Lately, Yoona had been haunted by nightmares… Bills, bills, the flooding of bills were starting to drown her. Yoona could only gulp as she has in her hand another bill screaming at her to get paid.

“Yoong?”

Yuri yell from the bathroom, woke Yoona up from her living nightmare.

“Yes Yul?”

Yuri peeked out of the bathroom adorned with a frown on her face.

“We don’t have any more cotton buds…”

Yoona could almost cower as Yuri added another expense to her list.

“Ok…” Yoona manages to force a smile “I’ll buy one after work…”

“Ok…” Yuri went back in the bathroom before peering out again “Yoona?”

“Hmmm?”

“I love you…”

And suddenly Yoona forgot what she was worrying about. She turns to the girl, Yuri’s face has the look similar to a child who’s begging for attention.

“I love you too…” Yoona smiles

“Give me a kiss…” Yuri’s pout adorably, waiting impatiently for a kiss. Yoona drops the bills on the table and walks over to the girl, cupping Yuri’s cheek before laying a kiss on her nose.

“HEY!” Yuri says disappointingly making Yoona giggle and kisses Yuri on the lips to appease the girl.

One kiss and they wonder, what was it that they were worrying about again?


*

“I’m guessing the Jessica Jung doesn’t know how to keep her end of the bargain.”

Jessica could only snarl as she sees Taecyeon flashing his so called disarming smile at her.

“I wanted Yoona, but I see she’s still all over Kwon…” Taecyeon says bluntly.

“Just give it up, Taec… you’re no match for Yuri.”

But before Jessica could walk away, Taecyeon holds a firm grip on Jessica’s arm.

“Then maybe you should keep me company” He whispers “What you think of that?”

“I don’t… cause I’m not interested.”

“Pffft… How could you not want me?” Taecyeon raises his brow “You’re not into chicks like your cousin, right?”

How could words that come out from a d0uche like Taec, affect Jessica like this?

Then out of nowhere, Jessica walks closer to Taec, freezing the lanky guy in his state.

“Then, let’s get out of here…”

*

Yuri throws the folders on the backseat and growls in frustration…

“There… there…” Sooyoung calms her bestfriend…

“They say they would just call me, they always say that but it’s like two weeks already and no one is hiring me!”

“Well… they would want someone who has experience” Sooyoung reasons out calmly.

“How could I have experience when no one is hiring me?” Yuri lashes out before sighing in defeat…

“Sorry about that buddy…If you want I could treat you out for dinner… Food always make things better, right?”

Yuri just hums absentmindedly to Sooyoung’s offer. The city becoming nothing more but a blurred vision as the car runs the street.

“You know it’s our 6 months anniversary this Saturday.” Yuri finally spoken up.

“Wow… 6 months?” Sooyoung says in disbelief “And you guys have been in more crap than a friggin Korean drama”

“I know…”Though what Sooyoung said sounded absurd, Yuri couldn’t help but agreed to it “I would have wanted to take Yoona to the Silva’s…”

Sooyoung gives out a low whistle… “That place? It’s like the priciest place in town!”

“Yeah… tell me about it… But I wished I could have given Yoona that life, before we ended up to this…”

“Well… if it makes you feel better, you two have lived in a pricey apartment.”

No, it doesn’t make Yuri feel better. But who was she to lash out to her bestfriend about that, when the girl only wanted to help?

“I used to think that I was invincible Soo…” Yuri quietly admitted “That I could have anything I wanted and that nothing was ever going to defeat me…” Yuri could only sneer at that foolish notion. “Look who I am now? I can’t even treat my girlfriend out to a decent date.”

Sooyoung sits quietly, not knowing the right respond. And as she glances back at her bestfriend looking out of the car window again, Sooyoung realizes that Yuri wasn’t looking for a respond. She just needed someone that would hear and listen to what she was about to say.

And the whole car ride was quiet as Sooyoung kept Yuri company at her lowest point.

*

“I didn’t know a cheesecake was that easy to make…” Yoona’s eyes beamed as Taeyeon carefully pulls out her cheesecake masterpiece from the fridge.

“You want to taste?”

Yoona nods too innocently and Taeyeon couldn’t help but laugh, making sure to give the girl a huge slice.

“Mmmmm…” Yoona says eagerly as she takes one forkful of the cake. “I’m sure Yuri would love this…”

“Keke… that’s pretty sweet of you to try to make her one for your anniversary.”

“I felt like we're worrying so much about our practical stuff these days, for one night I wished we could just forget about all that and just have fun.”

