Chapter 34

The Ambiguity Of Selfishness
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Chen slung every curse word he knew around in his mind. The suspicion he had had about his human mind decipherer proved true—Minseok and Baekhyun knew each other.

Well, used to. They lost contact, but from what he heard from them both, they wanted to see each other again, probably to resolve their regrets to the other. Should he tell Minseok at all since he had just finished an ordeal with his family? But Chen already vowed to not be the cause of his guardee’s anger again, and if he found out that he had kept this secret from him too…

Chen shuddered.

So he thought again. Hypothetically speaking, Chen could take Minseok to Baekhyun or vice-versa, and whatever riffs they wanted to mend could be mended. He would probably have to explain how he had found Baekhyun and subsequently figured out that this was the right Byun Baekhyun of Minseok’s school days. He could already hear Minseok asking him why he would seek a relationship counselor and the conflicting enjoyment from both his guardee and his human mind decipherer’s teasing. They both felt relatively the same way about how their relationship cut off though, so Minseok would probably be happy seeing Baekhyun again. Chen could endure the conflicting enjoyment if that was the case.

And Chen didn’t have to mention any of the supernatural world. The doctor, for some reason or another, thought of him as a human government agent who had been experimented on, according to the peek at Baekhyun’s notepad Chen stole. Under that guise, Chen could just say that he did some digging to help his regret in payment for their contract—not completely untrue and satisfying his end of the contract too. He could just remind Minseok to not mention anything about his condition and angelics.

Ah, should he tell Chanyeol? Baekhyun was his favored… crush person, so he might have wanted to know. Chen couldn’t think of a reason why Chanyeol wouldn’t want to help his crush with his regret, but if he said no and Minseok wanted to see Baekhyun, but Chen wouldn’t keep anything from Minseok…

He let out a growl of frustration, then jumped a bit when there was a touch to his shoulder. He turned and smelled worry coming off his guardee.

“Chen, are you okay?”

The weird-but-pleasantness rippled through him again—though he didn’t get why it would if Minseok was worried—and he pressed his cheek to his. Screw it—he would just tell Chanyeol later. It wasn’t as if Chanyeol had been involved in Minseok and Baekhyun’s university life. This was just between the two humans.

“Would you see him again if you could?”

“Baekhyun? Well, yeah.” He looked up in thought. “I don’t know if he’d want to see me, but if he does, the least I should do is apologize. But Chen, I don’t know if he does or even where he is.”

“I do.”

Minseok’s eyes blew open from their already wide appearance, and Chen wondered if he was wrong about Minseok being able to turn into a snow leopard and his animal form was actually an owl instead.

“You do? You know where he is? How? Why?”

Chen made the tiniest flinch at his hardening tone. He gripped Minseok’s hand closer.

“I found him by chance. I was looking for someone to help me figure you out, and I ended up finding a relationship counselor. He recently told me about a university friend, and everything he said matched your situation.”

Minseok squeezed his hand back, and panic flashed up Chen’s senses. But the squeeze was gentle and even tugged him forward.

“Hey, Chen, I won’t get mad like a couple hours ago. You’re a demon who has been around more places for your missions, and you did tell me before that you thought that I was confusing. The coincidence is just… unreal. Was that where you were always disappearing to?”

He nodded, not meeting his eyes until the lightest of touches tipped his chin up. Minseok still smelled a little worried, but he had a small smile on his face too.

“Don’t be afraid to be you. You have your own experiences, and you’re entitled to calling me out or being angry or just reacting how you usually would.”

Despite the innocuous way he said those words, fear struck Chen as realization did. He didn’t know what conditions would cause Minseok to… some word that lurked in the peripherals of his mind. He couldn’t verbalize it through the frenzy from that realization. He just didn’t want it to happen. Shuffling closer, Chen chased the feeling away with the solid presence of Minseok, holding him tight, breathing in his scent. His guardee heated at his hug but wrapped his arms around him, and the warmth was enough for some of those words to surface out from the fear.

“What happens if I’m me, and you don’t like it?”

“Hm, I might get upset at something that you do, but we’ll talk it out, like how we did with the repeal. Same if I do something you don’t like.”

“We’ll just talk? You won’t…”

“We’ll talk. I promise. I’m not pushing away another person I care about.”

He squished him, and Chen squished him back, smiling when Minseok made a small squeak. The frenzy settled down, and the weird pleasantness filled its place, making him feel fuzzy on the inside, the good fuzzy. Eventually, his guardee shifted so he let go enough to look at his face.

“Uhm, so would you take me to him one day? It might be weird to just drop in on him at… five in the morning, but someday?”

