Chapter 24 - Letting Go + Confession = 2nd Wish Granted
Demon's PlayMate
-Your Pov-
- The Next Day -
Waking up, first thing my eyes meet were to deep brown ones
'Morning' I said sleepily with a smile
Jaejoong chuckled 'Good Morning' he said hugging me 'Do you want to go anywhere today?'
A sad smile came on to my face, I was glad that I was facing his chest...so he couldn't see my emotions
'what do you have in mind?' I asked
'mmm I was thinking after breakfast we can do a little shopping, grab lunch at a café and then take a walk in the park' Jaejoong said listing the things he'd like to do ' but it doesn't matter really, I just want to spend time with you'
That same warm and butterfly feeling was in my chest...
Just a little longer I wish to stay like this with him
Cross my heart and hope to die, stick a needle in my eye.
I shut my eyes tightly wanting to block out those words
I promised.
'YAH JAEJOONG!!! WHERE IS OUR BREAKFAST?!!!!!!!!!!!' Max shouted angrily, that could be heard outside my door
Jaejoong groaned 'Aishi his always ruining my moments' he muttered annoyed
I laughed softy 'we should be getting up' I said
Jaejoong shook his head 'Ani, I want to sleep and stay like this a little more' he said, like a whining child
I smiled and patted him the on the back 'c'mon Joongie, I'm also hungry' I said
Before Jaejoong could whine back, my door was thrown open by Jihyo, who looked like a angry hungry lion
'YAH! THAT'S ENJOUGH!' she shouted 'it's one thing to be hogging my Byul all day and it's not acceptable to be starving everyone!'
'yea! Jaejoong hogs Byul too much! Junsu wants a hug too!" Junsu pouted
Junsu and Micky both ran to my bed preying Jaejoong's arms off me and pushed him off the bed
'HUGS HUGS!' Micky beamed hugging me tightly 'GOOD MORNING!'
'YAH!!!!" Jaejoong snapped angrily
Max didn't waste anytime and pushed Jaejoong out of the room 'GO MAKE BREAKFAST FIRST!' he remarked and shut the door at Jaejoong's face
I laughed hearing Jaejoong's angry gambling outside of the door
'I'm glad your feeling a lot better' Jihyo said with a small smile, patting my head 'and I got something for you'
She then reached into her pocket and pulled out a necklace, placing it in my hand
Her smile turned into a sad smile 'when your ready' she said
I looked at the necklace in my hands, it was a basic brown braided string with a small vial . In the vial was a small feather...my black feather.
'As long as he wear this, no spirits will harm him' Jihyo explained
'Thank you unni' I said with a small smile
'YAH! What do you idiots want for breakfast?!' Jaejoong said angrily opening the door, glaring at Max, Jihyo and the twins
'it's only right to let Byul choose what we should have for breakfast' Jihyo stated in a thinking matter
At that Jaejoong glare disappeared, he eyes softened and smiled at me, waiting to hear what I wanted
'waffles, I want waffles with lots lots of strawberries and chocolate sauce!' I beamed, faking a grin
Jaejoong nod with a smile, 'got it' he said and turn to leave 'I'll head out to buy a couple of things to get breakfast started'
The twins let go of me, as I followed after Jaejoong. He wore his jacket and wore his shoes on the veranda
'Joongie' I called walking up to him
'hm?' he responded standing up, looking at me
'Just to be safe...this is for you' I said showing him the necklace that was still in my hand
Jaejoong went quiet, staring at the necklace and touched the vial with the black feather
'this is....' He uttered
I nod and smiled 'my feather. As long as you have a feather of a demon, the evil spirits can't come near or harm you' I explained
I reached up to wear the necklace for Jaejoong but being a little short I couldn't, Jaejoong laughed a little and kneeled down just enough for me to place the necklace around his neck
'thank you' he said and kissed my cheek 'I'll be back real quick'
I held in my sadness, forcing out a wide smile
'be safe' I said staring at his leaving figure
Max came out of the house, standing beside me
'it's time isn't it?' Max questioned and handed me the home phone 'take your time.'
