Chapter 11

The Ambiguity Of Selfishness
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Minseok woke up practically bouncing out of his daybed. An early riser from habit with his job, he was watching the bright blossoms of his trumpet creeper vine bob under the dappled sunlight when his phone buzzed with a text. Luhan had texted him about his morning woes of paperwork and grading and classes before ultimately deciding that texting took too much effort and that driving to pick up Minseok and then driving them to a mall to hang out was a much better option.

Texting back a cheerful yes, Minseok agreed to an afternoonish time after Luhan’s meeting and went to start his day. He had brushed his teeth and started making breakfast when a presence zipped behind him. He turned around, and a flicker of surprise held Chen’s expression for a second, then he smiled, almost sweetly, mostly sneakily, and slunk to hover at Minseok’s shoulder.

Neither said anything, but Minseok’s hold on his spatula twisted more clumsily as he stirred his fried rice. He felt the demon’s gaze burning into the food to the point that maybe he could just turn off the stove and let demon-stare power the fire for him.

With more rice grains than usual scattered around his stove, Minseok managed to transfer the fried rice to a container, setting a portion aside for himself, before having to face the inevitable question/demon. Lingering at the utensil drawer, he took his time in not-looking at the various spoons, forks, and chopsticks as he built the courage in his chest and his mouth.

“Do you want a bowl?”

He picked out a spoon because the time already dragged past the normal amount of time to pick a utensil and glanced back behind him. Chen’s face was blank though.

“A bowl? You want me to eat with you?”

“I was just offering since you were so intently trying to the fried rice into your eyeballs, so maybe you’d like to some into your stomach instead.”

Then he snorted, and Minseok felt the tension that he hadn’t known was building in his shoulders unravel.

“Just because I ate with you once doesn’t mean that I’m going to eat every little thing that you throw over a fire.”

“This would be the first thing you’d taste from both my cooking and from over a fire. A sushi roll as a whole isn’t cooked over anything. Plus, I didn’t make the sushi. Cooked things and mostly raw taste completely different. And my cooking isn’t that bad.”

Chen’s blankness slitted into narrowed eyes.

“Of course, you’d say that your own cooking is good. You’re biased because of the effort you put into it.”

“Well, true—that’s effort justification bias—but I didn’t say that it was good. I said that it wasn’t bad.”

“What’s the difference?”

“One has confidence in its tastiness, and the other is to make the cook feel better.”

“All the more reason to not try it.”

Minseok jut out his lower lip in a pout before he realized what he was doing. When he did realize what childish reaction he just gave to a demon, he flipped back around, rubbing his neck, and shut the utensil drawer. No better way to hide his embarrassment than to eat. He trudged to the table, munching on his fried rice and pulling out his phone to scroll through whatever biased newsfeed the default search engine was paid to show people.

Half-way through an article about some freak electrical outage in some small town, he lifted the spoon for another mindless shoveling of his mouth, but his hand felt too light and his fingers twitched around nothing. He looked over at the table and had to follow the trail of scattered peas and rice grains to find his bowl. And his spoon.

Chen’s eyes rounded out as he scooped up the last piece of meat from the bowl and snatched it into his teeth. Whether he brought the spoon to his mouth, flung the morsel with accuracy, or pounced on it, Minseok couldn’t tell. As the demon chewed, his smile grew wider and curlier, making his cheekbones well together in delight and his eyes close in contentment. Minseok couldn’t help the small chuckle that escaped him, and he whipped his head away at the same time Chen looked up, once again not-looking at his phone.

He flicked through the last of the article and put his phone away, taking the empty bowl and spoon from the table and starting the wash process. He heard the quiet scraping of a chair, but the ever-silent demon made no other noise for Minseok to guess his whereabouts. After setting the dishes to dry, he turned around and found the kitchen empty of demon and his phone. He had left it on the table. Sighing at the only possibility (unless there were also supernaturals who possessed phones and made them wander off on their own), Minseok moved out of the kitchen and through the halls of his house.

He searched every room and closet but found no demon or demon-cat and figured that the only place Chen could be while still fulfilling his guard duty was in his garden space.

Minseok mentally patted himself on the back and sighed as he spotted Chen spinning the device in his hand. The demon didn’t even turn around to acknowledge his presence until after he had flung the precious device into a knot of branches of his wisteria tree. When Chen did turn around, he had the gall to slip the end of his mouth up in a smirk.