Chen nodded, and Minseok let out a sigh of relief, tugging them out of the kitchen and back to the living room. He thought that his guardee would go back to painting, but after setting the water cup down, he scooted closer to Chen than the table. Pulling him by the waist, Minseok tucked Chen’s head across his shoulder, right where he could breathe in his mountainy scent.

“I hope this is okay?”

Chen let out the longest purr of his life.

 

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Yixing let out a squeal as soon as he read from whom the envelope landing on his desk was addressed, and he snatched up the paper so fast that the portal wasn’t even done closing yet before breaking the seal.

“Excited for a letter? Is it from Commander Suho?”

Yixing almost jumped, froze, and cleared his throat. He had forgotten that Luna was reporting to him.

“It is. He sends information that might be useful to missions of his demons. Continue with your report though.”

“It’s okay. I can wait because I see that you clearly don’t want to.”

She grinned, and Yixing scratched the dimple in his cheek. Thumbing the letter open, he felt the smile grow wider on his face to feel two pages.

      To Yixing,   My apologies for not writing back to you sooner. I wasn’t expecting a letter of thanks, honestly, as I sent that information willingly for the sake of helping you with the mission. Therefore, you do not need to thank me. The mission is of top priority, so there is no need to apologize for the state of your room. You must be busy dealing with uncovering Hayong’s plot; room organization can wait.   Kai reported to me that your investigation is relatively progressing with the aura magnetism potion and Minerva’s feather being found on a true neutral human. Helping Minseok adjust to his demonic aura likely keeps your team busy as well. I’m glad that the potion and modifications were of use to you. If I find anything else related to the mission, I will inform you.   -Suho      

He was only vaguely aware of Luna peeking over his shoulder as he opened the second page.

      Dear Yixing,   I realize that I already wrote a letter of my gratitude, but I came across new information regarding the proxy process and had to notify you immediately.   If you remember from my first letter, Mi has commissioned Commander Unmaik to send me books, however the latest book was in the Havadia Library of heaven. The Encyclopedia of Ariba, a peculiar book that only reveals its knowledge to those desperate and seeking an answer. The pages remained blank as I was not seeking anything in particular, but Mi apparently was. They left a note on the inside cover. For security reasons, I’ve kept it and won’t send it to you. However, by its various synonyms of erasure and its drawing, I have concluded that it refers to a part of the proxy process unbeknownst to any.   If a proxy must slowly garner the power of an angelic aura and adjust their body accordingly, then it is possible that said proxy must ‘dilute’ some of their innate power in order to make room for the angelic aura. The faerie proxy of several centuries ago—they had already generated some angelic aura when they were assassinated. And, I’m sure you know, faeries are of neutral bias with some power but not as much as a high-class angelic. To accommodate for the growing angelic aura, what if the faerie had to deplete their own power? Minseok was human first, and so his body would be both neutral, weaker, and adaptable; there would be no need for him to deplete aura, and his body would adjust on its own even if inefficiently.   Kai reported to me that Hayong felt… like him. You know of Kai’s aura. If Hayong feels similarly, then she could very well be removing her demonic aura to become human. The most recent report of her aura as well as turning Minseok into a proxy would be explained. This theory has many gaps, I know—it would not explain the feather found on that true neutral human nor the role of the traitor and the first angel attack. But this is what I could come up with given the limited information available about proxies.   Let me know of your thoughts and how reasonable this speculation may be. Together, we might be able to uncover Mi and their mystery.   -Sincerely, Suho      

Luna gasped. Yixing pressed his lips together before letting them go in a sigh. Part of him swooned at the intelligence of the demon commander. His theory was logical with the information he had and honestly quite impressive for its near-accurate conclusions, and they were enough for Yixing to implement the change of strategy without arousing suspicion. The other part of him looked ahead though, and he feared that maybe the parts that were wrong could return with an ugly twist of mistruths.

“This is huge, Yixing! If that’s true, then we know what Hayong wants!”

Yixing nodded, tucking the two notes back into the envelope, buying time to phrase his words.

“It’s odd for any angelic to want to become human, let alone commit to some unknown process to achieve that goal—but Commander Suho’s theory fits well enough to not be mere speculation.”

“Okay, so she wants to be human? And ejecting her demonic aura onto Minseok… Wait, but wasn’t he chased by her in the beginning? Kai said that he pulled him out of a supermarket because a dark cloud was chasing them and attacked them. She was screaming that she wanted something back.”

Yixing pressed his lips together again. He hated twisting his words to a good angelic like Luna.

“Commander Suho’s theory has its gaps, but just as he doesn’t know, perhaps neither does Hayong. Many of her moves are curiously unsteady.”

“Really? Like what?”

