'Does it hurt you so much that you become numb to physical pain and exhaustion?

Because that's how much it's hurting me.'

    "Where are we going?" She almost shouted, trying to make her voice audible enough to be heard amidst the noisy sound of tyres screeching the road.   "Somewhere safe." He shouted back. Gyuri waited for further clarification but none came.   'I can't believe I actually believed him and followed him. I should've just go home and face the reporters. Omma and appa are so worried when I called just now. Seungyeoni, Nicole, Hara, Jiyoungie...I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I was stupid. I made mistakes. How come you girls could love and not mess up, while I messed everything and even risked you girls? Us. All that we've worked so hard to have.'   "We're here. Wait."   He got off his motorcycle and ran towards the door before she could question anything. It was the back lane of double storey house lane. Some moments later, a man opened the door. Gyuri easily noticed him and frowned.   "Siwannie~!!! You come to me! Am I dreaming?"   "Yah, I have no time to joke around. I need your help for tonight. Let her stay here tonight. Tomorrow morning I'll come fetch her."    "What? Who? Your sister?"   Siwan turned to Gyuri and signalled her to come forward.   "Ommo. Gyuri ssi." The man displayed a shocked face and quickly bowed to her.   "Uhh, hi Kwanghee ssi." Gyuri waved at him half-heartedly, not understanding what made her dragged further into the mess-she has had enough mess with Eunhyuk and Siwan, now.... Kwanghee?   "Hey, Siwan, what are you doing?" He hissed quietly, trying not to offend their senior.   "Gyuri sunbaenim. You can stay here for the night. Kwanghee stays with his little sister here, so it's safe. I'll come at 5:30 in the morning, to send you back home. The reporters should've left by then."   "Y...yeah, Gyuri ssi....I'll show you guest room. Come inside. It's cold out here."   Gyuri was too tired too argue. She followed him inside without exchanging any words or even a glance as he led her to the guest room located upstairs. After a few minutes, Kwanghee came out of the house to his groupmate who was sitting on the ground, with his head tilted upwards, towards the starless night sky.   "Ya, Siwannie....what do you think you're doing, bringing a girl to my house...and not just any girl....but.....a...."   "Something happened. She had a problem and reporters were after her. I happened to be at the same place when the problem happened. She's still our senior, can't we at least help her?"   "But why didn't you bring her to your sister's house? Or somebody else's?"   "You know how Noona is so obsessed about me getting a girlfriend, don't you? I don't want her to get the wrong ideas."   All the while he spoke, Kwanghee only looked at him, feeling sorry for the smaller-framed man stood before him. He took a seat on the ground next to him and patted his shoulder.   "Siwan-ah, you haven't told her that you really like her, right?"   ".....what were you thinking?! I didn't. I was just being polite and helpful. You could learn from me."   "See? You like her. You never treat me that nicely.....what will I get if I help you?"   "Just...do anything you want as usual. There's no stopping you anyway."   "Really?" Kwanghee's voice grew louder in amusement. Siwan had never been easy with him, especially when it comes to his public display of affection. In fact, Siwan had yelled at him countless of times for that reason.   "Just....don't me."   Kwanghee laughed and pretended to pounced his groupmate on the shoulder. Siwan laughed too. Although it came out dry. Kwanghee didn't mind. He was used to Siwan's fake laughter. Siwan never even try too hard to make his laughter believable anyway.   "Don't worry Siwan-ah...I'll take care of her like my own sister in law."   "You better don't talk nonsense in front of Gyuri sunbaenim. Don't scare her......she's had enough."   Gyuri watched from the window in her room at the two boys' exchange without hearing their conversation.   'Are they gays? They look good together actually. *smiles*   ......but I've caused so much trouble to everyone. Now I've even become a burden to Siwan ssi and Kwanghee ssi.   Should I