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I Love You - Part 1

Tiffany’s POV

My name is Tiffany Hwang. That’s my stage name actually. Well, my real name is Stephanie Hwang Miyoung. My late mother wanted to give me with that name, but my father named me Stephanie instead. So, I decided to use Tiffany as my stage name because it will always reminds me of my late mother. She died of lung cancer when I was eleven years old. After my mother died, my father took over the responsibility of raising me and two other of my siblings, my sister Michelle, and my brother Leo. I’m the youngest one.

I was born in San Francisco, and grew up in Diamond Bar, LA. Yeah, call me a Californian girl. I attended primary and secondary schools in California, South Pointe Middle School and Diamond Bar High School. I was very fond of singing, and my dream is to become a singer. I was determined to become a singer until one day, my determination results a positive hope when I was invited to audition at the SME Starlight Casting System, and later I have been offered to join the company on October 2004 in Los Angeles, California at age 15 as their trainee.

As I was offered as a trainee, I was asked by the company to undergo training in Seoul, Korea, and after the training, I will debut as an artist of their company there. My father objected my decision at first, knowing that I will be leaving my family, and will be far away from them to be in a country that foreign to me, without any companions. But I remain stubbornly with my decision, wanted to achieve my dream as a singer. And, I'm willing to go through any obstacles to achieve my dream, including leaving my family. He was so disappointed with me, because he wanted me to follow my older sister’s step, to study at the university after graduated from high school. My sister studied at Berkeley University, one of the top universities in the world. And, after three weeks of making the decision, finally he relented, knowing that he couldn’t do nothing to persuade me anymore. I promised him that I will continue my study there, and will be graduated from high school.

So, here I am in Seoul, after becoming a trainee for almost five years, I finally debuted in 2008 as a singer, and this year is going to mark my seventh year of being an artist. I have to admit, my path to become of what I am right now wasn’t that easy. Too many bad memories, especially when I missed my family so much. I often cried myself during the nights before I sleep. But, luckily I met this person. The person who’s always there for me whenever I feel sad or happy. She’s like an angel that come down from heaven, to guide me when I almost lost my strength to pursue my dream. The name of my angel is Kim Taeyeon.

We lived in the same dorm during our trainee years, and she’s always took care of me, and helped me when I studying Korean language since I’m not so fluent with it. We’re so close to each other until we become best friends. Because of being too closely, my affection towards her slowly grew, and without I realize I can't live without her. I realize that I fall in love with her, but I didn't know what was her reaction will be if I confess to her about my feeling. So, I just kept my feeling inside.

After a year of our debut, both of us were so busy with our schedule until we seldom could catch up with each other. Sometimes, when I came home, she’s already asleep as she needs to get up early for her schedule, and same thing goes to me too. I felt so restless, because sometimes I wanted to share with her about my tiredness, my busy schedule, and my worries, and I wanted her to comfort me, at least as a best friend.

One day, after I had done recording my performance in one of a music programmes, I had been approached by a guy. I knew him because we had been attending the same music programs for the past few months. So far we just exchanged glances and smiles towards each other just like that. He’s a singer too, and his name is Nichkhun from JYP Agency.

“Ermm.. h-hi Tiffany ssi!.”, he said as he stood next to me. I was startled at first as I was so engrossed watching other performances without realizing that he’s already stood next to me.

“Oh.. err.. hi Nichkhun ssi!”, I replied awkwardly as I turned to look at him. He smiled at me, and I have to admit, his smile was cute, and he has a cute face.

“Still not going back?”, he asked. I glanced at him, and noticed he was staring at me.

“Uhmm.. I-I’m waiting for my manager oppa to pick me up”, I replied. I felt a bit uncomfortable with him sitting next to me, but I just ignored it, and tried to focus on watching other artists performances on stage.

“Oh, same here. I’m waiting for my manager hyung too”, he said, and then paused. “Ermm.. Tiffany ssi, if you don’t mind, can I buy you drinks at the cafe downstairs? Maybe we can have a chat while waiting our managers to come”, Nichkhun suggested. I was stunned at first.

