Chapter 4

 

“Tiffany, thanks for coming.” An amused voice remarked behind her, very close to her ear.

 

Turning her face, she stared at him with a shuddering smile. How was she going to get through this evening? He was bound to want to talk about them, about what had happened between them during these past three years & what could she say? She wished she could say I want you to stay forever with me, be my love & be a father to my son’s.

 

“You are early.” He said, eyeing her with concern, “But you look tired, Fany.”

 

“Working overtime to prepare the end of semester.” She said lightly, hiding the truth, “The paper works are too many.”

 

Jaejoong looked unconvinced, “Really? Please make sure you take care of yourself.”

 

“Thank you. I will.” But she had no intention of keeping the promise. The last thing she wanted was a day on her own with time to think about the way out of their romance.

 

“It is obvious you don’t take care of yourself properly. Does he take care of you as I do?” His eyes flashed with jealousy.

 

She stared at him unhappily. Was she doing the right thing for not telling him the truth? Did he have a right to know about the twins? About her lies? But if she did then god would take her happiness again. She couldn’t let it happen. Losing Jaejoong had made her life miserable. Losing both, Jaejoong & the twins would definitely kill her.

 

There was a pause.

 

“You don’t want to say something, Fany?”

 

She looked over at him once more & shook her head, “No.” She said, her eyes falling.

 

He was dressed in a guess stand collar black jacket with quilted faux leather detail. Her eyes spotted a white gold necklace on his neck, the same necklace as hers. Her heart suddenly broke. He was wearing the necklace with a ‘T’ pendant which they bought as a pair in France. She got the pair of it with ‘J’ pendant & she hid it in her drawer instead. Her eyes lowered to glance at his long fingers & found a ring that should come together as a pair with her ring, too, ‘He had never forgotten me.’ She thought, & suddenly, she could hardly breathe. Tiffany’s emotion mounted to unbearable proportion as she watched him in tears, ‘He looks wonderful as always & he’s faithful to me.’ She thought, a quiver of unbidden pain running through her. She smiled without her consent.

 

“What’s the matter, Tiffany?” He gave her a sidelong glance, “Have I suddenly turned into a frog?” He queried in a darkly mocking tone, his thick eyebrows lifting in a special way like Minki always do.

 

Tiffany jolted out from her dream world. She turned to face him, “Oh, sorry, Jae Oppa.” She said softly, “I was miles away.” She turned to look at him but he stared straight ahead into the glare of the lights in the lobby.

 

Then he turned his head to look at her. Grinning, he said, “Let’s go to the bar.” He gave a sweep of his hand in that direction.

 

“You said you want to have your dinner.”

 

Still grinning, he shook his head, “I’m not hungry anymore.” Jaejoong helped her off with her calvin klein belted black trench coat & then surprised her by taking her hands in his, “Fany.” He said in a tone, which quickened her pulse, “Something tells me that I’m not going to like how this night ends so before it ends, there is something that I want.”

 

She looked up at him in questioning way then caught her breath, her heart pounding as she realized what he meant. She could read from the darkness of his eyes that he wanted to kiss her.

 

She stepped back, trying to push him away softly, “But you should eat. Look at yourself. You are skinny.” “You think too much.” Jaejoong teased, moving to lightly clasps her arm as they strolled through the bar. Then he stopped, looking at her steadily for a moment, “By the way, you look gorgeous tonight.”

 

She frowned at the compliment. She was dressed in a calvin klein ultimate skinny white jeans & a tommy hilfiger short-sleeve polo black shirt deliberately, considering them to be smart but unattractive. She wanted him to think that she was out to appear attractive to him but he had an opposite thinking. She had obviously failed.

 

They stared at each other as they were waiting for their coffee, having emotion burst out in their hearts.

 

“Tell me, Fany!” He commanded, “Tell me one thing!”

 

She raised her eyebrows, waiting for his next words.

“Do you still love me?”

 

Tiffany drew in a deep breath, then pushed the golden brown hair behind her ear & looked at him straight in the eye, “Oppa, could we please stop talking about it? Please?” Her face shadowed. She looked down at the hands holding hers.

 

Jaejoong eyed her in silence, brows drawn together as he thought back to their sweet moments together. He winced, taking in a deep breath & letting her hands go, “Okay.”

 

She raised her eyes to his, “Thanks.”

 

“So, Tiffany.” Jaejoong stared at her with a bitter smile, “What’s he like?” He murmured slowly.

 

It took all of her inner control to maintain her tears, “Who?” She asked, trying not to understand what he was pointing out.

 

“The man you married.” His eyes were blinking several times as if he had tried to fight back his tears, trying hard to hide his jealousy. His eyes were bitter.

 

“Why do you want to know?”

 

“It matters to me, Tiffany. I have to know the man whom you married, the man you have chosen to share your life with.” His eyes stabbed hers.

 

She gave a humorless smile, “We hardly knew each other before. He suddenly banged into my life but he’s the most kindest, wonderful, caring & loving person I have ever known.”

 

Jaejoong looked surprised by her reply. His eyebrows rose, “Do you love him?”

 

Tiffany,