Was is really a memory to Jiyong? Youngbae didn’t know for sure. He saw Jiyong stumbling back and forth into sadness. Struggling to be whole again. What Youngbae knew for certain was that Jiyong was somehow reaching for a closure of some sort.

Once, Jiyong showed him a sheet of lyrics he wrote for BigBang’s next album. And Youngbae remembers having to sit down in order to continue reading it.

He is leaving and I can’t do anything

Love is leaving and like a fool, I’m blankly standing here

I’m looking at him, getting farther away

He becomes a small dot and then disappears

Will this go away after time passes?

I remember the old times, I remember you

If it’s not too late, can’t we get back together?

If you’re struggling like I am, can’t we make things a little easier?

I should’ve treated you better when I had you

How about you? Are you really fine?

Guess our break up is setting

I should forget you but it’s not easy

On days where thin rain falls like today, I remember your shadow

Our memories that I secretly put in my drawer, I take them out and reminisce again by myself

Why didn’t I know about the weight of sadness that comes with breaking up?

If you, Jiyong titled it. Youngbae thought that Jiyong poured his wretched feelings into this song. Youngbae’s eyes prickled with unshed tears. The words were haunting. It was the saddest song Jiyong ever wrote. And it was for Seungri.

Seungri will probably never know about it. Just like he doesn’t know about the songs Youngbae wrote about him. Ironically enough, Seungri was an inspiration to many of BigBang’s songs and he was completely oblivious to it.

“I am letting him go Youngbae.” Jiyong told him a while after. “I am ready to move on and let him live.”

Youngbae didn’t say a word. He didn’t like that he was constantly thrown into Jiyong-Seungri problems. He didn’t want to hear about it in the first place. But Jiyong seemed insistent about bringing the matter each time he could.

But Youngbae was glad for his friend. Now, both of them found a closure about Seungri. They can normally live their life from now on. The future is looking way better.

Youngbae finished his tours and was now focusing on YG family and BigBang’s activities. It’s going to be a hectic end of the year. But tonight, he was with his beautiful Hyorin. She was talking to him about her upcoming film project and Youngbae was her silky hair attentively listening.

How he liked his Hyorin. Youngbae thought. He will tell YG to make their relationship official as soon as possible. It was Hyorin’s agency that’s delaying the whole thing. But