I'm afraid

One million colors

JR's POV

 

I raise my hand to greet the others who are already waiting for me. Seems like I loitered a bit too much on my way here.  

 

"JR! You're laaate!" Aron hyung calls and I chuckle before shouting back:

 

"I know! I'm sorry!" I then fasten my pace to walk up to them. My glance wanders through the round of guys until it is being caught by

an unknown face. I raise my eyebrows in surprise.

 

"Yah, Baekho, you told us about having a girlfriend, but even a foreigner?" I laugh, earning me a hit of him. The girl beside him is cute

and small, she has a round face with bright, big eyes and hair that reaches her shoulders. It is slightly curly. i have to admit, she really

is cute, but to me, there's someone even cuter...

 

"Well since you already noticed- this is Vani." Baekho says, wrapping one arm around her shoulders as he gives her a look full of love.

 

"Nice to meet you." I say, and she nods, then gives me the brightest smile.

 

"Nice to meet you, too! I've heard a lot about you!" Her accent sounds nice. I wonder where she's from.

 

"Only good things I hope?"

 

"More or less!" She laughs once again, turning her attention towards Baekho, who just whispered something into her ear. We

met just a few minutes ago and the two of them are all lovey-dovey already. But I don't mind. I just wish Ren would've accompanied me.

Without him, I feel a bit lost.

 

"Now look at them..." Minhyun teases, and Baekho shoots a glare at him. Minhyun jumps away playfully. Before it gets more awkward

due to our silence, I open my mouth to ask what they wanted to do now. But Baekho is faster. He points at the bag in his right hand.

 

"Vani prepared food for us. Her cooking skill is awesome!" He declares, totally proud, causing me to grin. Of course. Baekho loves to

eat, he'd naturally get a girl that can fulfill all of his wishes. I'm hungry anyway, and so are the others, so we quickly search for a place

to have lunch.

 

The five of us end up in a park with wide, green fields of grass and a low amount of people around. No wonder though, it's hot and

most of them probably went to the sea. While Baekho spreads a blanket for us to sit on, Vani puts various boxes out of the bag and

places them neatly on it. We gather around with high expectations and watch her open all of them. My eyes widen at the sight of all the

delicious food before me.  She hands us chopsticks and tells us to dig in, what I gladly do. Not without observing her and Baekho

though. They really look like a couple out of some kind of novel. Even though Vani seems to be pretty good with chopsticks, Baekho

decides to feed her at some point. I believe she found it a bit embarrassing at first, because she'd back away whenever he offered her

something to eat, but she adapted quickly and let him continue. Slowly chewing, I observe them, and really, really want to be near my

boyfriend now.  

 

"JR, stop staring at them already." Minhyun pokes me, and I avert my gaze.

 

"I don't think he stares at them, it's more like he's in his own little world." Aron chuckles and Minhyun joins him. I feel a bit offended.

 

"I know. You're thinking of doing dirty things with Ren-ah, right?" Since when was Aron hyung such a tease?! And why do I have to

blush now? They'll believe he was right, and I honestly haven't thought of those things. Not with my pure Ren.

 

"Yah, what are you thinking? It's not like that!" Surprisingly, Vani joins the conversation.

 

"Right, why didn't you bring him in the first place? I wanted to meet him, too." She's gotten curious and I sense it. I throw a questioning

gaze at Baekho. Does she know?

 

"She knows." I nod.

 

"Well he told me he had other business to attend to. Believe me, I'd have loved to bring him." And this was nothing but the truth. He

would've enjoyed being here... Minhyun and Aron exchange looks.

 

"Nah, one couple like them is enough." Minhyun says. "But I should get me a girlfriend, too..." He mutters, peeking at Aron. "You should

as well, hyung!" Aron just laughs.

 

"Right. Or maybe a boyfriend?" He  glances at me, and I know he wants to annoy me. I roll my eyes.

 

"Gosh, leave poor JR!" Vani exclaims, and I feel thankful. Me being with Ren, what's the big deal?

 

"Though I still want to meet Ren." She reminds me, looking straight into my eyes. It doesn't please her boyfriend.

 

"You don't need to meet him, I'm here with you." He mumbles, placing a peck on her cheek. She raises one eyebrow, as if saying 'and

that's it?'. Her hand grazes over his chest and keeps resting there as she pulls his face closer and slightly presses her lips onto his. I

quickly look away before I get any more jealous. I want to be like that with Ren. Right now. My hand searches for the mobile in my

pocket.

 

 

 

Ren's POV            

 

"Who are you?" I try my hardest to make my voice sound indifferent and emotionless, while inside of me, everything tightens.  Plus, the

headache makes it hard for me to control my actions.

 

"Hah, don't be so harsh, hyung!"  The person beside me whines, and I force myself to not look at him. "You where so nice with those

kids before. Look, I can be as cute as them, too!" I still don't face the stranger. But I'm pretty sure he just made some kind of cute

expression. Doesn't matter, even if I'd have looked, aegyo has no effect on me.

 

"Don't avoid my question." I say untouched, and hear a sigh beside me.

 

"Okay then, my name is Choi Junhong. But please call me Zelo!" For the first time I examine that person, who claims to be called Zelo.

He has a cute but at the same time handsome face with eyes that sparkle cheekily. His hair is blond, just a bit darker than my own, and

curled cutely. I relax somehow. He doesn't seem dangerous.

 

"I'm Ren." The boy, Zelo, laughs.

