Author POV

Chanyeol tilted his head and deepened his kiss. After he realized that Jiyeon kissed him back he smiled between their kiss and then he kissed her more passionate. He really miss her. Jiyeon miss him too. And then he pulled away their kiss slowly. His hand still at her waist and Jiyeon’s hand still encircle his neck. Chanyeol smiled to her and Jiyeon smiled too.

“You’re still not forgiven Park Chanyeol-ssi. You owe me a lot of explanation and maybe punch in the face.” Chanyeol chuckled and nodded.

“Too many people that wanting to punch me this day.” He said.

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Jiyeon and Chanyeol decided to continue what they want to do at Jiyeon’s appartment. When they arrived at there Jiyeon just realized that maybe Sehun still in there. But after Jiyeon walked inside she found no one in there. Maybe Sehun already left, she thought.

Actually Jiyeon felt guilty to left Sehun so suddenly like that. But what Sehun said just made her feel more complicated. More over Chanyeol’s presence made her realized that it’s true she’s still love him. Although what Chanyeol did made her really hurt but she couldn’t lie that she can forget him.

Suddenly she saw something at her table. An envelope and a note. She widened her eyes. It’s from Sehun!! She hurriedly read it.

Dear Jiyeon noona

I’m sorry. I just can say I’m sorry.

I know that what I did is really wrong for you.

I know that I just being really selfish for you.

But that’s because I love you.

I love you and I want you.

But this 4 years make me realize that I definitely can’t have you.

I can’t beat your first love no matter what I do.

You can’t never forget him just because of my presence.

I really understand because what you feel for him is just like what I feel for you

Maybe I can try to let you go now. But I can’t try to forget you and you should never try to forget me.

Once again, I love you noona. But I’m happy if you’re happy. And please be happy.

Your Hoobae

Oh Sehun

Jiyeon sighed when she finished read it. She nibled her lower lip. She felt more guilty. But she couldn’t do nothing. She always said to Sehun to stop what he do. Not because she never like him but because she’s afraid that she can hurt him. She’s indeed comfort being close to him. Sehun always made her feel not alone but Jiyeon can’t give him her heart.

“Ah that’s my letter.” Suddenly Chanyeol took the envelope.

“Your letter?” Asked Jiyeon.

“Yeah. Minwoo hyung and Sooyoung told that you never receive my letter.”

“Yes they right. I just saw this letter. I never receive anything from you when you left me.” Chanyeol furrowed his eyebrow. Jiyeon too. Suddenly Jiyeon realized something. This letter was put below this note. Maybe Sehun keep this letter all this time.

“What’s that note?” Chanyeol asked Jiyeon. Jiyeon startled a bit and hurriedly hide the not.

“Ah nothing.”

“Emm okay. So.. it’s explain everything. You never read my letter.” Jiyeon nodded and then took the letter.

“Let me read it now.”

“No. I can explain it by myself.” Chanyeol smiled and then lead Jiyeon to sit at the couch.

Chanyeol looked at Jiyeon. He then took a deep breath.

“First I want to say sorry. Maybe this ‘sorry’ never enough to cover all of my fault. All of my stupidness. It’s up to you rather you want to forgive me or not. But give me a chance to tell it myself.” Jiyeon nodded.

And then Chanyeol told her everything. About Yein offer, about his family, about US, about he wanted to bring Jiyeon too to US, about he thought that Jiyeon just hurt already because of him and want to forget him. All of what he went through alone back then he said it to Jiyeon.

“Sorry Jiyeon. Maybe because I never being in relationship I couldn’t understand about your feeling. I thought that I just can make you hurt more. I thought that you really want to forget me. I thought that chasing my dream is more important than fighting for you. But I forgot........that one of my dream is you.” Jiyeon could just look at him and listen to all of his words.

“I know that I really being selfish and stupid. What that hoobae did is wrong. But believing what he said is dumb. I’m the most dumb person in this world. Maybe you thought that I easily to left you but you