Hi, it's me Jenny again. This is chapter four and I worked on this particular chapter. By this point I wasn't quite sure with the flow of the story but I really enjoyed writing it so, I hope you will all like it too!

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I had a hard time looking at Jongin. He had these yearning eyes but there was nothing I could do. Jongin came closer to me and said quietly but firmly once again. “Don’t go Jen, tomorrow.”

I couldn’t understand why Jongin didn’t want me to go tomorrow, I tried really hard to understand what was on his mind. “I am still gonna go Jongin. It’s an appointment so.. I have to go.” I bit my lip out of nervousness and I don’t think I felt this awkward around Jongin before.

Jongin didn’t say much back to me. “Fine then, do whatever you want.” Something was obviously bothering him but he had a hard time expressing it to me.I thought about what Jongin said to me back when we were in the car together earlier.Jongin walked away looking a little angry or even perhaps frustrated. I couldn’t read him,his facial expressions were too complicated for me to know what he was thinking deep inside.

Is he that bad of a man? I thought to myself. Hakyeon seemed like a nice guy but why did Jongin say that he was a bad man and didn’t want me near him? I just didn’t get any of it, I am gonna go no matter what he says,its my life after all.

I went back upstairs to my room after dinner and having the little disagreement with Jongin. I had to read this medical textbook that I was not even interested in but what can I do? I got no other choice right now. I really needed to look into my closet to find a nice looking outfit for tomorrow. As I was looking through my tiny closet, jammed with bunch of clothes, I heard a knock.

“Come In.” I said softly. “Hey sweetie,what are you doing looking through your closet like that?” Luhan asked once he opened the door.

“Hi Luhan oppa.” Luhan gave me another question as he stood in front of my door. “So, are you going out tomorrow?”

“Is Hakyeon gonna be there?” Luhan whispered.
I couldn’t help but to smile hearing Hakyeon’s name being mentioned. “You really like him don’t you?” Luhan asked teasingly.

I felt this butterfly in my stomach. I felt this strange sensation and Just hearing Hakyeon’s name made me feel like a shy little girl in love. Luhan kept on asking me questions,wanting to know more. “So, it’s not just Sehun and Rose is it?” Luhan invited himself to my bed and sat on it naturally. It was a twin size bed big enough for one or maybe two. I gestured that it was okay for him to sit on my bed and as I sighed deeply, I felt embarrassed to answer Luhan’s question.

“You really want to know?” I asked hesitantly.
“Of course I do. I feel like I am the one that’s responsible for all this.” Luhan said in a half guilt ridden voice.

“Okay, to be honest he is gonna be there.” I told Luhan. “I knew it.” He snapped his fingers and went on. “Right now the mood of this house is a bit weird. I can see that Jongin is a bit snappy, but it’s your life, you are a big girl so go out and enjoy.”

“Thanks oppa.” I was happy that there was at least someone that was okay with me going out tomorrow.

“Oppa, I want to be alone right now. I got some things to do.”
“Okay, I’ll leave you be. Jenny ya, Fighting!” Luhan said with an encouraging voice.

Luhan left me after he cheered me on. I really felt like he was the only person that was on my side. I continued to look in the closet to see if there was anything worth wearing. “So frustrating!” I shouted to myself.

I couldn’t help but to take out my growing frustration out on the clothes. It didn’t help that the closet was too small for the amounts of clothes that I had. I managed to find something decent to put on for tomorrow’s date.

I found a cute ivory blouse, a black mini skirt ,and some high heels to go along with it. Decent outfit, but I hardly wore skirts because I was too shy to reveal anything, but lately I’ve been slightly more on the daring side with my clothes. “What is going on with me?” I had to ask myself that. But, just thinking about wearing a short skirt was embarrassing but yet exciting. I guess I deeply wanted to please Hakyeon so he wouldn’t look at other girls but me.