JR'S POV

 

Entering my apartment so casually after all what happened- It feels strange.  I dislike the poor surroundings,  everything in here

remembers me on how hard I tried for a girl that wasn't even my real sister. Behind me, Ren followed quietly, and he is now standing in

the hallway, looking a bit lost. I force a smile onto my lips and signalize him that he can enter. After hesitating for a while, he does, and I

wonder if he possibly feels uncomfortable. Why would he? To make the situation less awkward, I lead him into the living room with its

worn out sofa and the wooden table.

 

"Just make yourself comfortable." I say, pointing at the sofa, and Ren quietly follows my suggestion. What now? I finally got him here

again, mainly because I'm being selfish (not wanting to be alone), and now I'm like this again. Seems like his presence eats up my

brains. Even though the happenings earlier had only taken about two hours of time, it felt like a whole week had passed. And

overthrown my whole life in this short time period. Now I don't know how to go on anymore. Ren notices my inner conflict and pats the

sofa beside him.

 

"Hyung, come here." He demands, and I gladly do as he says. I am burned out and empty.  After sitting down beside him, Ren

unexpectedly rests his head on my lap. I start staring at that bright hair of his, playing with its soft strands, while my thoughts drift away

to deal with my current situation.

 

 

 

Ren's POV

 

I hate seeing JR so broken. And I hate even more letting him alone whenever he is like that. Just like last time, I felt that he needed me

back then. That is the main reason I accompanied him home, and the other reason is because that's what I want- and actually wished

for. Spending another lonely night on the streets, I couldn't stand it. I want that warm presence of his being there, the presence that

makes me feel like having a home. After the torture I went through, I need his closeness and warmth.  And resting on his lap like right

now is one of those moments I enjoy the most. It benefits the both of us. His hands are shaky as they caress my hair, and I'm pretty

sure it's because of the fight he's fighting by himself now. I am not affected greatly as him, for I am experienced. Things like that

happened to me long ago. Don't think about the painful past now, it's enough if one of us is in pain.

 

Eventually, I get sleepy, but I don't allow myself to totally fall asleep yet. I need to guard JR. We stay like this for what feels like an

eternity, until I realize that his hand stopped moving and is now lying comfortably on my back. JR's breathing is steady and calm. I

figure he has left for dreamland already. I carefully lift my body up and shove his hand away, even holding my breath to not wake him

up. But his sleep seems stable. I try to get him into a lying position, so that he's more comfortable, and he doesn't resist when I move

his body. I then stare at him, fascinated. Sleeping JR looks so peaceful. Finally managing to draw my attention away from him, I look

around, seeking for a blanket or at least something to cover JR with. If my guess is right, the bedroom should be around here, I think

as I step into the hallway. And really, it is. The thing is, seems like there's only one blanket. And it's cold inside the unheated

apartment. A random idea appears in my mind, and I smirk contentedly. This can be my excuse to sleep next to him. Dragging the

blanket behind, I return to sleeping JR and cover him with the blanket. He moves in his sleep. I shrug and crawl under it as well, my

complete right side now in touch with his warm body. So much more enjoyable than being alone...  Gazing at his handsome features,

I'm finally at ease, and I give him a peck on the forehead before going to sleep myself.

 

 

 

***

 

JR's POV

 

I awake with a prickling feeling in my stomach. A groan escapes my throat as I slowly open my eyes and gaze at the ceiling. Sunlight

shines through the sun-blind, it throws patterns of light into the room. Suddenly, something beside me moves. I almost get a shock, but

upon seeing this familiar blond head I chill. Right. We spent the night together, but I originally wanted him to take the bed again. Why

are you here, Ren?  I think as I his hair. So fluffy. A small sigh comes from Ren's mouth, and he turns fully towards me. I position

myself so that I can directly look at him, our faces being only inches away from each other. Once again I learn why I love those

adorable lips of his. I feel like touching them, so my finger lightly grazes over them. I quickly pull it away. What am I doing? I feel like an

idiot. I hit my head in surprise when Ren's eyes flash open abruptly.

 

"Ah, you're awake." I stutter, hoping that he didn't notice the thing from before.

 

"Neh, hyung." He says cutely, but his smile soon turns into a cheeky one. He then grabs both of my cheeks with his hands and says: "I

also like that face of yours." My head must be flushing red right now, so I quickly arise and clear my throat as I do so.

 

"I don't have anything to eat in place right now..." I say, cursing myself. Why hadn't I thought of this? Oh right, there were more

important things on my mind. Still, I feel stupid for inviting him here and having nothing to offer. "But we can grab a bite at a cafe or

something." I try to make up for it, but Ren disagrees.

