The Ambiguity Of Selfishness

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Kim Minseok is okay with being a useful cog in society as he waits to die and be done with his guilt, namely by working at an alternative waste company. But when powerful aura strikes him in the back, and the injured kitty he takes home ends up being a prideful and cantankerous demon, he realizes that angels, demons, and the souls of his dead family aren't going to let him die so easily.

 

Now he has to deal with Chen, his surly demon guard, and between being a target to a wanted criminal and learning how to deal with the changes that come with changing his whole damn species, Minseok shouldn't have the mental capacity to question his confusion between growing guilt and budding companionship.

 

But he does, much to his distress.

 

Foreword

Any warnings in the chapter will be mentioned at the top and marked, but I can already tell you that there's blood and violence, incitements of death/killing, and strong language.

 

A small sneakpeak:

“Like what you see?”

Minseok made the mistake of looking up at the person’s face, at the end of that mouth curling like a certain… Oh .

“Yixing.”

“Yes?”

“He’s my cat, isn’t he?”

His friend gave him a sympathetic smile, and Minseok covered his face and cursed.

 

 

 

 

Hello people!
 
As usual, I wanted the story to be short—just an episodic comedy of a recycling guy's house becoming a supernatural meeting place, but then I started writing ψ(._. )>
 
So here's a complete and complex plot filled with questioning the boundaries of selfishness, breaking down the givens of emotions and relationships, and the supernatural world of angels and demons tearing itself apart!
 
This one's more mystery, deduction, fluff, and angst, but there is action in there, especially towards the mid to end. I hope you enjoy the story~
Plagarism is not a form of enjoying or getting something out of my story. Do not plagarize or reproduce elsewhere without my explicit permission. I currently do not accept translations.
 
Hit the upvote or subscribe button, or drop a comment! I enjoy the feedback and questions hehehe
 
 
Laugh, Cry, Laugh, my peops.
 
Kiwi-C
December 25, 2021
 
 
 
Disclaimer: The names, events, and places in this story are used fictiously or made up by me. I do use several religious references that may allude to but not accurately represent the object/subject and its real life use, meaning, or context. I like to think that humans got more than a few things different while recording or interpreting these ideas of the supernatural, biblical, and religious. And, of course, I'd like to think that the world around us holds creatures invisible to our notice with their own ty society to deal with. If, however, this bothers you, then you are free to not read this or to put it away for later. Whatever helps your mental first <3
 
Also no, I don't actually believe that any of the people's images I've used here are accurate representations of the person in real life.
 
Note: So the main character works at an "alternative waste solutions" place. Most of the descriptions and layouts and functions are taken from my visits to a recycling plant, a wetland project (filters water naturally), and a plant that composts human poop. Add a really big helping of imagination and creativity, aight. So the mechanical and technical stuff might not be 100% accurate.
Same with the relationship counseling LOL
 

 

 

 

Questions I'll Preempt (QIP)

Q: How many chapters will this be?

A: 49

A2: I know.

A3: And then I'll put bonuses from time to time, the usual.

 

Q: What's the update schedule like?

A: Will try to be weekly once I start updating. I write all my chapters before releasing them and have to edit them again after the writing is done.

 

Q: Is this going to be complicated?

A: It's my story, so yes. But I might put a guide and update it as the chapters progress. Who knows? This is slowburn though, so savor it ╰( ̄w ̄o)

 

 

 

My other stories, and I don't know how to make fancy graphics so links it is:

Strategem (Complete) - A secret unit of the military must walk a labyrinth of the afterlife to redeem their souls, but only one of them can be redeemed. [EXO - Tao]

Converse (Complete) - Kyungsoo's a math tutor. There's always a solution, but what's the solution when the entire school scorns him and his new tutee is making it harder to keep that scorn a secret? [EXO - D.O x Kai]

The Ambiguity Of Selfishness (Complete) - Kim Minseok doesn't want to become a demon, especially if it comes with a spiteful demon guard and said demon guard forcing him to unpack all his guilt towards living and the dead. [EXO - Xiumin x Chen]

Selfishness Isn't As Ambiguous (Ongoing-Irregular) - Kim Minseok is now a ridiculously powerful demon. In little and big ways, his life changes, but with his slightly less cantankerous demon cat guard and love Chen, he believes he can make it. [EXO - Xiumin x Chen] [The Ambiguity Of Selfishness drabble sequel]

Messorem Corporum (Complete-M/TW) – Graduating and becoming a doctor consultant becomes a hell of a lot harder when Jongdae’s assigned caretaker is the center of all the town and school’s suddenly replaced body parts. [EXO/SM – Chen x Xiumin]

 
 
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Kiwi-C
The final endings for TAS' main story are up! Yes, plural! Two chapters of goodness!
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melodyoficeandfire
#1
Chapter 51: EEEEEEE I LOVE YOU THIS IS THR BEST THING I COULD EVER WANT AND MORE!!!!! (also you made me cry halfway but I forgive you so-)
Xiuchenniee
#2
Chapter 49: ANDDD im finally and sadly done. That was such a roller coaster! The way you described the characters in the beginning I was honestly so confused my little brain was trying so hard to comprehend what was going on, but as the story went on I caught on as well!

Let me start with yixing, considering what’s been happening and how much he was willing to save min and was confident about it (somehow.) the revelation in the end made sense, but the way it happened was brutal. Poor thing did nothing wrong leave baby alone. I loved his friendship and dedication, not to mention his relationship with suho. They were by far and in my opinion the most subtle but obvious couple in the story if that makes sense.

And our little innocent boy kai oh my his first appearance was epic!!! Minseok being so confused and freaking out while he was so so excited! Gosh he’s precious. Not to mention how Minseok accompanied him in babysteps from defining friendship to him to making him stand up for himself all the while being understanding. Minseok really taught everyone around him how to be a better person.

