The thunder didn't scare me at all , its my heart which can't accept the fact that he will soon dissapear from my life . How could that be ? Rain is pouring heavily in Seoul here . My heart is break into million and million tiny pieces , I am sobbing and sitting on the black colour path without any shade . I can't care much about my image , what people think of me ... The water droplets are hitting on me , just let it be .... At that moment , I really once thought of suicide and negative thoughts just keep popping out . If I do that , will he comes back for me ? Energy in me had been used up , I can't even stand up and get out of this place now . Suddenly , darkness covers everything , I can't see anything and ....

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                                        -In the living hall-

???(1) : C'mon , hyung ! Let her stay with us , you can't dump this pity girl back on the road ... That idiot Chris had just dumped her and I am definitely not doing this . She is a human , not a junk that can be throw elsewhere .

???(2) : Yo ! Look who is talking ? Touch man ! Our well known EVIL CHO KYUHYUN ... Teukkie , just let her stay , remember ? We are the gentlemen ?

Leeteuk : Okay , okay , fine ! Let the majority vote .... Whoever agree with Chullie and Kyu , please do raise your beautiful hands .

.................................>Everyone raise their hands<.......................................

Leeteuk : *smile* The majority had voted for this girl and she is staying with us !

Eunhyuk : Oo , I can smell a girl ~*blur*

Kangin : This is going to be fun !! *creepy smile* A new arrival to bully ~

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                                           -back to her-

I am tearing and staring at the sapphire blue ceiling , thinking back what had Chris did to me , wait .... Its super junior ~ I thought of suju too ..... Okay , back to emo state ~

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                                            -flashback-

Chris : Kyu Li ~ Pack your things now . I mean everything ...

Me : *look at him with the innocent eyes* Huh ? Chris .... What had happened ? Why am I packing everything up ? *pulling his hand in aeygo way*

Chris : Oh .... *take my hand off* *clear his throat* We are going to see Omma and Appa .... *nervous* So , I had decided to stay there .... for .... ehh ~ *i still looking at him* One month ... Yup , one month !

Me : Whoa ~ One month .... *nod my head* Arraso !! *smile cheerfully* I will pack now ....*peck on his cheek*

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                                             -In his car-

Chris : Kyu Li , how long had we been together ??*driving*

Me : *playing my fingers* Erm ... *think back* Since 2009 , until now ....2010 ~ Its about one year .... Chris , are you okay today ? You sounded so .... *looking at him* weird since this morning ~

Suddenly , Chris stopped his car at the roadside ....

Chris : *breathe in and out for several times* Kyu Li , I have to be honest .... In 2009 , I was really happy to meet you . I really thanks you for colour my life and you always know that I love you , right ?*i'm quiet* However , thiings just changed .... I started to learn a thing called bore and tired , my feeling towards you ... is decreasing day by day ... I think ....we will have to break up for our own good .*dare not look at me*

Me : *heart scattered and eyes cover with tears now* It is because .... I don't give in ? I don't want to give my body ? *trying hard to hold my tremble and stare at him*

Chris : No , of course not .... Just , I found a girl and her name Seohyun .... She is my everything now , I feel refresh when we are together ... She gave me what ever I wanted ... At least , she listened to .... her boyfriend ... Ain't like you ....*finally turn to look at me*

Before he could continue his words , I just slap punched him right on face hardly as I can ... I am so frustrated !! How can he says that ? I had tried my best to become his ideal girlfriend by obeying his orders , of course there are some .. I disobeyed ~ Without waiting anymore , I just grab my luggage and run as far as possible from that idiot ... Just nice , rains starting to pour ... Thank you very much , god , you had made my life more miserable than ever ... Run and run , I continue running like a mad girl with a luggage ....*dramatic* until all my energy had used up . A small stone tripped me , I should say I tripped and fell on the floor . I can't hold my feeling anymore , this is too much for me .... Its a .... burden ~ My omma and Appa had just left me last year January due to an air crash ... That person who had just hurt my heart hard is the only reason I feel my life happy , he is the one who I can trust and love ... Now , he had gone too and dumped me cruelly because I didn't gave in ....

                                          -end flashback- 

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                                         -back to the house-

'Knock ! knock ! knock ! Are you awake yet , Kyu Li ? I am coming in . ' Kyuhyun opens the door slightly and peek in the room . *you are too mature to do that , kyu ~ although ur age don't look like one* He walks in quietly , tip-toeing ... to my side and ... hold my hand ? I am thinking , not bother to look at him , just by feeling the warmness of his hand makes my heart feel better ...

Kyu : Are you alright ? Kyu Li ? Are you feeling better now ? Do you wanna share ? You can tell me everything if you want to ...

I look like a living corpse and not bother to answer him . Suddenly , door banging sound from the back ... Kangin ?

Kyu : Hyung , please go out now ... Its not the right time to get angry now ~

Kangin pushes Kyuhyun away , hold me up from the bed . I have no idea why but my heart is aching ... I can't bother much but my heart . He looks into my eyes with emotion , whereas I am still wearing my blank face . Next thing is Leeteuk and Siwon are here to pull Kangin *try to* from me but it turn out failed .... because he is too strong and heavy .

Kangin : *shake me roughly* Wake up ! Kyu Li ! Its time for you to wake up from your dream ! Forget that idiot who make your life miserable ! Your life is long enough to think of other stuff , but not only that idiot Chris ! What about us ? What about your late Omma and Appa . You have to live a better life than past , to prove to that freaking Chris !

Its loud , Kangin is shouting and shaking me back and fourth ... My tears roll down my cheeks when he mentioned about my late parents . That is all I can react , whats more ... Now , even Shindong is in , 'pulling Kangin away' mission . Then , without any more struggles and words , Kangin stops and drops me back to my bed ...

Kangin : Kyu Li , you have make me dissapointed ! *walk out*

Everyone follows his back , only Kyu is staying back ...

Kyu : Neh , I will stay here to look after her ... Don't worry ...*confirm* Wookie hyung , can you please sleep in my room in the mean time ...

Wookie : Okay . *he turns to Kyu and show 'fighting' pose before he leaves*

After a few hours of thinking , Kangin's words really hit my head enough for me to come back to my sense . Reality has pull me back to the earth . I look at Kyu's sleeping face and feel really sorry for him because of me .... haih ~ I am really acting stupid and childish ... Then , Kyu has awake from his sweet dream to check on me ....

Kyu : Oh ! You are awake ... No , *touch my eye bags* you haven't sleep at all . Don't you ?*questioning face* So , are you feeling better now ? Sorry for Kangin's temper . This is how he re-act when his temper raises . Just , promise me that you don't take his words seriously ....*I spring up and hug him* Yo....u .....*shock*

My emotion gets break down after his soft talk , I can't bear with it anymore .... All he does is patting my back gently like a mother , giving me a soft comfort to make me feel better . I can hear he whispering beside my ear ... ' I will always be there for you , I promise , Han Kyu Li , always ..... ' I am not sure how long I had been crying , but I definitely wet Kyu's t-shirt .... Then , I fell asleep on Kyu's shoulder ....

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                                            -Next morning-

Me : AHHHHHHHHH ~*try to release myself*

OMG !! What will think if they ever see this .... Then , its too late ... They open the door with full force *almost break* and saw everything ~ I am so dead ..... X( ....

TO BE CONTINUE

P/s : I am so sorry to the new subscribers for waiting...I had changed slightly , I guess this version is much better than the previous .... Mainhae!! Pls continue support..... ^^