You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy, when skies are grey
You’ll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don’t take my sunshine away…

*

Yoona felt something squeezing the life out of her at the words that Yuri has confessed to her.

It wasn’t supposed to affect her not like this, but here was Yoona scrambling for the right words or even right expression for what Yuri just told her.

“I- I got to go” Yoona quickly turns around but instead Yuri pulls her closer, enveloping Yoona tightly in her embrace. “L-let me go Yuri…” Yoona tries to pry Yuri’s arms off her but it only made Yuri’s grip on her tighter.

Yuri could tell Yoona right now that she knew her plan, that she knew that Yoona’s intention wasn’t to love her but to use her for her convenience. But instead, Yuri chooses this, to be a pawn to Yoona’s game because a part of her, the part that loves Yoona recklessly still believes that someday she could make Yoona fall for her.

And Yuri was willing to try no matter how much hurt Yoona or her decision to love Yoona could give her.

“No. I won’t. Yoona I love you…”

Yoona’s felt her inside paralyze at those words, she knew how Yuri felt but hearing it for the first time spoken to her so genuinely, so purely created a debacle in Yoona’s head and heart.

“I let you walk away once and I won’t let it happen again…”

Yoona couldn’t explain the warring thoughts in her head and screams out. “WE WERE KIDS THEN!”

“AND I HAVE LOVED YOU THEN!” Yuri argues back as she fights the tears to no avail, she pulls Yoona closer to her again and this time softly whispers, pleading and begging to Yoona. “And I love you now… and I would love you for the rest of my life.”

And words were running out to describe Yoona’s emotions and she took Yuri in her arms and expresses to Yuri the best way she knows how.

With a kiss…

*

Flashback

How can someone’s parents put their child in so much misery?

Yuri have always have that question in her head as she felt trapped in her own home with endless lessons of piano, violin and whatever her parents deemed appropriate for a child of her breeding. The sound of a girl’s laughter probably around the same age as her interrupted her thoughts.

Yuri walks towards her bedroom window, she scoffs in amusement as she sees a young girl with twigs and leaves in her hair, down on her fours, raking the leaves with her hands beside her mother.

“YOONG!” her mother says in dismay…

“KEKEKEKEKEKEKE”

Yuri smiles at the sound of that big laugh and Yoong, whoever she is still happily raking the leaves.

“Look at your dress, young lady…”

“I’m helping you mama…”

“I know darling…” Yoona’s mother shakes her head at her playful daughter. “Thank you”

And Yuri didn’t know how long she was staring at her, until Yoona turns and caught her staring. Yuri quickly turns away.

“HIIIIIIIII!!!!!!”

“Yoong! Who are you saying hi too?” Her mother wondered.

Yuri smugly scoffs and shut the blinds at the waving girl at the lawn.

“HMMMP! Stupid idiot”

*

For days, Yuri would stare at the stupid idiot playing in her lawn. And that irritated Yuri how the kids of the help could go play around in HER back lawn while she was doing violin lessons.

But it was weird how just looking at the boisterous Yoong jumping up and down makes her violin, piano and whatever lessons seem less dreadful.

“HIIIIIII!!!!!!”

And Yuri growls and shut the blinds again at the girl.

“UGH! Doesn’t she know when to give up?”

It was another meaningless afternoon and around this time Yoong was probably practicing her handstand in her lawn. Yuri could explain the emotion she felt when she found the lawn empty. Dissapointment maybe? Loneliness? Irritation or maybe a mix of all?

Her thoughts on where the stupid idiot could be were quickly interrupted as she heard someone knocking.

“HIIIIII!!!!!”

“Wh-“ Yuri couldn’t explain how she felt when she sees Yoong that close. It’s probably like watching someone on the television and then finally seeing them in person. “What are you doing here?!”

“You want to play with me?”

“NO! OF COURSE NOT” Gosh! The nerve of this girl…

“Why not?”

“Duh! Cause you’re… you’re the kid of the help.” But the wondering eyes of Yoona seems unfazed with it “I can’t be friends with poor kids.” Yuri says haughtily and it surprise her that it didn’t affect Yoona at all.

“My mama say I’m a vewy nice girl, Yuwi unnie”

“Wait… what did you just call me?”

“Yuwi unnie…”

“Unnie?” Nobody calls Yuri-shii, unnie especially not her. “HOW DARE YOU CALL ME UNNIE WHEN WE'RE NOT EVEN FRIENDS?! AND MY NAME IS YU-RI NOT YUWEE!!!” Yuri gulps when she see the startled look from Yoong’s face “S-sssorry… didn’t mean to scream at you like that”

KEKEKEKEKE…

“What?”

