Chapter4

Pigged out!

Eat. Even if you're on a diet, who cares? Just for a time, eat anything and everything you want.

  The rest of the day passed like a blur. I tried to concentrate on class, take notes, listen to lectures and participate. There are probably people out there who are going through bigger love problems and worse kind of heartaches. With that, I don’t have the right to slack off in pursuing my educational goals and possibly ruin my future.   I would be hyperbolic if I had this notion that it would be the end of the world after having such heartbreak, it would definitely show that I am a loser (which I already am.)   After spending a night and day just crying, I know I should stop now, the world doesn’t revolved around him and just like what he have said, 'everything has a limitation' and I guess I have already reached mine. I already have shed many tears. However, moving on is a different story, unlike Jonghyun, I'm in the process of trying, trying to forget the pain; but I don’t want to speak with finality, coz if I do, I know I'm just lying, and I can’t lie to myself.   -   As I fiddle on my bag strap, walking on the school ground, going home. I noticed most students, girls to be exact being panicky. They were all in hysteria and I’m not amused to see them being like that, but curiosity kills the cat.   Depriving myself is something I learned yet the situation is far different. PEOPLE ARE RUNNING AS IF THE BUILDING IS ON FIRE. Faces were becoming perceptible, girls who are running are mostly in my class, I tried to halt them yet nobody seems to notice and listen to me.   ‘YAAAAAH!!!! KWON NAM GYU is freaking alive!!! I did not die because of heartbreak!!!’   I wanted to shout aloud dramatically while I kneel on the ground. Okay, that idea is something so exaggerating and I would never do that, not in front of many people.   I huffed as I continue to be ignored. Anyway, who cares?   “Onew is here! KYAAA!”   Someone chirped. I stared at her and blinked my eyes. She and her friend were gushing and I got dumbfounded, coz’ I’m not sure if the name I heard is Jinki’s or IU. Oh well, it’s not that they have something to do with me just because I heard a famous name.   I continue to stride away as I muse about the bigger problems I had in school. Speaking of school, I have many requirements to pass and I should set aside these emotions first if I really want to achieve something greater than having a reluctant Kim Jonghyun beside me.   “Kwon. Nam. Gyu.” He said syllabically. Yes, I said ‘he’ because it was voice of a boy, a very familiar man. I glanced over my shoulders and snickered, and then I finally faced him as I turn my body towards his direction.   I guess the rumor that Lee Jinki standing at our university gate is true. I smiled.   I walked closer to him, closing the distance. And it was like a scene from those cheesy movies I have ever watched, the audiences were shock! And some of them were blushing.   “Hi-ya Jinki.”   -   As Lee Jinki entered a western style diner, I was hovering my way to the door. The place was vaguely familiar. He sat at a corner beside the window and I followed him.   I gazed at him intently waiting for him to tell me something, instead as he glanced at me he chuckled embarrassedly and look at the faint light outside the window. Without mimicking him, I looked around exami