Taeyeon hated to be a pessimist but she needed to help the girl face reality. “But, the money you earn here isn’t enough for both of you.”

“I know” Yoona admitted sadly “I ummm got offered a job at a nursing home, they knew I was a nursing student and since I got good grades they offered to pay for my nursing aide license exam and I passed it.”

“WOW! Yuri must be so proud of you…”

Yoona looks away in embarrassment. “I ummm… I didn’t tell her.”

“What?” Taeyeon looks at the girl in confusion “Why not?”

“Well… I got offered the night shift which is like 7 pm to 7 am. I don’t know how Yuri would react to it yet.”

“Did you take the job though?”

“I had to.” Yoona says with a bit of bitterness. “I enjoy working here but its not going to be enough. At least if I took that job, I wouldn’t have to worry so much about how were going to pay our bill or is it enough for us to get a decent meal.”

“What are you going to do about school?”

Yoona knows the answer but didn’t know how to quite say it. “I decided to just finish this semester and just work after.”

“Yoona…” Taeyeon could only utter the younger girl’s name in worry. There was so much she wants to say to Yoona, things like thinking her decision through, of taking care of her future first before worrying about her and Yuri now. But Taeyeon just nod knowing that Yoona have made her decision. “Well, Yoong if you need help with anything tell me, ok?”

“I will…”

*

Oh… this would definitely top the list of one of her most awkward moments, being chosen as president and vice president of their school government practically meant spending a lot of time together. But Tiffany could only look, Yuri was just a few feet away from her but it might as well be a crater separating them as Yuri didn’t even act like Tiffany was in the room with her.

But Tiffany was rather foolish and chosen to speak first despite knowing the consequences of getting shot down by Yuri.

“How have you been, Yuwree?”

“Good…” Yuri said without even flinching away from the paperworks.

“Well that’s good. Jessica told me what happen, I’m sorry about what happen between you and your parents.”

Yuri just shrugs and continued working…

“Must have being poor, huh?”

Tiffany jumps up at the sound of Yuri’s fist slamming on the table.

“You don’t have any good thing to say then shut it.” Yuri says in a low growl.

“Here, I am trying to sympathize with you and yet you act like this.”

“Don’t even think about it Fany, we both know you’re probably enjoying this.”

Tiffany snickers in delight “I think I’am…”

Yuri says out a low growl before going back to her paperworks. Then, a thought came to mind, she doesn’t need to do it around tiffany. But as Yuri started gathering her things, Tiffany spoke up.

“You know Yuwree, if you stay with me you don’t have to stay poor like this, I could give you the best things in life, all you need to do is choose me.”

“You don’t love me, Tiffany, you just think you do… none of these girls do, but Yoona she does. So why would I give up a perfect love for something superficial like yours?"

Tiffany hated being corrected especially when it comes to her own feelings.

“HOW WOULD YOU KNOW IT’S SUPERFICIAL?! YOU ARE NOT ME!!! YOU DON’T KNOW HOW I FEEL!!!”

“Do you love me enough to stay with me? When the life that you have had, had been taken away from you? Do you Fany?”

Tiffany haven’t thought of that but she answered Yuri unsurely. “Y-yes?”

“Pfft… We both know you won’t.”

“How would you know?”

“You know what, Tiffany don’t do this…” This time there was no anger in Yuri’s voice, it’s almost sound like she’s pleading at the girl.

“Do what?”

Yuri steps closer to Tiffany and looks at the girl straight in the eye. “I don’t love you, Fany but I care about you as a friend… Please don’t ever mistake that for love, because it’s far from it. I don’t think I will even think of being in this situation if it was with somebody else. But it’s Yoona… and I could deal with having no light, or having to live in this God damn heat, Hell… I’ll probably deal having nothing to eat, but just the thought of Yoona hurt and I die a little bit inside…”

Tiffany couldn’t help but die a little bit inside at Yuri’s confession.

“Just let go, Tiffany and there would be someone who would love you as much.”

Tiffany’s self loathing was interrupted by the buzzing of Yuri’s phone.

“Excuse me, Tiffany… I got to take this.”

And as Yuri walk out of the room to receive the call, Tiffany was just left there mourning for a loss that wasn’t even hers.

*

“A dishwasher?”

Yuri asks again to confirm, not because she didn’t hear the guy but because she was making sure that the balding old man knows what he was saying. When she saw the hiring position at the store window she didn’t imagine it to be for a dishwasher.

“I’m sure you know how to wash dishes.”

“Ummm…” Yuri have never washed a dish in her whole life, even now in their situation, Yoona would be the one to take care of it.