“It’s okay… you’re my chingu…”

“But I just screamed at you…”

Yoona shakes her head. “but you’re still my chingu…”

*

Yuri was getting scolded at almost everyday. Why was her dress always muddy? Her hair is full of leaves or twigs? but she doesn’t seem to care about that anymore, she finally knew the feeling of being a child. And Yoona was the reason of it all, she was just so full of life and so innocent. And slowly, very slowly, she became the one that lightens up Yuri’s day.

Yoona was making her doll climb up the stairs in Yuri’s doll house when she turns around and sees Yuri smiling as she stares at her.

“What?!”

“Nothing… kekeke”

“KEKEKEKE”

Yuri smiles happily seeing Yoona playing happily with her doll house. Yuri have never appreciated her toys until now that there is someone she could share it with. Yoona always bring her favorite raggedy Barbie when they play house. And sometimes Yuri couldn’t help but feel bad for Yoona to be playing with something that old.

“You like her?” Yoona beaming proudly as she sees Yuri looking at her doll again.

“Ummm… she’s ok”

“You can borrow her if you like”

And Yuri couldn’t believe at what Yoona just said. Yuri’s parents always make her do playdates with those snobby girls and despite off all the toys they have, they won’t even share something that they hardly play with. But here was Yoong, with her precious doll selflessly offering it to Yuri.

“What? But she’s your favorite doll?”

“I know you’ll take care of her” Yoona hands the doll to Yuri.

“T-thank you”

And Yoona’s lips spread in a wide grin as she sees Yuri unnie playing with her doll.

*

And that night, instead of the porcelain dolls or soft plushies, Yuri chose to sleep beside Yoona’s raggedy doll.


End of flashback

*

Yoona pushes Yuri away softly as they find the need to breathe...


"I got to go..."


And Yoona didn't even wait for Yuri's answer as she runs back to her house, unsure of what she just did.


*

"So, you suddenly turned gay now?"


Yoona turns toward Donghae as he spoke to her with such an accusatory tone.


"I thought that's what what you wanted?"


"Yeah..." Yoona's bed dipped as Donghae sits down beside her "But you look like you were enjoying the kiss much more than you are suppose to"


Yoona grits her heart out "I wasn't"


"Oh really?" There was that accusatory tone again "So, how did you feel when you two kissed, huh?"


Yoona closes her eyes, she never knew this plan was going to be harder than she thought and now she was into deep, both with Yuri and Donghae "I felt disgusted"


"Well... I guess i have to credit you there, sis... because you really look like you were enjoying it"


"I wasn't."



"Ok... just making sure" Donghae ruffles Yoona's hair before getting up "because we don't want your feelings to get caught in the way"


"It won't"


"Good." Donghae smiles.... "Cause the party is just about to begin..."



*

Yuri lay her finger on her lips and smile, although their kiss ended up with Yoona walking away. Still, the fact that Yoona kissed her back made all the difference in the world.


Now the question was, was it a real kiss or was it just a part in Yoona's plan? Yuri didn't know but for now she will live it.


*

*Flashback*

A 7 year old Yuri walks around her sprawling lawns, but Yuri couldn’t appreciate the beauty of it, not when her heart is pounding louder every second that her bestfriend Yoong is not with her.

“YOONG?!”

“Yuwi unnie… kekekekeke” The adorable six year old has still problems pronouncing her letter “R’s”. Yuri might get annoyed if it was another person but since it was Yoona who was saying it, Yuri finds her nickname cute.

“YAH! Yoong!” Yuri screams in her best adult voice as she sees the naughty, scrawny girl up in the tree. “Come down before you fall”

“Ok…ok…” Yoona grips on the tree ready to slide down, but when she slips and almost fell of and saw how high she was, Yoona started to tremble in fear. “Yuwi unnie… I’m scawed…” Holding her grip tighter on the tree’s trunk.

Yuri felt her heart beating out of her chest in fear, there is nothing scarier for her than seeing Yoona in trouble and knowing that she can’t do anything about it.

“Just stay there Yoong… I’m going to call Donghae oppa”

“Nooo…” Yoona says tearfully, it was getting dark and she didn’t want to be by herself… “Don’t leave me”

Yuri stops in her tracks and tries to swallow her tears as she sees Yoona crying. She shakes her head and still her trembling knees “Jump down…”

“W-wae?”

“Jump down and I’ll catch you” Yuri extends out her scrawny arms. It wasn’t really a brilliant plan, but she’s willing to try anything. Anything for Yoona.

“B-but you might get huwt”

Yuri shakes her head “I don’t care as long as you’re ok. Now come on…”

Yoona teetered towards the branch, she grips the trunk again unsure if this was really a good idea. But when she looks down and sees her Yuri unnie with her arms open wide to catch her, she knows she’s going to be okay.