 

"No, you're not. You're Choi Minki." My head spins around, glaring at the younger boy. How did he...? He notices my surprised

expression.

 

"Don't be so shocked, I'm just making up names. For fun. I do that every time I meet someone new! I want to have names only I call

them."  He said it with a sweet smile and not the slightest evil intent. Sure, a lot of people are named Choi. And Minki isn't a rare name

either. But can this really be a coincidence?

 

"What a stupid habit." I say, only causing Zelo to chuckle.

 

"I know, right? My hyungs say that all the time."        

 

"Then they seem to be more intelligent than you." I don't mean to be that mean towards him, but the words just leave my mouth. I feel

like I have to keep a certain distance between us.

 

"I saw you around yesterday. What where you doing here so late?" I continue my questioning, but turns out he's not that naive. He

won't tell me everything.

 

"I could ask you the same. Ah, but I think I know. You were here with your precious 'friend'."  At the reference to JR, my body tenses. So

he noticed him.

 

"Yeah, that's why it's normal. You were alone, which is kinda creepy, don't you think?"

 

"Nope. I love the sea." So do I, but I make sure to not tell him. We both stay quiet for a while, until he suddenly reaches out his hand,

expecting me to take it. I hesitate, but not taking it would reveal that I was suspicious of him.

 

"Gonna go now. I hope we meet again so we can become good friends, hyung!" He says, and as my hand touches his, a sharp pain

runs through my whole body, and my vision weakens for a second. Then the weird sensation is over, and without saying a word I watch

his tall figure disappear. If it wouldn't have been afternoon with some people around, I probably would've been scared by now. But like

this, I only feel uncomfortable and weak.

 

The sound of my ringtone makes me flinch and throws me back into reality. JR , is what the display says. I smile at the thought of him.

 

"Hello?" I answer my phone, and JR's voice sounds pissed and somehow - harsh.

 

"Ren-ah? I'm on my way home. Make sure you're back soon!" It sounds like an order to me, and it makes me fear the consequences if I

disobey now.  

 

"N-neh." The call ends. As fast as I can, I hurry back to JR's- no, our apartment.

 

 

JR's POV

 

I got home right after I called Ren. I have no idea how long the others intend to stay, but I couldn't handle it anymore, being separated

from Ren. Am I, by any chance, starting to become obsessive? I shudder. No, I could never steal away Ren's freedom. I mean, he was

alone this whole day until now. It's understandable that I want to see him. I just hope he wants to see me, too. So now I'm lying on the

sofa, impatiently waiting for his arrival, while an annoying song plays on the radio beside me. I turn it off. Ren, come home fast...

 

The doorbell rings and I shoot up at the speed of light. With a few steps I reach the door and rip it open. An exhausted Ren is standing

before me, greeting quietly, and I grab his wrist to pull him into the living room and force him onto the sofa. I take the place beside him

and regard him in awe. I can't believe he's mine. But why does he seem so lifeless?

 

"Ren-ah, are you okay?" At that moment, I'm trying hard to keep my hands away from him, his sad face, his soft hair. He nods, but I

don't believe him. There's something bothering him. And I don't want to see him like this, so I give in to the urge to touch him. My hands

caress his cheeks, I streak his bangs out of the way so I can directly look into his eyes. Then I wrap my arms around him and pull his

slim body onto mine, and we end up in a lying position, his head resting on my chest as I take a deep breath and move it so that he,

once again, looks at me. His eyes are filled with sorrow. Don't be like that, Ren, not know. I force my lips onto his, and he doesn't even

try to escape my rough kiss, he just let's it happen. I gently his back, his neck, and we continue with the kisses. I close my eyes

and shake off all the negative thoughts. There's only me, Ren, and our warm lips touching.

 

 

 

Ren's POV

 

At first, I am surprised by JR's sudden actions, though I expected it. His aura had been wild and vivid from the point when I entered,

and I knew what he was up to. But experiencing it was something different. I don't struggle. I enjoy the distraction, and I enjoy his touch.

But I'm not in the mood to go along with him, there's too much I'm thinking of at that moment, even though he's so close, even though I

shouldn't think of anything else but him. eventually, he let's go of me, and I huddle myself closer against his chest, it lifts and lowers

due to his heavy breathing. I notice that my breathing is heavy as well.

 

"I'm afraid." I mumble, and JR's eyes flash open, looking at me in sorrow and concern.

 

 

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For once! A chapter I'm content with. And it's not that short! Yay!

I'm still thinking how to continue this. I mean, I know, but I don't know to write it xD I'll come up with it soon, I hope :> Enjoy my dear readers! ♥ I love every single one of you, haha!

 

Also... this is somehow dedicated to my friend. Because of a certain Vani and her boyfriend. She'll know. haha :3

 

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arih04 #1
Chapter 34: Wow it's really good story (/ω\)


I love it so much, thank you authorniiiim ◝(⑅•ᴗ•⑅)◜..°♡
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Chapter 34: What a happy ending
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Chapter 33: YESH they are gonna kiss
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Chapter 32: OMG JUST GO TO EACH OTHER AND GET MARRIED
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Chapter 31: This is so sad
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Chapter 30: Poor Jr he is in so much pain
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Chapter 29: Now she want him back? is SHE CRAZY
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Chapter 28: He should have ask Ren
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Chapter 27: Nnoooooo why break up???
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Chapter 26: Ren doesn't like him anymore