D.O, at first I literally thought he might have a crush on Minseok because of the way he opened up and had a conversation with him so fast despite it being very preposterous for his persona. And to be honest I was so mad at him for hurting Kai, physically and emotionally, but knowing his story! I totally understand his actions. Im glad he learned how to trust again.

Luhan! Poor dude just wanted a friend and got so much trouble along with it. But the way he handled it was so good! I honestly doubt i’d be as calm and understanding as he was for a human. He was adorable I appreciated his kindness towards Minseok. Minseok needed that kind of support. Also glad he found Sehun and took an interest upon him. Being depressed, a loner and suicidal must’ve been so sad! I love how you included so many mental disorders and addressed these problems. Im so thankful for that. The family issues, in different senses, friendship, lies, betrayal, taking advantage and remorse. You’ve done it so well!

Our chen chen! Not gonna lie i loved how cocky he is especially in the beginning though i wished minseok would reply to him most of the time for the insults chen kept giving him. I wonder why chen was so mean to min in the beginning? But I love how the clumsy too sweet for this world Minseok made him utterly confused he started questioning everything around him. He even sought relationship consultation! Which im so so so thankful for, Baekhyun was back in Minseok’s life again and that helped stop beating himself for the past.

The way Minseok’s past was effectively destroying his self esteem is devastating! He had to go through a lot and frankly i don’t forgive either his parents or his self centered brother. I love the way Xiuchen’s relationship progressed! The confusion, the need to know each other and get closer , the cuddles even before being partners oh my! And the way they got so close i loved everything about thier relationship? I also love how you portrayed the fear in chen. It was heartbreaking but very understandable. Poor thing.

Anyway, I would say a lot about the plot but I think it speaks for itself, don’t you agree? The description, the dialogue, the plot twistsx, the revelation, the build up, the fights. You showcased all that so well. You’re very talented. Thank you so much for this I really wish you don’t stop here these characters are so precious and I support any thing youll add. Don’t let these thoughts in, take them out and show us I too believe a lot of interesting things can happen now between them now that min is a demon.

Thank you again, I cannot thank you enough. I look forward to seeing more work of yours. Always!
Xiuchenniee
#3
Chapter 34: It’s currently 5 am and I’m binge reading this story I seriously cannot let go even though my eyes are begging me to sleep. Not to mention how my fingers are aching for me to say something, I’m holding back my thoughts until the last chapter because i have a lot to say and I want it to be collectively! BUT ! I have to tell you that after reading this chapter im sickeningly happy!! The way im moving around my bed excitedly is so embarrassing hahaha! Oh my this chapter cured my depression
melodyoficeandfire
#4
Chapter 49: It's finally done, omygoodness. I feel all sorts of feelings 🥺🥺🥺 What an incredible journey to experience this story with you~ I definitely enjoyed, and now I will empty that the chapters I look forward to every week will soon come to an end.

Thank you so much for this amazing story ❤️
melodyoficeandfire
#5
Chapter 47: What an emotionally charged update. Each character, whether they be in 'heroes' or 'villains' side are all masterfully layered that you couldn't just pick a side without having to reflect their thoughts, actions, aspirations, grief, dreams, and hopes. It's one of my favourite things about this story (even if I forget some details along the way 😅)

Ah, how bittersweet to feel we're near the ending! I've been following this story for so long, it would feel likd missing an old friend once it's done. What an incredible journey! Be proud of yourself for accomplishing such a feat in between everything in your life! Well done!

In terms of a particular scene...if it's not too much to ask, I just want some additional scenes from mh xiuchen boys getting to know each other and sharing little bits of themselves (please I miss them so much I'm withering ;-;

Happy New Year, kiwi! May 2023 be kinder to you ❤️
Sharo001
712 streak #6
Chapter 46: “Try to survive my wrath.” I am so weak in the knees after reading those words, I can just imagine Suho’s deadly expression. Tongza is going to suffer now, and it is about time he is brought to justice for his evil doings. Also, it is very fitting that Suho will be the one to finally take that bastard down.

I was so proud of Sehun for going back to help Minseok. Hopefully, between the two of them, they can figure out how the container works. I just hope Hayong can’t cause any more trouble. This was such a good chapter.
melodyoficeandfire
#7
Chapter 45: I missed you dear author!! I hope you're also taking breaks in between all the school work + fic writing!

It feels bittersweet to see this fic reach its ending soon aftet reading it every week. What an absolute adventure! I'm so happy to see progress between lu + sehun together with Lay and Commander Suho! I miss my boys :( I hope they get to reunite soon too!

Thanks again for another lovely chapter!
Sharo001
712 streak #8
Chapter 44: Hayong and Tongza’s thinking is completely skewed, there is actually no justification for what they are doing. They are just narcissistic and self-serving. Minseok called it exactly right and apparently, they could not accept a few home truths about themselves. Also, to get off point a bit, it was disgusting how they were talking about controlling another first angel. They have no regard for any sort of life or existence.

I loved the quality time between Baekhyun and Chanyeol, even if it was tinged with sadness and longing. I am also glad that some hope was given to the forlorn Chen. Looking forward to seeing what happens next, thank you for the update.
melodyoficeandfire
#9
Chapter 44: NOOOOO ANOTHER CLIFFHANGER

MY MINSEOK IM GOING TO SCREAM
melodyoficeandfire
#10
Chapter 43: I'm glad Tao wasn't really taken by another set of baddies, how could my frail heart cope if that happened too?! 😭

Interested to see what happens next! My poor Minnie where is he taken??!

Take care as always, thank you for working hard!