The two crashed to the ground at the impact and Yuri could feel her tears pouring out in pain despite her warning not to let them. She quickly wipes it off before Yoona could see it. Yoona looks up and sees Yuri crying.

“Yuwi unnie” Yoona wipes Yuri’s tears away with her hand “Mianhe…”

Yuri takes Yoona’s hand and stares back at those innocent doe eyes, before pulling Yoona tightly in her arms. “No… don’t be… I don’t think I could take it if you get hurt.”

Yuri’s life was showered with beautiful dolls, princess like gowns and a home comparable to the fairy tale castles. But at the age of seven, when the whole world was slaving so they could have their distorted ideas of happiness, she found the true meaning of her happiness, and its with this girl right here in her arms.

And Yoona, rambunctious as she is, tried to stay still, anything so she could stay longer in her Yuri unnie’s embrace. Because right that very moment, Yoona have never felt so safe than when she was wrapped around Yuri’s arms.

*

Yoona’s eyes widen in amazement at the beautiful lighted gardens, she and Yuri would play tag or hide and seek there but tonight, their little playground have turned into every little’s girl’s dream. Yuri’s party was a celebration fit for a princess.

Yoona’s smile slowly fades away into a look of embarrassment as she sees every girl dancing around in their beautiful dresses. She stares down at what she thought was her prettiest dress, it was actually a hand me down from Yuri.

What is she doing here?”

What an ugly dress

Who is that?

Hide your stuff she might steal it

So, this is what Yuri was talking about when they first met. She thought it didn’t matter, her mom made her believe that as long as she was a good girl other kids would want to be friends with her. But here she was being targeted by girls who have no idea who she was.

Yoona wished she could have disappeared instead of being looked at like she was trash. Every sneer and every haughty looks she receive didn’t do anything but hurt her worse. She nudges the hand of her mother…

“Mama… what am I doing wrong?”

“Nothing sweetheart… some people say mean things to make themselves feel better, if you let them affect you then you have let them win.”

And Yoona could feel them winning…

“Look, Yuri is there, don’t you want to greet her and give her your gift?”

Yoona’s heart sank at the mountain of exquisite gifts. She didn’t have any money to buy Yuri a gift, but she knew that Yuri likes to play with her favorite doll. And without any hesitation, Yoona bath the doll, put a new dress on it and was willing to give it to Yuri.

Yoona gazes at Yuri who was surrounded by beautiful princesses, but Yuri was the most beautiful girl of them all. She was definitely most deserving of the Kwon princess title.


You are my sunshine, my only sunshine…


Yuri has been searching the crowd since her party began for the doe eyed, scrawny girl. She was surrounded by the faceless crowd who kept on showering her with insincere compliments. And right now, on her birthday all she wished is to be away from everyone and stay with her bestfriend…

And finally Yuri sees Yoona standing there, no one’s pricey ball gowns or shimmering shoes could amount to how beautiful Yoona is to Yuri. Yuri smiles as her birthday wish just came true.



You make me happy, when skies are grey…


“YOONG!!!!”

Yuri pushed through the crowd of those snobbish daughters of her parents’ friends and made way to her bestfriend.

“C’mon! C’mon!” Yuri tugs on Yoona’s hand “Let’s go get some cake!” But Yuri knows that something was wrong when Yoona pulls away from her hand. “Yoong?”

And at the tender age of six, Yoona have realized the two different worlds that she and Yuri belonged to.



You’ll never know dear, how much I love you…


Unfortunately, Yuri erased all thoughts of this. The only world that Yuri now knows is the one where Yoona is in it.

“I don’t want to go…” Yoona pulls away as Yuri tries to take her hand again.

“What? Why not?” Yuri look surprisingly, This is supposed to be her day, why can’t she just be with the one person she wished for?

“I… I just want to go home.”

“Are you feeling sick?” Yuri asks worriedly…

“No…” it worried Yuri that Yoona stopped being her playful self. Yuri’s heart was beating faster every second, whatever was happening was scaring her. She couldn’t help but wonder if she did anything wrong… And just when she was still figuring thoughts in her head, what Yoona called her was enough to halt everything in her world.

“Happy Birthday Yuwi-shii”

And all Yuri could do is watch as Yoona have walked away from her party, from her and eventually from her life.

“It’s Yuri unnie!” Yuri tries to call out, hoping Yoona could hear and run back to her.

At eight years old, Yuri have felt the miserable feeling of losing someone. At eight years old, Yuri have already selflessly gave her heart out to someone and at eight years old, while kids her age were still playing and discovering things, Yuri have already found herself heartbroken as Yoona walk away, unknowingly carrying Yuri’s heart with her.

Yuri tries to call out again, but this time she felt something clenching and instead of yelling louder, Yuri could only muster a tearful whisper.

“It’s Yuri unnie…”

Please don’t take my sunshine away…

*End of flashback*