March, 17, 2015 (33 days before death).

Luhan has forgiven Sehun for his misfortune. He hasn't voiced it allowed, as he feels that Sehun's guilt is what keeps him trying so hard. It's been a dismal three days. Luhan is surviving on will alone. There's no food, and just enough rain water. As much as he would like to withdraw from the situation, he feels as though this is his punishment for the way he's lived his life. He realizes why people think he's insane, and it's because he's lived his life without consequence. He's gone so far on the simple belief that if it wasn't in his mind, it wasn't real; if he could escape within himself, it wasn't a bad situation. He ran from his mother's death. He hid from his father's grief. He fabricated his stability in his first love.

When he thinks about it, Sehun is not the first person he's ever loved. He loved his mother. He loved her like she'd never leave, and that's exactly what she did.

He loved Baekhyun. He loved Baekhyun like he loved his mother, and he left as well.

Now, he loves Sehun, but Sehun hasn't left him. He knows that Sehun will eventually leave, but he can't help but think it's the fact that Sehun hasn't left yet that is making them both suffer such misfortune. Both his mother and Baekhyun moved on to happier places. Would it not be smart of Sehun to move on too?

He by no means blames the entirety of the situation he's in on himself, but the idea that his life without consequence is starting to catch up with him makes him think it's best if he were left alone.

After all, he's always done well enough on his own.

March, 18, 2015 (32 days before death).

Luhan has started to hallucinate from the lack of rest and nutrition he's getting. He insists that he's fine; he already knows he's as good as dead anyway.

Sehun decides that it's time to come out of hiding. He can't take looking at Luhan rot, and he can't stand the fact that he's aiding the process.

March, 19, 2015 (31 days before death).

Luhan barely makes the walk back to the school. When he collapses on the floor of the front office, he's handcuffed and taken to a hospital.

He can't tell if he's hallucinating or not, but he swears he sees the sick people staring at Sehun as if he we