“Look, Kid… with how fukced up the economy is, you should be thankful that I’m hiring you.”

“B-but… could I just be a waitress or something?”

“I admit you’re a pretty girl and customers might like to look at you but I’m not going to put someone up there who’s not even sure what kind of food we serve. If you work as a dishwasher, you get to see how the food is made and stuff. Then maybe you could work your way up to waitress.”

“I….I guess…” Yuri could only agree. Yuri always dream that she would never have to look for a job, she knows she was inheriting her father’s business but look where she is now? A dishwasher in a low class Chinese restaurant.

“So, what do you say kid?”

Yuri wished she could tell the guy no, but she was at a lost right now and dishearteningly answered “Yes. I’ll take the job. Thank you.”

*

Jessica didn’t know why sleeping with Taec felt more like she’s nothing but a cheap call girl. She dabbles at her guesses, probably because she was faking it the whole time and most probably because she was doing it to shut down something about herself.

Everyone is just making love for their own pleasure, right now, who even makes love for the sake of love?

Love? How Jessica detest that word, but yet her eyes drifted back at the honey colored haired girl working in the counter. So, did it help? Did sleeping with Taec shut that nagging emotion inside of her?

It doesn’t feel like it, it was still there…

“Jessi…”

Jessica have never liked interruptions until now.

“Tiffany…”

Jessica used to be a master at reading expressions, that what makes her so scary because the things you try to keep hidden is the things that Jessica will expose you. But right now, Tiffany’s face was a mixture of emotions and Jessica have no idea which expression does Tiffany have.

“I don’t know how to say this, Jessi but… ummm… I’m backing out.”

“W-what? What does that mean?”

“I don’t want to be part of this destroy Yuwree’s relationship plan anymore. I’m… I’m going to let go.”

“Oh…” Jessica sneered “You’re doing the martyr’s way and finally giving up.”

“I was fighting a losing battle.”

“Still… you fight until you get what you have.”

“No. I would fight if I knew I had a chance Jessica, but I never had, Yuwree never gave me a chance. I’m so stupid…” Tiffany chuckles while she tries to stop the tears that are b in her eyes from falling. “I was holding on to something that I don’t even have.”

“Don’t even have?”


The things that we don't have are things we want the most...


“Why don’t you let go too?”

“Huh?” Jessica looks at Tiffany in confusion “Let go of what?”

“Of this hate you have for Donghae. Of trying to destroy his sister just because you know she’s the person he loves the most. Why don’t you close that page in your life, Jessica and just let go.”

Jessica grits her teeth, she hated being nagged at especially when it comes to what she feels.

“Fine! You think you’re so strong because you’re letting go? You’re not. You don’t let people win against you.”

“I’m losing myself because I’m holding on to someone that I don’t even have. Nobody is worth all this hurt Jessica, especially someone who doesn’t even care that they’re hurting you.But you know what? I’m not going to push you… if you think getting your revenge on him is what will make you happy, then go for it. But I wished you know, Jessica that whatever he did, or whatever he put you through. If he hurt you like this then he was not worth holding on to.”

Tiffany stands up and walks away from Jessica.

And yes letting go hurt Tiffany like hell, but loving Yuri felt like hell as well. Yet, Tiffany smiled knowing that for once in her life, she didn’t let what other people think dictate her, finally she made a decision on her own.

And as hard as it was, Tiffany was finally free to move on.

*

Pruney... Yuri looks at her pruned hands and groans in disgust. She would need to douse her hands in a bottle of lotion to make it smooth again. She spends almost the whole entire night washing those dishes and those crappy thing that they called gloves didn’t even work. who would have thought that it was that hard?

She works for four hours, with crappy pay but is it even worth it?

Yuri stares at their apartment door. It was only a few more minutes before their anniversary and Yuri stares back at the small paper bag that she had for Yoona. She couldn’t even afford to buy her a big gift since she basically have no money. She have to borrow from Sooyoung just so she could be able to give her something.

Yuri looks back in worry as she sees a their apartment lighted up with candle.

“W-what happen? Did they cut off our light?”

“What?” Yoona chuckles… “No… I’m ahhh… trying to make it more romantic by candlelight. Happy anniversary.”

Yoona have said it so gleefully that Yuri had simply forget the reason why she was worrying in the first place.

“Happy 6^th month anniversary.”

Yoona was about to take Yuri’s hand but the tanned girl embarrassingly stuff her hand back in her coat’s pocket. Yoona noticing Yuri’s reaction, quickly steps closer taking Yuri’s hand out.

Yuri’s soft hands smelled of detergent, it was rougher than what Yoona was used to holding.

