Drabble 25 // 미안해, 사랑해, 용서해 (I Hate You) 

Park Jimin: 

I'm sorry you were treated this way; fate and destiny are believed to lead us to the people we encounter, and maybe it's just your poor luck to meet a bad boy like me; you were stupid of letting me enter your life, but dumb and dumber, I idiotically followed along and by the time I was conscious of what was going on, we had both fallen too far to be saved. 

I love you; the words are so easy on my lips but so heavy in my heart; I can't promise too much when there's bare to nothing to offer - maybe that's what caused you to be fatally attached, since all I could give was my love - those kisses, the gentleness in the way I touched you; I guess they were my only way of showing how much I treasured you.

Forgive me. It was a mistake, we were a mistake, and yet I live every day wishing we could continue going wrong forever, crossing out the days we pass like the errors we make until we can no longer go any further; like a beautiful nightmare, you'd be mine throughout the night until we're stripped from our eternity, which if possible, only revolved around you and me. 

Kim Taehyung: 

I sometimes wonder why people are pulled together if they're only bound to separate, why they're encouraged to feel attached when being forced apart is the sole outcome despite everything, and why they become so helpless without one another; maybe it's just a select few who feel the darkest and hurt the deepest, and maybe I just happen to be one of them. 

Hate is a word that shouldn't be simple used; you know I don't hate you; the furthest extent of dislike to your actions still do not equal hate; the words "stay - please stay" still echo around me though I wasn't brave enough to say them the night you left, so if hate is to be mentioned, I hate myself for not pleading for your company, even for one more day, then hoping it would turn into forever. 

You understand and yet you don't; a relationship is mutual but the way you're only considerate for me is selfish too; if it's mutual then mutual love means mutual pain; the inner death of my faith rests in your hands but it's revival is also the easiest thing if it's you, so a last soul-to-soul plead is what I'll send in hopes you'll return and realise we have a fighting chance. 

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Author's Note // I'm kinda pretty disappointed with how this turned out but oh well, I'll try harder in the future. I just really wanted to write a story for the title. Don't think I've used korean titles for story chapters in any of my BTS fics before, but this called for it. I fall so hard in deep emotion when I hear the very end of the album preview, the build up of music gets me so bad. I'm so excited for the new album. A few more hours then it's the 29th, and then in about 26 hours my time it'll be the live stream. :)