- Jaejoong Pov -
On my way to the shops, I walked past the park.
I smiled seeing how perfect the weather was and the flowers were still blooming beautifully
'After Breakfast I should take Byul to the park' I thought 'she'll be really happy'
I smiled at my thoughts
Ring Ring Ring
I took my phone out, checking the caller ID, but there wasn't one
'Hello?' I answered the call
'Joongie!' I heard Byul's voice beamed 'where are you at?'
I smiled 'Haha miss me already?' I joked chuckling 'I'm just by the park'
'We should have a walk in the park later, the weather is really nice'
'is there anything else you'd like? Since you called?' I asked
there was a short silence
'Byul?' I called confused and felt a little worried by her silence
There's a few things I need to tell you – Byul
I stopped walking, the feeling of easiness was in the pit of my stomach...
Was Byul Feeling Unwell?
Does she already have to return doing her jobs again?
Don't over think on things, take a seat somewhere so I can talk to you – Byul
Seeing the nearest bench, I sat down
'Byul what's going on? Your worrying me.' I said
Jaejoong I need you to listen to me and don't say anything...okay? – Byul
'o-okay' I hesitantly agreed
haha don't be so tensed and breath, I don't want you to die in the most unusual way – Byul
i couldn't help but to laugh, she makes me happy.
Anyways I felt I should tell you how I feel – Byul
How she felt?
When I first meet you, I was happy haha – Byul
I was also somewhat worried since it was the first time to have a human in the shop, working with us...but never the less I'm really glad it was you – Byul
I smiled 'I'm glad I came to the shop as well' my mind spoke 'cause I meet you'
I also wanted to apologize that me, Jihyo, Max, Junsu and Micky must of given you a hard time in the beginning. Everyone really did boss you around and bullied you – Byul
I gave a short laugh, wanting to tell her it was fine, I was alright with it...but I said I wouldn't interrupt her
I am pretty clingy aren't i? haha I really did clung to you with every chances I got. So being able to go university with you...I was really happy to be able to spend more time with you – Byul
Thanks to you I got to meet Yunho and Dambi, I made friends. i won't lie I did get jealous that you really like Dambi haha...– Byul
I couldn't help but to grin from ear to ear, hearing that Byul got jealous for me...I felt butteries in the pit of my stomach
Guess what I am trying to say is...sorry for always forcing myself on you, clinging, hugging and stealing kisses from you...i'm thankful that you would sometimes let me be spoiled and let me do as I please - Byul
It's not forceful if it was willing, I wanted to tell her...that I needed her affections just as she needed and wanted mine. I enjoy her company, I need her hugs and I accepted her kisses...it was all on me, my decisions
I was brought out of my thoughts when I heard Byul laughing softly on the other end.
I love you Jaejoong – Byul
My breath was caught hearing those words from Byul
Haha I know you must of heard me telling you this many times...but you must have not taken me seriously. – Byul
But I really really love you Jaejoong, not as a friend, family or playmate – Byul
I really love you as a Soul Mate would – Byul
I could hear the sound of my own heart pounding...not to mention the fluttering and warmth I felt running through my body...and I was sure my face must be flushed
But I couldn't help it...
I felt Happy
And the overwhelming Love
'y-Yah! W-Why can-can't you tell me all o-of this to m-my face!' I spoke finally, but grew more embarrassed after hearing how much I was shuddering
'C-Couldn't y-y-you hold it in t-til I got b-back?!'
'H-How a-am I sup-suppose to respond?!'
'I-i-I...l-look like a c-c-complete i-idiot right NOW!'
I knew I was making a bigger fool of myself with all of the shuddering and rumbling, but I couldn't help it
I wanted to confess my own feelings to Byul, but couldn't get the right words out
'W-what i-im t-trying t-to s-s-say is...' I continued to shudder 'I really Lo---'
Cross my heart.
My thoughts...my body...my blood froze
...and hope to die
The words I wanted to confess were caught in my throat
...stick a needle in my eye
Why....Why am I hearing that song?