“The attacks at the supermarkets for one. Another is the timing of when she gave Minseok the aura in the first place. Chen was fighting her and had cornered her when Minseok accidentally got too close. From what Chen reported, they severely wounded each other before Hayong dissipated and Chen’s strength ran out. If Hayong was looking for someone to bear her aura, then she likely wouldn’t have done it during a fight and make herself even more vulnerable.”

“That’s true.” She sighed. “I’m happy that Minseok is adjusting well to becoming a demon, and I suppose that Chen is a part of that now. But how are we supposed to prosecute Hayong if she becomes human? We can’t subject her to the same punishments, but anything less seems like we acquit her. The kidnapped souls, initiating the proxy processes on an unwilling human, the first angel attack—she violated too many rules.”

Yixing nodded. Even he couldn’t predict the specifics of physical changes Hayong might go through. In terms of aura, humans were weaker, and she indeed casted off the bulk of her demonic aura when she initiated Minseok’s proxy process. Any of the punishments made for a human to withstand equated to a slap on the wrist for a demon. He shrugged.

“It’s not our job to determine how she’ll be punished. We just need to focus on protecting the humans and catching her, and Commander Suho’s theory at least lets us have an idea of Hayong’s state.”

Luna hummed and pattered over to the window, sighing at the crescent moon.

“So? How’re we changing our tactics?”

“Oh? You assume that we are?”

“I’ve worked with you a few years already, Yixing. You always change strategies with new information.”

“Observant of you. The unknowns affect the mission greatly, but safety is our prioritization. That true neutral whom Chen found the feather on needs to be safeguarded, so I’ll ask you and Chanyeol to mark him and any other true neutrals you two come across. Minseok’s situation remains the same. Hayong will likely need him for one thing or another if she had sent a first angel to attack him.”

Yixing started straightening his papers and reports, separating the letter, and started a reply to Suho. While referring back to it, he noticed that the commander changed the greeting and sign-off from the first to the second pages, and his body zipped up in glee.

He had been so absorbed in the change and writing the reply that it wasn’t until his instincts lit in suspicion of the environment that he remembered that he was speaking to Luna. Turning around, he paused when he saw the angel leaning against the window, watching him. The look in her eyes ran cold or perhaps calculating. She was observing him. Why?

“My bad—I forgot that you were still giving a report. I got excited by Commander Suho’s letter.”

“Are you withholding information from us?”

“Why would you think that?”

“You answering my question with another question just tells me that you are.”

Her blonde hair glowed under the light of the moon, even as its shape shone in a weak sliver. Her aura hummed like that light, growing in power, but Yixing didn’t feel malice or even anger. He turned in his chair to face her.

“You’re not threatening me despite your claim.”

“You’re right. I’m not because I’ve seen the way you defend Minseok. Your intentions never feel evil either, so what other reason is there to act like you have secrets pertinent to the mission?”

“You and D.O are both dreadfully sharp.” He sighed as she

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melodyoficeandfire
#1
Chapter 51: EEEEEEE I LOVE YOU THIS IS THR BEST THING I COULD EVER WANT AND MORE!!!!! (also you made me cry halfway but I forgive you so-)
Xiuchenniee
#2
Chapter 49: ANDDD im finally and sadly done. That was such a roller coaster! The way you described the characters in the beginning I was honestly so confused my little brain was trying so hard to comprehend what was going on, but as the story went on I caught on as well!

Let me start with yixing, considering what’s been happening and how much he was willing to save min and was confident about it (somehow.) the revelation in the end made sense, but the way it happened was brutal. Poor thing did nothing wrong leave baby alone. I loved his friendship and dedication, not to mention his relationship with suho. They were by far and in my opinion the most subtle but obvious couple in the story if that makes sense.

And our little innocent boy kai oh my his first appearance was epic!!! Minseok being so confused and freaking out while he was so so excited! Gosh he’s precious. Not to mention how Minseok accompanied him in babysteps from defining friendship to him to making him stand up for himself all the while being understanding. Minseok really taught everyone around him how to be a better person.

D.O, at first I literally thought he might have a crush on Minseok because of the way he opened up and had a conversation with him so fast despite it being very preposterous for his persona. And to be honest I was so mad at him for hurting Kai, physically and emotionally, but knowing his story! I totally understand his actions. Im glad he learned how to trust again.

Luhan! Poor dude just wanted a friend and got so much trouble along with it. But the way he handled it was so good! I honestly doubt i’d be as calm and understanding as he was for a human. He was adorable I appreciated his kindness towards Minseok. Minseok needed that kind of support. Also glad he found Sehun and took an interest upon him. Being depressed, a loner and suicidal must’ve been so sad! I love how you included so many mental disorders and addressed these problems. Im so thankful for that. The family issues, in different senses, friendship, lies, betrayal, taking advantage and remorse. You’ve done it so well!