“Going out to play? And without telling your very important guard with an impeccable record but assigned to keep your frail and danger-magnet human from becoming food? Little naïve human.”

“I was going to tell you, but you stole my phone and scampered off before I could. And didn’t they teach you that stealing phones and tossing them into a tree was rude at demon military school?”

“Do you think it’s practical for manners to be taught to demons when their survival and job depends on hunting down supernatural threats?”

“You never know. There could be a supernatural danger sitting in a corporate chair who can only be brought down from the inside.”

“Then an assassin like Kai would be sent on that mission.”

“So even the Liquid Lightning has to sit back sometimes?”

Chen’s eyes barely had any white in them as he squinted a glare at him, and Minseok snickered at the apparently potent jab to the demon’s ego.

“Just because assassination isn’t my specialty doesn’t mean that I can’t kill without a sound or leaving evidence.”

Minseok's brain chose that moment to remember that they were alone in his balcony garden where no one would hear him for half a kilometer and probably even further because of the secluded section of his garden and the sound absorption of all the plants. He cleared his throat and moved to sit on his daybed.

“Okay, so? What do you want?”

The smirk returned, and Minseok considered punting a foot up to knock Chen’s chin straight into it.

“I don’t want nor expect anything from you, but Yixing wants me to teach you how to use your accidentally acquired demonic power so that you can at least pretend to be able to defend yourself from anyone or thing that might want to kill you.”

“Okay, so you kidnapped my poor phone as your hostage why?

“It’s in a tree that’s easily climbable,” Chen said, all manner of condescension undisguised in his voice. Minseok glanced up at his fifteen-meter tree bustling in violet-blue blooms and sighed.

“And because it’ll be a distractor for when I, unfortunately, teach you today.”

“Today? But I have a hangout with Luhan later in the afternoon.”

“Then hurry and learn something so you can go out.”

Holding in a groan because he knew that that would only make the demon smirk even more, Minseok gestured for him to go on.

“Every time you used aura, it’s been unconsciously or by accident. Yixing said that it responds to your will, which means that your body should be adjusted enough to start feeling and manipulating it with your conscious control. Auras are unique to that specific demon or angel because they are the manifestation of one’s soul, which is indicative of their connection to their respective sphere. The stronger that connection, the stronger the initial aura and your potential. But anyways, in theory, even power obtained through the proxy process will change and adapt to that specific person.”

“Are proxies common?”

Chen glared at him, and Minseok leaned back and waved for him to go on. Apparently, Chen was a lecture-first kind of magic teacher.

“They’re not. You said that you felt a buzz as my presence. Did you ever feel anything else from a different demon or angel?”

“Once? When D.O told me to find the imp, I felt his power first. His aura felt… quiet? A little rumbly. But I could tell that it was strong. It felt like it was just sleeping.”

“D.O chooses to control his aura at all times. Most earth element angelics don’t have the restraint that he does. Usually, they’re all quaking all the time. They’re the counterparts to lightning element angelics, like yours truly. A buzz is the bare minimum of my and other lightning element auras. Water and fire are the counters of each other. Water more flows, while fire rises. Unique auras have their own kind of nature.”

“What does Kai’s aura feel like as a spatial person?”

Chen rolled his eyes.

“If you learn how to feel auras, you can feel for yourself when you see him again.”

“Okay, so how do I do that?”

“Concentrate on the energy in your surroundings. Feel it. Don’t use your eyes. Very few angelics can see raw aura or that connection to a sphere. Right now, you still have to focus all your tiny mind into your awareness to even sense something, but you should be able to feel everything without even having to think about it in time.” His lip peeled back in a sneer. “If you get the time.”

“Because I’ll be dead?”

The sneer transferred up to his cheekbones in disgust.

“No, because I’ll have caught Hayong. Don’t you dare look down on my skill, human.”

“You should add Yixing and the rest of your team to your skill too, Liquid Lightning.”

Minseok snickered at the way Chen looked like he so wanted to choke him. In addition to his usual glare, his lips hiked up in defiance or annoyance. Probably both.

“Shut your eyes and feel your stupid aura.”

Turning his head up at his aura being called stupid, he closed his eyes and tried to feel for the abstract sensation of energy like when he had found the imp. First, he felt the heat of the air, warmed from the waves of the late summer sun, then the plushness of his daybed against his back and bottom and all the small patterings within his body. In that space of calm, the curtain started falling over his shoulders, images flashing on the cloth. Minseok bolted up and shook his head.