Pinky Swear
'Did I forget a promise?...no I couldn't...so why...' I thought deeply
You hear it don't you? Jaejoong – Byul
'D-Do...you? Do you k-know?' I asked, the feelings of worry and fear overtook my whole being
Sorry Jaejoong...it's time – Byul
'Byul Wha----'
My own words were cut off, when a sudden pain shot through my head.
I gasped in pain, gripping my head with one hand...the other held on to my phone closely to my ear
'W-whats...' I muttered in pain
My vision was spinning, things were becoming a blur...I was stumbling, not able to get a hold of my balance.
Black spots were slowly invading my vision
Bye Jaejoong
Byul...
- Your Pov -
I smile hearing Jaejoong's voice on the other end of the phone, while walking around my room, looking at the many photos that filled up my walls. There were so many, thanks to Jaejoong who always printed the photos out and helped me stick them up on the wall.
Byul? – Jaejoong
I was brought back by Jaejoong's voice sounding confused and a little worried. Taking another glance of the photos on the walls...I noticed how the images of me in the photo was slightly faint
'Don't over think on things, take a seat somewhere so I can talk to you' I said knowing well that Jaejoong would be overthinking things and panicking on his own
Byul what's going on? Your worrying me – Jaejoong
Staring at the photos on my wall constantly, the image of me in the photo fainted more
Each time Jaejoong said my name, I was fading always from his memories
'Jaejoong I need you to listen to me and don't say anything...okay?' I said softly and reassuring him
o-okay - Jaejoong
i chuckled of how adorable Jaejoong can be at times 'haha don't be so tensed and breath, I don't want you to die in the most unusual way' I joked to lighten the tension
Hearing Jaejoong's laugh I continued 'Anyways I felt I should tell you how I feel' I started 'When I first meet you, I was happy haha...I was also somewhat worried since it was the first time to have a human in the shop, working with us...'
I had doubts of how and what Jaejoong would of thought being around a demon, spirits and a witch. A normal Person would of freaked out...
'but never the less I'm really glad it was you' I admitted with a small smile
but it turned our Jaejoong wasn't exactly a normal human
'I also wan ted to apologize that me, Jihyo, Max, Junsu and Micky must of given you a hard time in the beginning.' I said remembering all of those times 'Everyone really did boss you around and bullied you'
'I am pretty clingy aren't i? haha I really did clung to you with every chances I got.' I continued 'So being able to go university with you...I was really happy to be able to spend more time with you'
I was really happy to be able to spend time creating a bond with Jaejoong
'Thanks to you I got to meet Yunho and Dambi, I made friends.' I said smiling at the memories 'i won't lie I did get jealous that you really like Dambi haha...'
I was thankful, that through the fate of meeting Jaejoong, I had made wonderful friends...Yunho, Dambi, Aleyna...
But aside from meeting new people, knowing Jaejoong had let me known emotions that I've never known I had...
Love
Love of a family was definitely different from Loving a special Someone
'Guess what I am trying to say is...sorry for always forcing myself on you, clinging, hugging and stealing kisses from you...i'm thankful that you would sometimes let me be spoiled and let me do as I please' I said and laughed slightly
I really wanted him to know.
I really really wanted him to understand and know how I felt
'I love you Jaejoong' I spoke the words that I wish for him to return
'Haha I know you must of heard me telling you this many times...but you must have not taken me seriously' I said feeling my heart beating faster in my chest 'But I really really love you Jaejoong, not as a friend, family or playmate'
From the very beginning.
I knew why I was so attracted to you...why I could never leave you alone
'I really love you as a Soul Mate would' I confessed
Fate has brought you to me ...And time has given you my heart
I could feel my eyes tearing up, maybe it was because of the overwhelming feeling of happiness I felt...the thankfulness and the gratefulness of having Jaejoong came into my life....
Or maybe....
y-Yah! W-Why can-can't you tell me all o-of this to m-my face! - Jaejoong
C-Couldn't y-y-you hold it in t-til I got b-back?! - Jaejoong
H-How a-am I sup-suppose to respond?! - Jaejoong
I-i-I...l-look like a c-c-complete i-idiot right NOW! – Jaejoong
'W-what i-im t-trying t-to s-s-say is...I really Lo---- - Jaejoong
Cross my heart.