“Ottoke? What should I do? Should I agree on his suggestion? But he seems like a nice guy. Maybe he just want to be friends with me since we’re still newbie to this industry”, I thought. After spending few minutes of thinking whether I should agree on his request or not, suddenly my phone’s rang. Thank God! I saved by the bell!

“Yoboseyo? Oh, oppa! Yes, I’m still at the studio. Okay, I will be coming out right now. I will see you soon, oppa”, I said as I hung up. I glanced at Nichkhun. His face looks dejected as he knew that I couldn’t make it.

“I’m so sorry, Nichkhun ssi. My manager has already arrived. I will see you next time”, I said as I bowed to him, and headed to the studio’s exit door.

“Phew!”, I sighed in relief. It’s not that I wanted to run away from him. I'm just not used to having male friends in this industry. I only had Taeyeon in my life as a friend so far. I just couldn’t wait to go home to see Taeyeon. I missed her a lot today.

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“Thanks, oppa”, I thanked my manager as I got out of the car.

“Don’t forget about tomorrow’s schedule, okay?”, he said.

“Dae, oppa. I’ll see you on tomorrow morning”, I replied, and closed the car’s door. He waved his hand at me before he slowly drove away from the apartment building where our dorm was located. Our dorm is actually a three rooms apartment, which has been rented by the company. We lived together with other female artists and staffs under SME. The dorm has three rooms, and each room has its own bathroom. Me and Taeyeon sharing the same room.

After walking out of the elevator, I slowly heading to the dorm’s door, and entered the password to unlock the door. I was about to open the door when suddenly I heard someone called me.

“Fany ah, you just arrived?”, the owner of the familiar voice asked. I turned my head at my right side, and finally saw the face that I missed so much. She looked tired as I could see dark circles formed on her eyes.

“Taeng? Yeah, I just finished my music program recording schedules. How’s your reality show’s recording today?”, I asked with a smile while staring at her.

“So freaking tired! I felt like my body was numb. I couldn’t believe they forced me to do bungee jumping today. Ridiculous!”, she grunted. I chuckled on her grumble. Taeyeon was in a middle of recording ‘We Got Married’ reality show with Jeong Hyeongdon oppa, a senior artist and also a comedian.

“So, you really did it, right?”, I asked. She slowly nodding her head while pouting. Haishh...

“I have to. Otherwise, I will ruin the whole recording”, she replied, still pouting. Kim Taeyeon, jebal..

“Have you eaten?”, I asked. Again, she just shook her head, pouting. This kid..

“Alright, let’s get inside. I will cook ramyun for us, okay?”, I said. She immediately shifted her gaze at me.

“What about you?”, she asked. I just let out a faint smile, and shook my head. She sighed, and pulled my arm to get inside our dorm. She closed the door, and pulled me into the kitchen.

“Let’s cook together, okay?”, she said with a smile.

“But, Taeng, you’re tired”, I protest. She then pulled the kitchen cabinet’s door, and took a pot. She put the pot on the kitchen counter, and patted my head.

“It’s okay, Fany ah. I don’t have any schedule in the morning, so I will have more time to rest. I know you have a schedule early in the morning on tomorrow”, she said.

“Fine”, I replied as I relented, not wanting to argue more since both of us were tired. I took two packets of ramyun from the kitchen’s cabinet, and started to open the plastic packets. Taeyeon then took the pot into the kitchen sink, and started to fill it with the water. She brought the pot into the stove, and twisted the ignition switch to light the stove. While waiting for the water to boil, she walked to the fridge and opened it. She took out two eggs, chives and kimchi. She brought all the ingredients into the kitchen counter, put them there, and took a knife and chopping board from the cabinet’s drawer.

“Let me wash the chives first”, I said as I took the chives, and brought it into the kitchen sink.

“Thanks, Fany ah”, Taeyeon said, and started to chop the kimchi.