Sitting in his garden space like this made him automatically slip inward, and he guessed that last night’s sushi interrogation had dredged up some of his buried memories. Now wasn’t the time to try feeling and processing his emotions though.

He took in another breath and focused on the outside. There was the heat again, then the soft breeze along his skin, and before him the presence of the lightning demon buzzed. A zip within the buzz caught his attention, and Minseok zeroed in on the new discovery.

Chen's aura zipped and zapped in erratic patterns within itself, but between each spark, electricity flexed and flowed, playfully teasing. Misneok wondered if this softnes represented the same gentility as when Chen brushed his hand down the lapel of the blazer. It... seemed nice.

After feeling the demon’s aura, he remembered that he should probably be feeling his own aura, so he turned inward—but not too inward—and found a core pulsing in weak waves. The core felt like a block of ice, sturdy and uncompromising, and wreathes of cold floated down as if the power actually condensed the air around it. Minseok frowned a bit. He didn’t know what to expect, but he must have been expecting something else because disappointment floated down his stomach. Chen and D.O’s auras had felt so alive and moving and reactive. And Minseok’s power was a literal brick of frozen water.

Sighing a little, he opened his eyes to see Chen watching him, arms crossed, eyes narrowed. Standard Chen expressions, except that he also had a raised eyebrow.

“Took you a while.”

“I, uh, got distracted.”

The demon rolled his eyes, but Minseok would take the cattitude over being taunted about how he was checking out Chen’s aura. He didn’t know if supernatural auras had any social(?) connotations like sleeping did, so he would play it safe.

“You won’t have the luxury of being distracted while in a battle. What’d you feel?”

“A block of ice.”

His eyebrow raised back up again.

“Is that it?”

“There were clouds of cold around it too, like when you look sideways at the freezers at the supermarket and the cold air billows over the top.”

Curiosity passed through Chen’s face before he sighed and leaned back against the wisteria tree.

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melodyoficeandfire
#1
Chapter 51: EEEEEEE I LOVE YOU THIS IS THR BEST THING I COULD EVER WANT AND MORE!!!!! (also you made me cry halfway but I forgive you so-)
Xiuchenniee
#2
Chapter 49: ANDDD im finally and sadly done. That was such a roller coaster! The way you described the characters in the beginning I was honestly so confused my little brain was trying so hard to comprehend what was going on, but as the story went on I caught on as well!

Let me start with yixing, considering what’s been happening and how much he was willing to save min and was confident about it (somehow.) the revelation in the end made sense, but the way it happened was brutal. Poor thing did nothing wrong leave baby alone. I loved his friendship and dedication, not to mention his relationship with suho. They were by far and in my opinion the most subtle but obvious couple in the story if that makes sense.

And our little innocent boy kai oh my his first appearance was epic!!! Minseok being so confused and freaking out while he was so so excited! Gosh he’s precious. Not to mention how Minseok accompanied him in babysteps from defining friendship to him to making him stand up for himself all the while being understanding. Minseok really taught everyone around him how to be a better person.

D.O, at first I literally thought he might have a crush on Minseok because of the way he opened up and had a conversation with him so fast despite it being very preposterous for his persona. And to be honest I was so mad at him for hurting Kai, physically and emotionally, but knowing his story! I totally understand his actions. Im glad he learned how to trust again.

Luhan! Poor dude just wanted a friend and got so much trouble along with it. But the way he handled it was so good! I honestly doubt i’d be as calm and understanding as he was for a human. He was adorable I appreciated his kindness towards Minseok. Minseok needed that kind of support. Also glad he found Sehun and took an interest upon him. Being depressed, a loner and suicidal must’ve been so sad! I love how you included so many mental disorders and addressed these problems. Im so thankful for that. The family issues, in different senses, friendship, lies, betrayal, taking advantage and remorse. You’ve done it so well!

Our chen chen! Not gonna lie i loved how cocky he is especially in the beginning though i wished minseok would reply to him most of the time for the insults chen kept giving him. I wonder why chen was so mean to min in the beginning? But I love how the clumsy too sweet for this world Minseok made him utterly confused he started questioning everything around him. He even sought relationship consultation! Which im so so so thankful for, Baekhyun was back in Minseok’s life again and that helped stop beating himself for the past.