...Because it was time
...and hope to die
...to let Jaejoong go
...stick a needle in my eye
Tears fell from my eyes
Pinky Swear
'You hear it don't you? Jaejoong' I stated knowing well he could hear it
D-Do...you? Do you k-know? – Jaejoong
I bite my lips hard and tried to hide the creaking of my voice as I spoke 'Sorry Jaejoong...it's time'
Byul Wha---- - Jaejoong
Jaejoong's sentence was cut off as I heard him gasp in pain.
Endlessly my tears fell, knowing Jaejoong's Memories were easing...
Memories of me easing just as I was in the photos on the walls
'Bye Jaejoong' I whispered weakly
Thud
Jaejoong passed out
Rustle rustle
Byul - ???
The voice answered Jaejoong's phone
'Yunho...Oppa' I managed to say in tears
I'll be right over, after taking care of Jaejoong – Yunho
I could no longer respond only nodding, even though Yunho couldn't see it, I knew he understood
- Dambi Pov -
I ran as fast as I could with Mindeulle flying beside to the wish shop.
It was only seconds ago that Yunho had called me and told me what had happened...
Bam
I burst through the front entrance of the wish shop
'i-im sorry t-to have i-intrude like this...' I manage to say while panting and catching my breath 'b-but...but---'
'Dambi it's not a problem' Jihyo cut me off with a small smile and nod 'Byul is in her room, thank you for coming for her'
I nod and did a quick bow, heading towards Byul's room...for the 2nd time I burst through the door without knocking
'BYUL?!' I shouted worryingly
There she was, Byul stood facing the wall that was filled with many photos.
I swallowed the knot that I felt in my throat, at this moment...in this one moment now...
I want to be strong and be able to comfort Byul
Each step to took closer to her, the clearer my sight got of the photos...those were memories...memories of us, of everyone together
Except...
The image of Byul...wasn't there...only an empty space where she's meant to be
'Byul' I called her name softy
I could hear Byul sniffing quietly, before turning to face me. Her eyes were pink, I could see the trails of tears that fell down her cheeks...but what made me sad the most...was the sad smile that she tried to gave me to show that she'll be fine
But I knew wasn't
I kneeled down and hugged her tightly
'it's okay. It's okay to cry...in front of me.' I said with a sad smile 'so let it all out.'
I felt Byul's body tremble as she returned my hug tightly, burying her face on my shoulder and cried
I remained silent, only patting and stoking her hair comfortingly.
- Yunho Pov -
I carried Jaejoong to my shrine, tacking him in, in one of my guest rooms
I stared down at Jaejoong who was completely unconscious...I couldn't help but to feel worried and uneasy at the thought of Jaejoong waking up with no memories of nearly a year....
Jaejoong and Byul...both meet 10 months ago
10 month worth of memories are erased
I let out a sigh...I definitely have to prepare myself for when he wakes up
- The Next Day -
I sighed as I drank another cup of coffee, I won't deny it. I had kept myself up since yesterday waiting for Jaejoong to wake up...not to mention I couldn't even sleep since I haven't thought of what to say if Jaejoong start throwing questions at me
'maybe it would be best to call Dambi over....' I thought 'He probably will let her off better then me'
sigh...
Groan
'What the hell' I heard a housed voice groaned
I gave another sigh 'well his up.' I thought and headed to the guest room
- Jaejoong Pov -
I groaned rubbing my throbbing head, my head ached, as if something drilling into it...my body was numb, feeling pins and needles if I slightly moved
Why the hell was I in this state?
I let out a pained groan, pushing the feeling of pain away and trying to gasp on my memories of how I even ended up in an unknown room
'Your finally up' I heard a voice spoke by the door
Recognizing the voice I let out another groan but not one that was in pain but an irritated one
Why him? Why is he here?
