursed mentally as Cho Hee made yet another mistake.

“Can you please concentrate?!” He finally spoke.

“I’m sorry.” Cho Hee apologized immediately as she stepped back and looked down.  

“Sorry? You have said that at least five times today! If you are really sorry then can’t you start concentrating?” He scolded in annoyance.

Cho Hee had just passed his tolerance limit with the repetitive mistakes she was making. As they practiced, Hoya was getting annoyed and worried for his ‘Best Dancer’ title. He didn’t want to screw up his senior year performance, absolutely not because of Cho Hee.

“Let’s take a break and continue later.” Hoya said before walking off to get a bottle of water.

Cho Hee sighed.

“How can I concentrate… when my partner is you?” she thought silently.

 

Author's Note:
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So I quickly typed an update before going to bed...
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TaeChan099716 #1
Chapter 23: This whole story took me on an emotional rollercoaster since I can relate to it. Honestly, it being the outcast. I'm glad that Cho Hee got the happy ending that she deserves and wanted. Life can be so cruel sometimes. This truly deserves an upvote. Thank you for writing this story. Lots of love! :)
inpiniteu_king
#2
Chapter 5: I just wondered if this life-dancing things really fit her in. It amazed me on how she could bear everything to this point. If I were her, I might be turning myself into other things that would fit me in at least. I sort of experienced this kind of things too, feeling useless and sometimes being mocked due to my physical features that obviously limiting myself from doing sports. So I chose not to involve in certain things. I partially understood Cho Hee; she was like a reflection of me nevertheless I was in a better society than her. I remembered I read this before as it was so relatable and very heart-warming. And inspiring too :)
smallpanda
#3
Chapter 24: I can't find any words for what I'm feeling right now. Honestly,I've never expected to read such an amazing well written story and without the typical perfect skinny girl who gets the hot guy. I love the plot and cried because I know this feeling,not to that extend but I know it and it's so painful that I can't describe it at all. I love you for finding the right words without making it sound cheesy or weird. I'm glad that I've read your story,glad that I'm able to say that I enjoyed it a lot.
Kkyungwifeuu12_
#4
Chapter 24: Let me cry for a while //Hiding my face under the blanket// ..Anyway ,This is really an amazing FF Authornim ! .And yeah ,The diary .I cried again ._. ...Its just .Too sad .And ,Happy ending but ,Where is Ary ? //Cry Again// .Dont you think you want to publish this as an official book ? .Great job author ! .I really love this FF //Cry again// ..
wonderexo #5
Chapter 25: I can't express how much I love this story , great job authornim
f5sulli #6
Chapter 24: Author, I just wanna say this was truly a beautiful story.
This is my first time ever saying this but this story deserves to be published as an official book
RizaOneie
#7
Chapter 17: I really love how you put MyungYeon in the story. Like in this chapter, they look so cute.. Myungsoo n Jiyeon 4 eva~
niena98 #8
Chapter 23: It's soo sad~ I love this ending though~ finally she can be happy and others treat her well than her other life. It's kind of sad boz they only look for appearance only. It's not wrong to be fat though. The sorrow feelings is always tugging me while reading this. It's just so unfair. I wish I could be her friend and comfort her. Anyways you do a great job making this story!!~ stay well and good luck!!~^^ Later~ Gonna catch your other stories~
kenjin
#9
Chapter 12: omooo so sadd.. T,T
clminzydarabomlover #10
Chapter 24: Authornim i cried reading this
Yes i was bullied when was in primary school but stuff sorta stop when i went to secondary but yeah it still haunts me everytime i read theese type of stuff or when my friends ignore me but im fine.......