Our chen chen! Not gonna lie i loved how cocky he is especially in the beginning though i wished minseok would reply to him most of the time for the insults chen kept giving him. I wonder why chen was so mean to min in the beginning? But I love how the clumsy too sweet for this world Minseok made him utterly confused he started questioning everything around him. He even sought relationship consultation! Which im so so so thankful for, Baekhyun was back in Minseok’s life again and that helped stop beating himself for the past.

The way Minseok’s past was effectively destroying his self esteem is devastating! He had to go through a lot and frankly i don’t forgive either his parents or his self centered brother. I love the way Xiuchen’s relationship progressed! The confusion, the need to know each other and get closer , the cuddles even before being partners oh my! And the way they got so close i loved everything about thier relationship? I also love how you portrayed the fear in chen. It was heartbreaking but very understandable. Poor thing.

Anyway, I would say a lot about the plot but I think it speaks for itself, don’t you agree? The description, the dialogue, the plot twistsx, the revelation, the build up, the fights. You showcased all that so well. You’re very talented. Thank you so much for this I really wish you don’t stop here these characters are so precious and I support any thing youll add. Don’t let these thoughts in, take them out and show us I too believe a lot of interesting things can happen now between them now that min is a demon.

Thank you again, I cannot thank you enough. I look forward to seeing more work of yours. Always!
Xiuchenniee
#3
Chapter 34: It’s currently 5 am and I’m binge reading this story I seriously cannot let go even though my eyes are begging me to sleep. Not to mention how my fingers are aching for me to say something, I’m holding back my thoughts until the last chapter because i have a lot to say and I want it to be collectively! BUT ! I have to tell you that after reading this chapter im sickeningly happy!! The way im moving around my bed excitedly is so embarrassing hahaha! Oh my this chapter cured my depression
melodyoficeandfire
#4
Chapter 49: It's finally done, omygoodness. I feel all sorts of feelings 🥺🥺🥺 What an incredible journey to experience this story with you~ I definitely enjoyed, and now I will empty that the chapters I look forward to every week will soon come to an end.

Thank you so much for this amazing story ❤️
melodyoficeandfire
#5
Chapter 47: What an emotionally charged update. Each character, whether they be in 'heroes' or 'villains' side are all masterfully layered that you couldn't just pick a side without having to reflect their thoughts, actions, aspirations, grief, dreams, and hopes. It's one of my favourite things about this story (even if I forget some details along the way 😅)

Ah, how bittersweet to feel we're near the ending! I've been following this story for so long, it would feel likd missing an old friend once it's done. What an incredible journey! Be proud of yourself for accomplishing such a feat in between everything in your life! Well done!

In terms of a particular scene...if it's not too much to ask, I just want some additional scenes from mh xiuchen boys getting to know each other and sharing little bits of themselves (please I miss them so much I'm withering ;-;

Happy New Year, kiwi! May 2023 be kinder to you ❤️
Sharo001
725 streak #6
Chapter 46: “Try to survive my wrath.” I am so weak in the knees after reading those words, I can just imagine Suho’s deadly expression. Tongza is going to suffer now, and it is about time he is brought to justice for his evil doings. Also, it is very fitting that Suho will be the one to finally take that bastard down.

I was so proud of Sehun for going back to help Minseok. Hopefully, between the two of them, they can figure out how the container works. I just hope Hayong can’t cause any more trouble. This was such a good chapter.
melodyoficeandfire
#7
Chapter 45: I missed you dear author!! I hope you're also taking breaks in between all the school work + fic writing!

It feels bittersweet to see this fic reach its ending soon aftet reading it every week. What an absolute adventure! I'm so happy to see progress between lu + sehun together with Lay and Commander Suho! I miss my boys :( I hope they get to reunite soon too!

Thanks again for another lovely chapter!
Sharo001
725 streak #8
Chapter 44: Hayong and Tongza’s thinking is completely skewed, there is actually no justification for what they are doing. They are just narcissistic and self-serving. Minseok called it exactly right and apparently, they could not accept a few home truths about themselves. Also, to get off point a bit, it was disgusting how they were talking about controlling another first angel. They have no regard for any sort of life or existence.

I loved the quality time between Baekhyun and Chanyeol, even if it was tinged with sadness and longing. I am also glad that some hope was given to the forlorn Chen. Looking forward to seeing what happens next, thank you for the update.
melodyoficeandfire
#9
Chapter 44: NOOOOO ANOTHER CLIFFHANGER

MY MINSEOK IM GOING TO SCREAM
melodyoficeandfire
#10
Chapter 43: I'm glad Tao wasn't really taken by another set of baddies, how could my frail heart cope if that happened too?! 😭

Interested to see what happens next! My poor Minnie where is he taken??!

Take care as always, thank you for working hard!