The way Minseok’s past was effectively destroying his self esteem is devastating! He had to go through a lot and frankly i don’t forgive either his parents or his self centered brother. I love the way Xiuchen’s relationship progressed! The confusion, the need to know each other and get closer , the cuddles even before being partners oh my! And the way they got so close i loved everything about thier relationship? I also love how you portrayed the fear in chen. It was heartbreaking but very understandable. Poor thing.

Anyway, I would say a lot about the plot but I think it speaks for itself, don’t you agree? The description, the dialogue, the plot twistsx, the revelation, the build up, the fights. You showcased all that so well. You’re very talented. Thank you so much for this I really wish you don’t stop here these characters are so precious and I support any thing youll add. Don’t let these thoughts in, take them out and show us I too believe a lot of interesting things can happen now between them now that min is a demon.

Thank you again, I cannot thank you enough. I look forward to seeing more work of yours. Always!
Xiuchenniee
#3
Chapter 34: It’s currently 5 am and I’m binge reading this story I seriously cannot let go even though my eyes are begging me to sleep. Not to mention how my fingers are aching for me to say something, I’m holding back my thoughts until the last chapter because i have a lot to say and I want it to be collectively! BUT ! I have to tell you that after reading this chapter im sickeningly happy!! The way im moving around my bed excitedly is so embarrassing hahaha! Oh my this chapter cured my depression
melodyoficeandfire
#4
Chapter 49: It's finally done, omygoodness. I feel all sorts of feelings 🥺🥺🥺 What an incredible journey to experience this story with you~ I definitely enjoyed, and now I will empty that the chapters I look forward to every week will soon come to an end.

Thank you so much for this amazing story ❤️
melodyoficeandfire
#5
Chapter 47: What an emotionally charged update. Each character, whether they be in 'heroes' or 'villains' side are all masterfully layered that you couldn't just pick a side without having to reflect their thoughts, actions, aspirations, grief, dreams, and hopes. It's one of my favourite things about this story (even if I forget some details along the way 😅)

Ah, how bittersweet to feel we're near the ending! I've been following this story for so long, it would feel likd missing an old friend once it's done. What an incredible journey! Be proud of yourself for accomplishing such a feat in between everything in your life! Well done!

In terms of a particular scene...if it's not too much to ask, I just want some additional scenes from mh xiuchen boys getting to know each other and sharing little bits of themselves (please I miss them so much I'm withering ;-;

Happy New Year, kiwi! May 2023 be kinder to you ❤️
Sharo001
725 streak #6
Chapter 46: “Try to survive my wrath.” I am so weak in the knees after reading those words, I can just imagine Suho’s deadly expression. Tongza is going to suffer now, and it is about time he is brought to justice for his evil doings. Also, it is very fitting that Suho will be the one to finally take that bastard down.

I was so proud of Sehun for going back to help Minseok. Hopefully, between the two of them, they can figure out how the container works. I just hope Hayong can’t cause any more trouble. This was such a good chapter.
melodyoficeandfire
#7
Chapter 45: I missed you dear author!! I hope you're also taking breaks in between all the school work + fic writing!

It feels bittersweet to see this fic reach its ending soon aftet reading it every week. What an absolute adventure! I'm so happy to see progress between lu + sehun together with Lay and Commander Suho! I miss my boys :( I hope they get to reunite soon too!

Thanks again for another lovely chapter!
Sharo001
725 streak #8
Chapter 44: Hayong and Tongza’s thinking is completely skewed, there is actually no justification for what they are doing. They are just narcissistic and self-serving. Minseok called it exactly right and apparently, they could not accept a few home truths about themselves. Also, to get off point a bit, it was disgusting how they were talking about controlling another first angel. They have no regard for any sort of life or existence.

I loved the quality time between Baekhyun and Chanyeol, even if it was tinged with sadness and longing. I am also glad that some hope was given to the forlorn Chen. Looking forward to seeing what happens next, thank you for the update.
melodyoficeandfire
#9
Chapter 44: NOOOOO ANOTHER CLIFFHANGER

MY MINSEOK IM GOING TO SCREAM
melodyoficeandfire
#10
Chapter 43: I'm glad Tao wasn't really taken by another set of baddies, how could my frail heart cope if that happened too?! 😭

Interested to see what happens next! My poor Minnie where is he taken??!

Take care as always, thank you for working hard!