'What's going on? Why am I here?' I asked 'and why do I feel like '
'I found you collapsed in the park and brought you back to my place' Yunho stated with a stoic expression and sarcastically added 'how thankful of you'
I couldn't be bothered to fire back a comeback or even rolled my eyes in annoyance, the pain and aching that ran though my body, bursting and banging feeling inside of my head were unbearable
Yunho let out a sigh 'I brought you some pain killers and water' he stated, handing me the two
- 3rd person Pov -
While handing Jaejoong his medicine, Yunho noticed the necklace that hung around Jaejoong's neck, observing it, he could see it was a feather inside a small vial.
'that's Byul's...' Yunho's mind processed
Without thought Yunho reached for the necklace, Jaejoong who caught on, stopped Yunho's hand and glared hard at him
'What are you doing?' Jaejoong questioned anger was shown in his tone, as he threw Yunho's hand away 'Back off'
Jaejoong's defensiveness surprised Yunho, Yunho hadn't seen this side of Jaejoong before
'is it important?' Yunho questioned
Yunho was curious, he knew Jaejoong would have no memory of how Jaejoong had gotten the necklace or what it was for...so he was curious of what the necklace meant to Jaejoong
Jaejoong was in deep thought. Where did he received it from? Was it him or who gave it to him? What did it meant to him? The more he thought, the more the throbbing pain in his head grew
But he knew one thing 'It's important and it's none of your business' Jaejoong Stated
-Dambi Pov-
my mind was wondering off, while walking to my class...it was unfortunate that the very next day of the incident we would have class. My thoughts always brought me back to Byul...
how's she feeling? Is she alright? What if she's crying again?
This morning everyone in the shop convinced me to attend my class. Hesitatingly I left...but right now I wasn't too sure with myself
'well...I have to see how's Jaejoong's holding up too...' I thought to myself, to lessen my worry of Byul
Upon entering the class, I instantly spotted Jaejoong seated at his desk as usual and Yunho was seated in front of him
I pulled a smile 'Morning Jaejoong Oppa Yunho Oppa' I greeted with a small wave
They both looked at me
'Morning Dambi' Jaejoong returned my greeting 'how's your morning today?'
I hesitated to respond 'Ah it was good...' was all I could say 'How about you Oppa?'
He was in deep thought 'well strangely I had to wake up in this guy's shrine' he stated glaring at Yunho 'aside from that...good I guess'
I tilt my head in question 'you guess?' I asked
Jaejoong seemed to be lost in thought
'I can't help but to be bothered by this feeling...this feeling like I'm forgetting something' Jaejoong stated, as he was staring off somewhere or something
I followed his line of sight...
'ah...that's where Byul normally sits' I thought seeing what he had been staring at the empty desk beside him
from the corner of my eyes, I could see Yunho having his attention on Jaejoong's behavior and words
'is it strange?...that I feel like I'm missing something? But can't seem to know or remember what it is? ' Jaejoong questioned more to himself then he was asking me or Yunho
there was a short silence in the room, me nor Yunho knew what to say to break the silence
But then Jaejoong chuckled ' haha I'm being silly aren't i?' he questioned and smiled 'sorry if I'm being weird'
I shook my head and smiled 'not at all Oppa, maybe whatever it is you've forgotten is important' I said 'so it lingers in your mind'
-Jaejoong Pov-
I couldn't help but to stare at the empty seat beside me...why do I feel so hopeful, yet my mind is clouded in confusion?
'is it strange?...that I feel like I'm missing something? But can't seem to know or remember what it is? ' I questioned my thoughts without thinking 'or is it someone?...'
But seeing how ridiculous I was I only laughed softy 'haha I'm being silly aren't i?' i chuckled and smiled 'sorry if I'm being weird'
However, I didn't receive any looks of judgement, only looks of understanding and a warm smile from Dambi 'not at all Oppa, maybe what you've forgotten is important' Dambi said smiling 'so it lingers in your mind'
I nod agreeing to what Dambi had said, my mind would wonder and keep questioning...but the more I thought about it the pain in my head grew
But I knew of the feelings I had....
And it was Longing...but for who?
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