“Umm… I found a job.” Yuri tries to say happily, even if she has to convince herself that.

“Really?”

And Yoona smiles painfully, Yuri didn’t need to tell her what job she had, it was obvious from the girl’s hands. Yoona lifted Yuri’s hands to her lips, brushing her lips gently on those hands.

“I feel so much better…” Yuri confesses before she wraps her arm around Yoona’s shoulders. Yuri leans her forehead on Yoona’s, and the two just smiled at each other. “You make every crap in my life just worth it.”

Yoona chuckles before kissing Yuri on the lips. “You’re such a romantic. Oh by the way, I want you to taste this.”

Yoona motions Yuri to sit down, Yoona lifted a fork to Yuri’s mouth and she couldn’t help but smile proudly as Yuri’s eyes gleamed at the cheesecake.

“Is it good?”

But Yuri answers Yoona with a kiss, letting Yoona taste the delectable sweet in , before she smiles teasingly. “What do you think?”

Yoona looks away to hide her blush. “It’s ummm good… I made it for you.”

“You did? I’m impressed.”

“Keke… Taeyeon unnie help me though.” Yoona kissed Yuri’s forehead before leaning hers against it. “For tonight, Yul, I just want you to forget everything. Just make this night about us.”

Yoona started her gift by pressing a kiss on Yuri’s lips.

*

It was a game of push and pull whenever Yuri and Yoona make love.

Yuri would hide her smile by nibbling at the soft flesh on Yoona’s neck. Simply enjoying the sound that Yoona would sputter everytime she would touch her. At the start, Yoona might think that she was winning as Yuri would take her gentle and slow. She would only let go of a few sensual moans accompanied by breathless I love you’s…

But Yuri perfectly knew how take all of the innocence out of Yoona and in one motion. Yuri would quickly push Yoona to the edge. It was almost like both of them have been possessed, pulled into a world where only they would know. The gentleness was replace with aggression, the sweetness with lust and the soft moans have grown to an almost scream…

And Yoona for countless of times would have like to scream to her lover to slow down, but its like has a mind of its own when the only word that comes out of her was the word more…

In the game of push and pull, nobody wins, for they end up losing their sanity, their emotions and their selves to their lover.

And in the game of push and pull, nobody lose, because there was no feeling that would ever feel greater than getting lost in each other’s arms.

*

Yuri stretches her body out satisfyingly before quickly latching on to the warmth beside her. Yoona chuckles as she felt Yuri nuzzling through her hair.

Yoona turns around and smiles as Yuri always have that goofy lovesick grin after the night.

“Good morning…” Yoona greets her with a cute yawn.

“Morning…”

“I have a gift for you…”

Yuri quickly got on top of Yoona… but was disappointed when Yoona started laughing and hit her on the arm.

“No, you … Wait…”

Yoona got out of bed and Yuri just watch admiringly at Yoona’s body moving gracefully even if she’s just walking.

Yoona turns around and hands Yuri a paper bag.

“Happy monthsary.”

“What’s in it?” Yuri tries to peek inside and finally digs her hand in. She couldn’t help but smile as she saw Yoona’s gift.

Her saloon brand shampoo and conditioner with a ribbon tied on the neck of the bottle.

Yoona smiles embarrassingly “I know what you might think Yul, but I…”

Yuri kisses Yoona on the lips…

“I love it.”

Yoona climbs back into bed and straight in Yuri’s arms. “I just want you to know Yul, that even if we're in this much crap right now. I’ll do what I can to make it easier. I love you…”

“I love you too…” Yuri then got out of bed and quickly picks up her gift.

“I got you something too…”

Yoona smiles got brighter as she pulls out a little Rillakuma bear from the bag. Yuri couldn’t help but feel embarrassed, before she would give those random chicks she had expensive gifts yet she couldn’t even give the one she loves a decent size bear.

But for Yoona it doesn’t matter, she tilts Yuri’s chin so she could stare in those hopeful worried brown eyes.

“I love it…”

“You do?” Yuri says doubtfully. “It’s kinda small so it’s not that huggable.”

“I don’t need a big one either.”

Yoona set the bear aside and wrap her arms around Yuri’s neck, pulling the girl on top of her.

“I already have you.”

The girls smile through their kiss as Yuri’s hand starts roaming Yoona’s body. And Yuri leans closer to take all of Yoona. Yuri have been in that place before countless of times but Yoona still couldn’t help but felt like it’s her first time whenever Yuri would touch her. It was exciting, nerve wrecking and above all addicting.

And they confess their love to each other the best way they know how…

By making love…

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