There I was in the recording room for the hundredth time that month. I lazily pressed notes on the electric piano with my index finger, and rested my head on my left hand, hoping to find an inspiration.

Giving up, I banged my forehead against the notes.

"This. Is. So. Boring," I said with each bang, letting my head rest on the piano at the last word.

I was currently learning producing arranging and composing songs. After seeing me arrange Love The Way You Lie collaboration 2000 Won on Kpopstar, Yang sajangnim had encouraged me to produce my next album.

The problem was that I wasn't making any progress. After weeks of practicing, I had only produced barely one verse which suspiciously sounded too much like Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.

I'm good at playing the piano and my strumming is pretty decent. The thing was, I lacked so much life experience to write meaningful songs. I've never had a significant relationship with the opposite and lacked the emotional range to write songs about love. My life hasn't exactly been a roller coaster of great struggles from which I could be inspired from either.

And with this, ladies and gentlemen, I could only come up with Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.

I continued to let my head rest on the piano and closed my eyes. As I started to drift off, someone knocked on the door of the recording room.

I bolted and sat up straight, expecting to see Yang sajangnim come in with his signature military cap. Thankfully it was only Lydia Paek unnie.

"Oh unnie, hi," I greeted lazily, and rested my head on the piano once again.

"Hey, kiddo. Still nothing, huh?" Lydia unnie asked me as she the back of my head. She knew that the struggle was real.

"Nope. Nada," I said, without lifting my head.

Lydia unnie scoffed jokingly at my pathetic attitude. I loved Lydia unnie like an older sister. She had been a huge help since my first day at YG Entertainment. She introduced me to her friends, who were now my friends as well, and treated me like her own little sister. Lydia unnie would also buy me samgyeopsal often, which made me fond of her even more.

"You need to get out there, Hayi-ah. Befriend people who aren't my friends. Meet boys your age. Or else you'll forever be stuck in this musical rut forever," Lydia unnie said as she dragged a chair to sit next to me.

She was right. I had always been too lazy to socialize. I often stayed at my dorm to watch dramas and eat chips rather than mingle with people. I just hated meeting new people. I hated insincere small chats. I'm too awkward around people, even my fans. I know for sure I've probably lost a lot of fans over these months because of how cold I am towards them. I'm not cold on purpose though, I'm just painfully awkard.

Moreover, I hated complicated relationships and I hated getting my heart broken. I had my heart broken a couple years back. I adored him, but he didn't even know who I was. This incident was the inspiration behind my song One-Sided Love. The lyricist, Sunwoo Jungah unnie, asked me of my experience so I could connect with the song.

In YG, I was very close with 2NE1 unnies but our ages are too far apart. I was also very close with Winner and Big Bang oppas and they treat me like a little sister. I had never really interacted with the Team B guys except during YG Family concerts. I often talked to Bobby oppa and Junhoe though, they're alright.

My best friends in the company were the AKMU siblings, Chanhyuk and Soohyun. We were like the three musketeers in YG, we often hung out together.

But Lydia was right, I needed to expand my horizons beyond YG, get out there, meet boys... I'm disgusted already just talking about this.

"Ugh, fine," I groaned. "Later. Or some other time."

"Anyway, I gotta run. Gotta get ready for a party at Gangnam. Remember what I said, kid," Lydia unnie said, patting me on the head and quickly left me alone again.

I sat up straight and started playing the piano notes again. Again, the notes sounded like Twinke Twinkle Little Star.

"I definitely need to get out there," I muttered to myself.

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I'm currently writing another fanfic with Lee Hi/B.I., but it's a really heavy fanfic with a serious plot. So I thought I'd write a fluffy one to counterbalance my own mind. Please anticipate this fanfic, it'll be very fluffy. You might want to keep an eye out for other YG couples! ;)