 

"I'm not hungry. And I really don't wanna bring this up, but its noon already and you might want to check your phone..." I do as he says,

and really- numerous missed calls, once again. Mostly from Baekho, but the others wrote as well. For the last day I seriously didn't

even think of them once.  I'm a horrible friend. I should've checked on Minhyun and also contacted Aron, we didn't talk in ages. So I

make up the perfect plan: I'll just take Ren to eat and then meet up with all three of them.  Besides, I have a lot of questions to ask

Baekho. And surely, they would want to know everything in detail...  I explain my plan to Ren, and he agrees faster than I thought. Or

maybe not.

 

"But only under one condition." He says and raises his finger. "You have to take me with you when you meet them." I am confused for a

second, why would Ren want to meet them?

 

"I think it would be easier for you to explain with me being there. " He declares as if he read my thoughts. Maybe he did? I'm still not

sure how to handle his uniqueness. Not like it bothers me, but the one thing bugging me is that I know nothing about him, while he

knows everything regarding me. In the end, I give him my okay and send a mail to Baekho, Minhyun and Aron. At the thought of the

confrontation, however, I sigh.

 

 

***

The shocked silence after I finished retelling yesterdays happenings was interrupted by Minhyun.

"So you are Ren, the one who found me at the hospital?" He asked, resting his chin on his hand. We had met up about ten minutes

ago, and since then, I have been busy explaining what happened to me. To us. And now, Minhyun's attention was fully directed to Ren,

making me feel uncomfortable.

 

"Yes, you could say that." I say instead of Ren, who just opened his mouth to answer.

 

"Hyung, I really thought you got yourself a girl when I saw him. I bet there'd be a lot of guys falling for him despite his gender. He's

really pretty."  I nod in agreement, but feel kinda offended. He's my Ren and mine only, so what's that 'he could even make men fall for

him' thing about?

 

"So Baekho, there's something I just don't get." I start the topic I burn to talk about "If you are part   of such a successful family, why did

you even start hanging out with the likes of us?" This question just needs to be asked, I don't get it at all. He has a family, a rich one at

that, why not living with them?

 

"I ran away from home a year ago. I don't want to have anything to do with my obsessive father and mother.  It felt like being... caged

away.  There was no freedom. I was followed by bodyguards day by day, couldn't even attend a normal school. Hell, I hated it so much.

" He paused. "So I got myself a haircut and bam- here I am." I admire his courage. Somehow it's the same with Minhyun, isn't it? even

though they both have families, they don't want to have much contact to them. Makes me question myself if not having a family at all is

maybe not so bad? I immediately throw that thought away. No, the pain of losing them is way greater than just leaving and knowing

they are alright.

 

"Aish, but I never knew I'd get into so much trouble because of that." Baekho says, ruffling his short hair. "That was one hell of an

adventure. Too much for my taste."

 

"I agree." Under the table, Ren grabs my hand as if to console me.

 

"But you talked to your parents after that, didn't you?" Aron asks as I was about to pose the same question.

 

"Of course. They freaked out." Baekho laughs his bright laughter. He really got over it fast. Or maybe he tries to hide his real thoughts.

Ah, can't blame him, I feel the same way. All of us just want everything to go back to normal.

 

"So will you move in with them again?" Minhyun wonders, but Baekho quickly shakes his head.

 

"Never!"

 

"Enough of Baekho already." I chuckle. "What about you Minhyun?" He rolls his eyes and sighs, with a smile on his lips.

 

"Ah, what should I say? The things that happened in my life are so ordinary compared to yours." He snickers. "As you can see, my eye

is completely fine now." He points it out and adds: "I have to wear contacts though. But that's alright." Hearing that they are all fine

relieves me.  I glance at Ren, who sits beside me, still holding my hand. He responds to my gaze with a small smile, one of those only

dedicated to me. My heart starts to beat faster instantly. But I remember the presence of my friends, so I swiftly look away. Don't want

them to get the wrong idea... I fear their reaction once they know that I, well, like a guy. Minhyun, however, is sharp as ever.

 

"So what's your relationship, hyung?" He asks innocently, glancing at the two of us. My brain works at full speed, is it the right point of

time to tell the truth now? I may seem cowardly, but this isn't easy for me. I mean, about a week ago I still believed I was straight! What

to do?

 

"We're just frien-" I start my obvious lie when Ren interrupts me. Without even looking at me, staring straight at the three guys sitting in

front of us, and without any sign of shame on his face, he declares:

 

"I like JR."  I feel the blood rushing to my face as I blush hardly. I hope it isn't visible due to my slightly darker skin tone.

 

Ren-ah, it's good to be honest, but why now? I'm not prepared!

 

 

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Hah took me so long to write this chapter, and it's accordingly bad.

Please deal with it~ ♥