“No problem, Taeng”, I replied while continue my work to wash the chives.

After she had done preparing the ingredients, she put them all inside the boiling pot, and I helped her to put the ramyun, together with the seasoning powder. She then took over the task to stir the ingredients inside the pot, and after repeating the process several times, she scooped some soup to taste it. She nodded her head, and let the ramyun cook for several minutes before she put out stove fire.

“Alright, done!”, she said while grinning, satisfied with the cooking.

“Looks delicious, huh?”, I said, and suddenly my stomach growling, causing this kid to laugh. My face suddenly felt hot due to the embarrassment.

“Alright, let’s eat before your stomach rampage again”, she said as she stop laughing, and walked to the kitchen cabinet to take out the bowls and chopsticks. She put them on the kitchen counter, and walked to the stove to take the pot. She carefully lift the hot pot using cooking mitts, and carried it to the kitchen counter. She scoop some ramyun from the pot, and put it into the bowl.

“Here you go”, she said as she put the bowl and chopsticks in front of me.

“Thanks, Taeng”, I thanked her. She just smiled in return, and scooped some ramyun to put it into her bowl. She then walked to the kitchen counter, and pulled the stool to sit next to me. “Alright, let’s eat!”, she chirped, and started devouring her ramyun. I took the chopstick, and began to eat since my stomach keep on growling non-stop.

“Mmm.. mashisseoyo (it’s delicious)!”, I said. She smiled, and patted my head.

“Eat more, okay? I know you’re hungry”, she said. I just nodded my head, and continue eating. We chatted on random things while eating.

After taking turn freshen up ourselves, I immediately landed my body on the bed, feeling exhausted. I took my Totoro plushie, and hugged it tight. Taeyeon was still in the bathroom, brushing her teeth. I was about to close my eyes when suddenly I felt a weight on my bed.

“Good night, and sleep well, Fany ah”, I heard a whisper on my ear, and receiving a kiss on top of my head. I smiled, knowing the person who did those gesture ever since we’ve become best friends. Sometimes, I just pretended to sleep early, just because I wanted to wait for her to do those loving gestures to me every night. She pulled the cover, and put it on me before she switched off the lights.

“Good night, and sleep well too, Taeng”, I whispered slowly to myself before I dozed off.

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“Taeng ah, what do you think if this one guy wants to be friends with me?”, I asked her purposely, wanting to know her reaction. We’re sitting on the couch while watching TV. Today is Sunday, and I’m glad that both of us are free from any schedules. We decided just to stay at home, and have a rest.

“I think it’s okay. Anyone can be friends with you”, Taeyeon replied nonchalant while her eyes still glued on the TV screen. She seemed like not to be bothered with my question earlier. I felt my mood suddenly dropped. I felt like all this while, with our closeness, and those gestures she showed to me were meant nothing to her. Yeah, we’re just best friends.

“Oh, you think so?”, I asked. She just nodded her head. Again, my heart crushed. She didn’t care about me, about my feelings. It’s only me who just have this one-sided love. For her, we’re only best friends, nothing more than that. I just wanted to know if she has the same feeling as mine. But, her answers just were enough for me to know. I felt my eyes were hot, and I tried my best to hold this tears from falling. I quickly got up from the couch.

“Where are you going?”, she asked while turning her head at me.

“I want to take a nap. I feel sleepy”, I lied.

“Oh, okay”, she said, and focused back her eyes on TV. I turned my heels, and quickly walked towards our bedroom. I closed the door, and plopped my body on the bed. I took my Totoro plushie, and hug it tight. I felt my chest tightened, and my tears finally rolling down my cheeks.

“I love you, Kim Taeyeon. Why don’t you feel the same?”

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Hello chinggus! I'm so sorry for not updating in such a long time. I'm currently having this writer's block disease, plus with my busy working life. I hope you will like this short update. Thank you for being patience with me. I don't want to promise for the fast update because I don't want to disappoint you guys. But, I will try my best, okay? Don't forget to comment! Love you all! :)

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