Chapter 3

{Listen to Bruno Mars - It Will Rain (Boyce Avenue Cover)}

Jimin’s POV

Darkness. That’s all I saw. I don’t know where I was. Usually I would be afraid, freaking out but the darkness felt somewhat comforting to me. Despite seeing only darkness, I could feel the soothing summer breeze. I closed my eyes, creating my own little paradise in my mind. The breeze made me feel nostalgic. It reminded me of the past summer memories/events with the guys. Those were the good old days.

Sighing, I opened my eyes and tried to find an exit. It was difficult since I couldn’t see a thing. It was then I heard voice, a very familiar voice. But they sounded so far away yet so close. I could hear an angelic voice singing so beautifully, a tear escaped my eye. I felt at peace. The voice was quite muffled, so I was unable to recognize the song.

I concentrated hard; I want to hear what the angel is singing. My hearing was becoming much sharper; I could make out some words.

So… mind- sacrifices I'm makin'

-keep you by my side

To keep you from walkin' out t-door.

'Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you, baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you, baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same, if you walk away

Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

Why did the angel’s voice sound so much like Jungkook’s? I remember singing this song a lot; it was one of my favourite. The lyrics always made me smile because I always wished I was important to a special person, who loved me endlessly. I always dreamed to have Jungkook sing this song to me. I was so overwhelmed; I finally have the chance to hear him sing it finally. I couldn’t help but let some tears let loose, slowly streaming down my face.

I stood there listening to him sing, my heart was beating fast. Slowly, I saw the darkness vanishing, replacing it with the hospital room. I looked around me and realized it must be an out of body experience as I saw myself lying on that hospital bed. I saw the guys all over the room sleeping in uncomfortable positions which made me chuckle. It was then what I saw, that made my breath hitch. Jeon Jungkook, was holding my left hand while running his fingers through my hair. He was singing, so softly.

I felt loved after so long. Far too long. I couldn’t help but finally explode. I cried and cried, shaking uncontrollably while staring at Jungkook whom was still singing while gazing sweetly at the real me laying in bed. All I could do was stare and wish I never wake up, that this lasts forever. I rubbed at my eyes, the tears were making my vision blurry. When I opened my eyes I was back into the darkness. But this time I felt a lot stronger, and saw light slowly seeping in.

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding

If that'll make you mine

'Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you, baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you, baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same, if you walk away

Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

I slowly opened my eyes, and saw Jungkook still singing but this time with his eyes closed. His hand squeezing mine. Was I dying? Because right now it really did feel like I was in Heaven right now.

Oh, don't you say (don't you say) goodbye (goodbye),

Don't you say (don't you say) goodbye (goodbye)

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding

If that'll make it right

He opened his eyes and looked surprised seeing that I’m awake. I thought he would stop but he carried on. I saw the window was open, which let in the relaxing summer breeze. It was close to sun rise, the sky was a mixture of pinks and purples with a light orange. The small amount of sunlight directly hitting the back of Jungkook making his claret hair more noticeable.

'Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you, baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you, baby

He stared into my eyes with so much emotions, and caressed my cheek with his thumb. With a softer voice he sang;

And just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same, if you walk away

Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

I smiled, because it really did feel like my dream was coming true. I know that we can never be a couple but right now I can pretend we are. It was risky with what I was about to do, but really who knows if I’ll even be alive tomorrow. So I held his face with both my hands, and sat up. Our faces were inches apart; I could feel his breath fanning my cheeks. Jungkook’s eyes widened.  I took his vulnerable state as a chance to connect our lips together. His lips felt everything I dreamed of, soft and sweet. It lasted for a few seconds before I let go.

I looked at him for his reaction. Would he be disgusted? He sat there frozen as if he couldn’t comprehend what just happened, really I couldn’t too. I don’t know where the sudden confidence came from but I don’t regret it because I finally got the chance to kiss Jeon Jungkook. Right now I wouldn’t mind dying.

I wanted to say ‘I love you’ but that would be too much for him right now so I smiled once more and pretended to fall asleep. Really I wouldn’t be able to because my heart was beating so fast and loud. I knew I was as red as a tomato because I could feel heat rising up my face. Even though I know he will never love me, I always will and right now I was okay with that.

Jungkook’s POV

When Jimin woke up we were all surprised. Back here again? I felt my already broken heart break even more. Was that even possible? I didn’t get a chance to say anything because he instantly fell asleep. I squeezed his hand, reassuring him I will be here for him from now on whether he knew or not. It’s a promise.

We all have been sat here for about four hours everyone was asleep but me. We were all tired since we barely got any sleep. I still held on to Jimin’s hand. I knew he was handsome, ever since the first day I saw him. But lately I’ve been seeing him in a different way. I don’t think it’s right, because we're both men. That was why I started treating him horribly, because I was afraid of my own feelings. I sighed gazing out the window, it was afternoon. The blue sky looked enchanting. Decorated with fluffy white clouds. I could see peeks of purple, pink and orange seeping in.

I heard a small whimper, which would have gone unnoticed if it wasn’t for how close I was sitting next to the person. Jimin was softly whimpering with a frown on his face. No longer looking peaceful as before. I didn’t want to wake the others since they look so exhausted so I ran my fingers through his chocolate brown hair hoping it will help him relax. It actually did. I was surprised, but he still had a frown on his face so I decided to sing.

If you ever leave me, baby,

Leave some morphine at my door

'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication

To realize what we used to have,

We don't have it anymore.

There's no religion that could save me

No matter how long my knees are on the floor (Ooh)

So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin'

To keep you by my side

To keep you from walkin' out the door.

I saw him slowly smile, looking so peaceful. Jimin really did look like an angel. His face was glowing with so much purity. He really did mean a lot to me and the guilt will always be there for treating him so horribly. I sang with a lot of emotion because I don’t think I’d be brave enough to sing this to him. I know that this is his favourite song, we all knew. We all honestly did love hearing him sing, so whenever he did the whole dorm would go quiet as we all would secretly listen to him. I saw a lone tear fall down his face and wiped it away with my thumb.

'Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you, baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you, baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same, if you walk away

Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

More tears ran down his face, and I wiped them all away while singing. I kissed his forehead for many reasons. I slowly saw his beautiful honey brown eyes flutter open. My chest felt tight but I didn’t stop singing. I don’t know what came over me, but all I knew was that he had to know about my feelings one day. So I sang with love, guilt, sadness, and happiness. Everything. When I finished I saw him smile at me instantly making me feel warm.

I was caught by surprise when he lead me closer to his face, I could feel his hot breath fanning my face. I froze; my heart was going to burst any minute. And when he connected our lips together, my heart skyrocketed. He had his eyes closed, that I could see every single eyelash. He really was beautiful. I wanted to kiss back but I was frozen from shock. This felt like a dream.

I wanted to whine when his lips left mine, already missing his warmth. We stared at each other for a while; I looked deep into his eyes and he looked at mine. Jimin suddenly smiled, making my legs jelly. His eyes turning into crescent moon until I could no longer see his eyes. I just sat there, confused, happy and hopeful. Right now, I felt like the happiest man alive.

Jimin-ah, wait for me. I’ll make you mine soon.

OMGGGGGG ABOUT TIME! AM I RIGHT?!

I WAS GRINNING SO MUCH WHILE WRITING THIS HAHA

THEY LIKE EACH OTHER AHHHHHH

Btw this was how the sky looked like during this part.

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Saranghae~